confusion, please help! <3 Options

[tehrea]

so yeah,
i never post on here. i'm one of those silent forum people who are always reading but i just never post. anyways, on to my story.

my boyfriend and i have been dating for a year and a half now. and i do love him. i'm sixteen and he's nineteen. me and my boyfriend's situation is a weird one. i'm not allowed to see him at all. i can barely get out of the house. well during the summer i got a job at red lobster (as a hostess) and there was this guy who works there that i started having a crush on. we go to school together also. i never pursued anything because i was with my boyfriend and he was all that mattered. but during that summer my boyfriend broke up with me for another girl and i was really hurt. so i started flirting with the boy at work even more. but it was really hard for me and my boyfriend to let go so we worked things out. but i still had trust issues. and it didn't help that i was seeing the boy at work all the time since i worked with him and i worked nonstop in the summer. so then one night the boy at work calls me at 1 am and we talk till like 4 am. i thought that i was developing more feelings for the boy at work but i kept pushing them away because of my boyfriend. don't get me wrong, i know some people are gonna be like, well if you love your boyfriend then you wouldn't have a crush on this boy. yeah i love my boyfriend but i'm sixteen. he's already so serious and wants to marry me. i've only had 2 other boyfriends before this one and i can see myself marrying him but damn, to already be tied down; already having my life planned at sixteen? it's just a hard thing to imagine. i haven't even begun to live my life yet! anyways, so nothing ever happened between me and the boy at work. i kept on denying that i liked him and i kept pushing it in the back of my head. so i decided to apply for another job and i got it (at old navy). i thought getting a job would help stop the crush i had on the boy. but before i left red lobster however, i found out he had a crush on another girl who worked there and i got jealous that he liked her and not me. i don't know why i can't stop this crush i have on him and it's driving me insane because this isn't fair to my boyfriend at all. the boy at work doesn't even like me anymore so why can't i stop liking him!? it's insane and i just find myself driving me crazy with these emotions. all i want to think about is my boyfriend but i find myself still thinking about that boy sometimes. and me and the boy at work are completely opposite. it's just so weird and i'm so confused!

so what's everybody's take on this?

sorry for the long post