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 Dec 21 2006, 06:41 PM
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dear cbd,
yay! its almost my birthday. gosh... time passes by so fast. this is going to be a long entry by the way. the year is almost over too.. *sigh.. so much drama this year, i hope everyone can look past all of the shit and just everyone stop being little whiny bitches and we all become friends. right? right? well... i dont know... life's been kind of hard lately. so much things happening. birthdays, drama, family problems, ugh! i cant handle all of this. grr our vacation is almost over =[ damn... thank god im going on vacation again later in january. im sick of living a life like this. *sigh...... i dont even kno anymore. is this how life goes? shit happens? why can't i just live in a life full of happiness? bleh... im sick of this crap. |
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Dec 21 2006, 06:42 PM
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#102
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 Senior Member  Group: Head Staff Posts: 18,173 Joined: Mar 2005 Member No: 108,478 |
Dear diary,
I really hope tomorrow's a good day. I don't want to be silent around my friends like I was yesterday. I think that when I don't say "hi" and just wave to my friends when I see them, they think I'm mad at them when really I'm not. But I don't want to go around explaining that to everyone because it'd look stupid. At the same time I don't like pretending everything's fine when it isn't. Whatever, though. Come tomorrow I'm home free on Christmas break. Sleep and friends and video games. |
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Dec 21 2006, 07:57 PM
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 chinky Group: Official Designer Posts: 2,566 Joined: Jul 2006 Member No: 434,437 |
dear cb diary,
the world hates me. sad thing is, i didn't even know till today >:P |
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Dec 21 2006, 08:04 PM
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#104
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Dear cB Diary,
Wow, it's the last week of school in 2006. This year didnt start off so well I guess, I'm glad it happened though because then I would still be gullible and trust someone that is so ignorant. Even though we're still friends, I know deep down inside I still don't forgive him for what he did to me. I don't really care though, because I know one day he will know how it felt =] Anyways, my heart is "free" again. I don't have feelings for anyone anymore. Guess it's a good thing? I dont know...but it was really hard to feel so happy and then the next second you're all down, all the hassle of liking someone. And I cant believe that I would EVER talk to R again...even it was only for a few minutes. I guess things really did change, it was really weird though...because there was no "catching up"? I think he's still mad at me. But I didn't go on to talk to him again, cus I know we're not gonna talk about "us." This really gave me closure to everything, because now I don't have to live in the memories anymore...maybe I was the one who was making it seem so magical. I guess I have to leave again...it wasn't meant to be after all. And nothing can ever be the same anymore, but if we still get to be friends, it would be great but sadly that didn't happen. Sometimes I feel so alone...well isn't this what I wanted? For pushing everyone away. I think it's good in the long run. I don't have to depend on anybody. I just want to escape and start fresh. Now I'm suppose to be studying for 2 tests tomorrow (last day of school in 06), but for some reason I really don't feel like it right now. 2 more hours til I have to sleep... I'm trying so hard not to care, you know? |
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Dec 22 2006, 01:57 AM
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dear cbd,
i dont love you, kthanks. :) you're just HOT♥ |
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Dec 22 2006, 09:19 PM
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Senior Member Group: Head Staff Posts: 18,173 Joined: Mar 2005 Member No: 108,478 |
Dear diary,
Today was much better than I thought it'd be. I love it when I get high off of absolutely nothing. I love dark chocolate. I feel bad that I got three presents from people I didn't get gifts for, though. I thought that if I'd told him not to get me anything or just hadn't talked about exchanging gifts at all, that they wouldn't get me anything... Oh well. I'll just get them something and give it to them over break. :) Hm...yay vacation! |
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Dec 23 2006, 12:58 AM
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 You can't keep running from what you're trying to find. Group: Official Member Posts: 5,030 Joined: Oct 2004 Member No: 54,096 |
Dear CB diary,
I'm starting to think C likes me. but... it would be kind of random wouldn't it? since i've known him since... 8th grade at least? i dunno, for awhile. I don't want to jump to any conclusions, especially since I shouldn't expect anything. we're just friends... When i think about it though, it could definitely work between us. but i just don't see why he'd like me, if he didn't like ___. she is like perfect. 
