oh my f**king goodness, something is messed up with me Options

[loveTWOhateTWO]

Okay, so there's this guy [named Will]. I met him in 6th grade [im in 8th now]. So me and him were moderately good friends. We would always hang out at school. So I started liking him in like the middle of sixth grade. Yeah, I had some good times with that kid, but then he found out that I liked him, and then this whole thing happened with him and I was supposed to get over him, and then I thought I was, and I thought I liked this other guy [one of my brother's friends], and then me and Will were friends again, but then I fell for him again... And then he got pissed again, so we weren't friends. Pretty much, that whole thing made seventh grade the worst year of my life... not to mention other problems with friends. Well so annnnyhow, I did a lot of thinking over the summer... I fell for this other guy named Cameron [also a brother's friend], and I thought I was over Will, so I told Will that I was honestly over him... After a few months of working things out, me and Will are friends again. Well Cameron has a girlfriend already, and plus, he's my brother's friend, so that makes my chances with him a LOT slimmer, and so I sorta let it die down, so that I wouldn't get hurt by him or anything. When 8th grade started, I put pictures of Cameron in my locker anyway. I still like Cameron, but now I think I like Will again. I mean, we actually talk a little bit now... but we BARELY talk, and when we do, it's not about anything important. So I'm not sure if I like HIM or just how he LOOKS, or if I'm just attached to him, or just attatched to the feeling of liking him... Ughh... I don't know!! I'd really like to know why I still can't stop thinking about him, or dreaming about him, or seeing his face when I close my eyes.

Is this normal, or am I just really messed up?

[*Kathleen*]

It sounds completely normal. I was in a similar position a few years ago. Well, do you still want to remain friends with Will? If not, perhaps the best thing is to separate from him for awhile? I mean, if you just don't see or talk to him for awhile, you'll soon forget or lose the feelings you have for him (if that's what you want to do, which is what I inferred from what you wrote). Or possibly try going for someone who isn't your brother's friend that's available.

[loveTWOhateTWO]

I still want to be his friend... Like, I don't even know him very well anymore, but I know who he USED to be, which makes me want to know him now. I don't know how to go about doing this without seeming clingy and shit... because that's partly how everything bad happened last year.

Like, I still find myself afraid that he'll be pissed at me if I try to talk to him.

[*Kathleen*]

Don't be. Or at least try not to. Honestly, if he gets mad over your attempting to speak to him, then you should just forget about him - he wouldn't be very much of your time. People change, as sad and as hard as it is, in a negative way.

[*My Cinderella.*]

Sounds like you're in a tough cookie. I think you should take some time alone to figure out what you want. It seems like the more people you include, the bigger the issue gets. Like Kathleen said, it depends on whether or not you'd like to be friends with him.

[OhMyAnniee]

I think it's because like.. you've spent & had so many good memories with him that it felt like you guys were a couple, you know? If you guys barely talk, maybe he just wants to be acquaintances with you. He doesn't want you to majorly fall for him again.

[roses_are_r.e.d.]

Oh man, I've been through this so many times. I know exactly how you feel, and suprisingly, I've gotten over the kid. What I did was just avoid him, and try not talking to him. And because I'm in high school and the campus is huge, it's easy to do that. The one thing I suggest you doing, is go out with your friends one day, and scout out for boys... I got another boy on my mind now.

[loveTWOhateTWO]

Don't be. Or at least try not to. Honestly, if he gets mad over your attempting to speak to him, then you should just forget about him - he wouldn't be very much of your time. People change, as sad and as hard as it is, in a negative way.

well he doesn't get pissed off if i try to talk to him... he just used to. so im still all paranoid about that, even though i don't need to be.

Oh man, I've been through this so many times. I know exactly how you feel, and suprisingly, I've gotten over the kid. What I did was just avoid him, and try not talking to him. And because I'm in high school and the campus is huge, it's easy to do that. The one thing I suggest you doing, is go out with your friends one day, and scout out for boys... I got another boy on my mind now.

actually, i think im starting to like this one other kid... like... he's such an amazing kid. :] he makes me smile when i cry.

I think it's because like.. you've spent & had so many good memories with him that it felt like you guys were a couple, you know? If you guys barely talk, maybe he just wants to be acquaintances with you. He doesn't want you to majorly fall for him again.

i've never actually thought of it that way. but that's so true. so i should probably give him a ton of space and work up to being better friends over a long period of time.

Sounds like you're in a tough cookie. I think you should take some time alone to figure out what you want. It seems like the more people you include, the bigger the issue gets. Like Kathleen said, it depends on whether or not you'd like to be friends with him.

hmm... well whenever i include a person, i count it as a separate issue. that way it's easier to deal with, because it makes each problem seem smaller... and also it keeps my emotions organized. i actually have numbers for my problems, that way, i don't have to let all of it swirl together. because if i don't keep my emotions organized, i get really confused about what they really are, and then i cry.

[Aerjae]

Honestly, I think you're pretty messed up. First of all, you don't know what you want so you're just messing around until you find what you want... which, unfortunatley, you havn't. I may seem like you're messing with their heads, but you're actually messing with yours. Try to settle for one. Or you can try to take a creak and find other things to do that will get you away from liking all these guys. Think about what you do and how well you do it.

[loveTWOhateTWO]

Honestly, I think you're pretty messed up. First of all, you don't know what you want so you're just messing around until you find what you want... which, unfortunatley, you havn't. I may seem like you're messing with their heads, but you're actually messing with yours. Try to settle for one. Or you can try to take a creak and find other things to do that will get you away from liking all these guys. Think about what you do and how well you do it.

Well I do have other things that I do, and I don't focus all my time into these problems. I have bigger problems, and better things. There are just certain things that certain people do that trigger certain emotions, which are brought up in my mind at different times due to specific things, which give me the idea to make topics such as these. So it's not like this is the only thing I'm focusing on... I'm not ruining my entire life over it. I just want to know what's going on with this section of my life. I have more problems than just this, and I deal with them in different times and different places, and I chose this place for this problem