WHY DOES IT HURT SO BAD (SORRY SO LONG) Options

[BMORECUTIE]

LET ME START FROM THE BEGINNING..... ME AND MY MAN(I GUESS I CAN CALL HIM MY EX) STARTED HAVING PROBLEMS IN OCTOBER OF LAST YEAR I PUT HIM OUT LIKE 6 TIMES IN A 2 MONTH PERIOD BUT HE WOULD NEVER LEAVE. WELL ON DECEMBER 10 HE DECIDED THAT HE WAS GOING TO STAY OUT ALL NIGHT I DIDNT KNOW IF I SHOULD HAVE BEEN MAD OR WORRIED CAUSE HE NEVER STAYED OUT ALL NIGHT AND THEN HE WASNT ANSWERING HIS PHONE EITHER. SO IM CALLING HIS PHONE ALL NIGHT LONG BUT THE PHONE WAS OFF SO THE NEXT MORNING I GET A PHONE CALL FROM HIS PHONE FROM SOME DUDE SAYING THAT HE HAD FOUND THE PHONE WHEN HE SEEN SOMEBODY GETTING CHASED BY THE COPS AND PICKED IT UP I MEAN IT SOUNDED LIKE A LIE SO I HUNG UP ON THE DUDE BUT THEN I CALLED HIM BACK AND ASKED WHAT TIME DID THIS HAPPEN AND HE SAID LIKE 10 THAT MORNING SO THAT STILL AINT SAY WHERE HE WAS AT ALL NIGHT. SO LIKE 7:00 THAT NIGHT I GET ANOTHER PHONE CALL FROM MY MAN AND YES HE HAD HIS PHONE SAYING THAT HE WAS RUNNING FROM THE COPS AND THE PERSON WHO HOUSE HE WAS AT ALL DAY DIDNT HAVE A PHONE SO THAT WHY HE DIDNT CALL ME.... BY NOW I AM PISSED . I TOLD HIM TO COME GET HIS SHIT AND GO BACK WHERE HE STAYED AT ALL NIGHT OF COURSE HE SAID THAT HE WAS OUTSIDE HUSTLING ALL NIGHT AND HIS PHONE BATTERY WAS DEAD. I HUNG UP ON HIM AND HE CAME HOME LIKE 1:00 AM TALKING ABOUT HE WAS GIVING ME SOME TIME TO CALM DOWN BEFORE HE CAME HOME CAUSE HE KNEW I WAS MAD.... I DIDNT EVEN ARGUE WHEN HE CAME HOME I WENT TO BED THE NEXT DAY I COME HOME FROM WORK AND HE WAS PLAYING WITH THE DOGS AND I NOTICED THAT HE HAD A PASSION MARK ON HIS NECK... SO I SAY TO MYSELF I KNOW THIS n***a DONT HAVE NO PASSION MARK ON HIS NECK ... HE WALKED PAST ME AGAIN AND I SMACKED HIS NECK I TRIED TO SMACK IT OFF I SAID YO I KNOW YOU DONT HAVE NO PASSION MARK ON YOUR NECK HE GOES LOOK IN THE MIRROR AND SAY MAN THAT BEEN THERE... I TOLD HIM GET OUT I WAS SO MAD I WAS CRYING I THINK I WAS MORE HURT THAN MAD HE LOOKED IN MY FACE AND SWORE THAT HE DIDNT f**k NOBODY HE SAID HE GOT DRUNK AT THE CLUB OR SOME SHIT LIKE THAT I WAS PISSED OFF I WAS CRYING HE WAS CRYING AND ME PALYING DUMMIE FOR HIM I LET IT GO...... OK HE STAYED IN THE HOUSE FOR 2 DAYS AFTER THAT..... OK IM IN THE BEDROOM TALKING ON THE PHONE AND HIS CELL PHONE WAS ON THE DRESSER IT KEPT RINGING SO I ANSWERED IT AND YES IT WAS SOME B!TCH SHE ASKED FOR HIM AND WHEN I ASKED HER WHO SHE WAS SHE HUNG UP SHE CALLED BACK I DIDNT ANSWER AND SHE LEFT A