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Dec 23 2006, 01:34 AM
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 R U A Q T ? [; Group: Official Member Posts: 7,276 Joined: Jun 2006 Member No: 421,631 |
dear cbd,
i'm dying to know what my sister's surprise is. i hope it's a cellphone. well, it's late. night. -monica. |
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Dec 23 2006, 03:19 PM
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 I reject this reality and substitute it with my own! Group: Member Posts: 276 Joined: Dec 2006 Member No: 486,863 |
Dear CBD,
I think some aliens abducted my brain last night. This morning I felt. Content? Like there's absolutely nothing I'm looking forward to. Kinda like a dog that got fixed. To make it worse, being so.. Content makes me feel depressed!  I need to do something crazy to get over it.Maybe I'll try to stitch something up for Linda. Talking for her for just a day I know now, what to get her. It's going to be so freaking awesome! YEAH. A STUFFED BACTERIA!! The best part is, I have no clue how to work the needle and thread. 8) |
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Dec 23 2006, 04:24 PM
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i'm so bored. Group: Staff Alumni Posts: 1,261 Joined: Oct 2006 Member No: 473,614 |
dear createblog diary,
man, i just really can't stupid stupidity. |
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Dec 23 2006, 05:08 PM
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Senior Member Group: Head Staff Posts: 18,173 Joined: Mar 2005 Member No: 108,478 |
Dear diary,
Eh, I wasted today. Whatever, I won't waste tomorrow then. |
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Dec 23 2006, 05:14 PM
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dear cbd,
mann.. just TELL HIM TO ASK ME OUT. shiiiit. ;] |
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Dec 23 2006, 05:16 PM
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 my michelle. Group: Member Posts: 792 Joined: Oct 2005 Member No: 267,094 |
dear cbd,
heck yes. it's almost Christmas. i opened all my presents already. this year i tried to make myself not open them until Christmas day, but failed to. I have no idea what to occupy myself with this winter break. |
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Dec 23 2006, 05:20 PM
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chinky Group: Official Designer Posts: 2,566 Joined: Jul 2006 Member No: 434,437 |
dear cb diary,
Christmas is coming soon. I've already gotten my present early; Wii!  But I'm anxious to find out what my other relatives got me :] |
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Dec 23 2006, 05:29 PM
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i'm so bored. Group: Staff Alumni Posts: 1,261 Joined: Oct 2006 Member No: 473,614 |
dear createblog diary,
i kind of miss the days where all that mattered to me were fun and games. |
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Dec 25 2006, 03:34 AM
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 Senior Member Group: Staff Alumni Posts: 4,799 Joined: Aug 2004 Member No: 37,450 |
Dear cB Diary,
Wow. I still feel like cyring. This was the worst X-mas ever. I celbrate Christmas on December 24th like most beaners. Wow it just hella hti me today. My family is pretty gay. It's been five years since my mom's side stopped talking. I relied on my dad's side to spend holidays with but the beginning of 2006 .. drama happened && now we don't even have them. I remembered my parents used to argue bout .. i'll finish later. bye |
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Dec 25 2006, 10:47 AM
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Senior Member Group: Head Staff Posts: 18,173 Joined: Mar 2005 Member No: 108,478 |
Dear diary,
Today's a good day. Yupp. :D |
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Dec 25 2006, 06:02 PM
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my michelle. Group: Member Posts: 792 Joined: Oct 2005 Member No: 267,094 |
Dear cB diary,
Merry Christmas. This time of the year really makes me reflect on a lot of things from the past year..i guess it was okay. |
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Dec 25 2006, 10:16 PM
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You can't keep running from what you're trying to find. Group: Official Member Posts: 5,030 Joined: Oct 2004 Member No: 54,096 |
Dear cb diary,
This Christmas was really low key. i didn't get as many presents or money as last year, i guess partially because some people are away on vacation. but i DID get a digital camera, which i feel guilty about... a lot of the clothes and jewelry i got weren't my taste, so it was a little disappointing... I hope i can go post-christmas-sale shopping tomorrow. I hope he has a good one too. |
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Dec 27 2006, 03:51 AM
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chinky Group: Official Designer Posts: 2,566 Joined: Jul 2006 Member No: 434,437 |
dear cb diary,
baah, life is boring. hopefully, i'll be able to admit to my crush later on, haha. but anyways, christmas wasn't all that i expected. whatever, school's coming in a week & i don't wanna go back :( |
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Dec 27 2006, 10:10 AM
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Senior Member Group: Head Staff Posts: 18,173 Joined: Mar 2005 Member No: 108,478 |
Dear diary,
I'm going ice skating today with my friends. Can't wait. Hopefully I don't fall. |
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Dec 27 2006, 01:31 PM
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my michelle. Group: Member Posts: 792 Joined: Oct 2005 Member No: 267,094 |
dear cb diary,
this vacation is seriously boring me. oh my 5 days of the year left. 2006 wasn't that bad. 8th grade was the best time of my life. uh, and then summer. summer school for HS. eh that was really really stressful. start of hs, 9th grade, it's been kinda bumpy actually. i don't have a 'real' best friend anymore, we don't describe ourselves that way anymore but we're still friends. but i met some of the bestest people ever<3 what else? came back and started posting again to cB! uh yeah. i kinda gave up on love. for now. he was too much. |
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Dec 27 2006, 02:34 PM
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dear cbd,
woot! today's my birthday. -sigh- i didn't really feel like this is my birthday. last night, i was crying. ugh, i hope something makes me happy again. 
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Dec 27 2006, 08:01 PM
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 Sup. I'm Deb =] Group: Human Posts: 650 Joined: Dec 2004 Member No: 68,227 |
Dear cB Diary,
So my friends and I did the "Burning of the Notes" at Adrian's cabin up in Mammoth last night. It made me reflect on the past year so much. Like, I was looking through all the notes I wrote gossip, drama, boys, and just life in general, and whoa. Could I have really gone through all of that in a mere 365 days? I dunno, I guess it just kinda makes me wonder where I was for all of it. I feel like I was just kinda there...watching life pass me by, but I realized... this whole time, I was living. Despite the fact that last year was one of the worst, this year, I lived. I laughed, cried, smiled, experienced pain, but most of all, I loved. This year, I got everything I wanted and so much more. But in a way, I lost too. I got to feel what it's like to be loved and love someone in return. And despite the fact that I wanted to hang on to that feeling forever, my heart was able to let go and watch that person live without me. Some people might say I was stupid and an idiot for letting go what I had. I've heard it all. "He was perfect for you." "You guys were meant to be." "You could have been together forever." "He loves you so much." "I wouldn't have done that." Gah...I have too much stuff going through my mind right now. I'll probably edit this later.... |
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Dec 28 2006, 03:56 PM
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dear cbd,
man, my birthday hella sucked. shit. |
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