MESSAGE SAYING "I CALLED UR PHONE BUT UR GIRL ANSWERED" (SO THAT LET ME KNOW THAT SHE KNEW HE HAD A GIRL) NEEDLESS TO SAY I GOT HER PHONE NUMBER OUT OF HIS PHONE AND SAVED IT IN MINE. THE NEXT DAY HE WENT OUTSIDE AND AGAIN HE TURNED HIS PHONE OFF SO I LISTENED TO HIS MESSAGES AND AGAIN THIS B!TCH HAD LEFT HIM LIKE 6 MESSAGES SO I CALLED HER TO FIND OUT WHAT WAS GOING ON BETWEEN THEM AND GUESS WHO ANSWERED HER PHONE............HE DID!!! WHEN HE REALIZED IT WAS ME HE TRIED TO HURRY UP AND GIVE HER THE PHONE BUT I ALREADY HEARD HIS VOICE SHE OT ON THE PHONE AND STARTED SCREAMING IN MY EAR TALKING ABOUT SHE HAD SEX WITH HIM AND THAT SHE LOVES HIM AND ALL TYPES OF STUFF. I WAS PISSED... HE CAME HOME AND OF COURSE TRIED TO EXPLAIN HIS SELF BUT IT WAS NOTHING THAT HE COULD SAY HE TOLD ME ITS NOT LIKE THAT I DONT UNDERSTAND WHATS GOING ON I TOLD HIM TO JUST LEAVE.... WHILE HIS HOME PLEADING HIS CASE SHES CALLING MY PHONE TALKING ABOUT HE SUPPOSED TO BE AT MY HOUSE GETTING HIS STUFF TO COME TO HER HOUSE. ...... WELL I GOT SO MAD I STARTED THROWING HIS STUFF OUT MY DOOR YES I BROKE HIS PLAYSTATION 3 ,TATTOO EQUIPMENT .....ETC HE STILL WAS SAYING HES GOING TO HIS MOTHERS HOUSE CAUSE WE NEEDED SOMETIME APART BUT THAT IT WASNT GOING TO END LIKE THAT. I TOLD HIM THAT IT WAS OVER THIS TIME AND HE BROKE MY T.V, RADIO AND ENTERTAINMENT CENTER AND EVERYTHING . THE POLICE CAME HE FINALLY LEFT I TOLD THEM I DIDNT WANT HIM LOCKED UP I JUST WANTED HIM GONE AND HE LEFT HE CALLED ME FROM ONE OF HIS HOMEBOY HOUSES TALKING ABOUT HE GOING TO GIVE ME SOMETIME TO THINK AND THAT HE WAS GOING TO HIS MOTHERS. THE NEXT PHONE CALL I GOT FROM HIM WAS A COLLECT ONE HE WAS LOCKED UP. HE WAS TELLING ME THAT HE HAD A BAIL ME (BEING DUMB & IN LOVE) CALLED HIS COUSIN SHE DO BAILS TO GET HIS BAIL POSTED BUT BY TIME I GOT IN CONTACT WITH HER HIS BAIL WAS ALREADY POSTED. THE GIRL POSTED HIS BAIL AND HE WENT HOME WITH HER IT KILLED ME BUT THEN HE WAS CALLING ME TELLING ME THAT HE NOT WITH HER AND THAT WE NEED TO TALK AND ALL THIS BULLSHIT ...... THE CRAZY THING IS I STILL AM IN LOVE WITH THIS n***a I CANT LET GO MAYBE ITS BECAUSE HE KEEP CALLING ME I TOLD HIM TO LEAVE ME ALONE AND LET THESE FEELINGS DIE BUT HE KEEP CALLING ME TRYING TO COME PASS. NOW THE B!TCH IS 44 YEARS OLD THE B!TCH KEEP STALKING MY MYSPACE PAGE I HAD TO MAKE MY PAGE PRIVATE SHE SEND ME MESSAGES SHE GOING TO MAKE ME CATCH A SERIOUS CHARGE.. BUT I HAD TO GET THIS OFF MY HEAD. AFTER ALL THIS WHY DO IT STILL HURT SO BAD?