There's this guy., Okay I wouldn't post in here if I didn't have problems Options

[xMayleex]

Okay.

I'll just you give some background details about me and this guy.

I grew up in the street as him, we pretty much knew eachother inside out when we were younger. Since I was about 12, and he was 14 .. he liked me, and I pretty much liked him back. This went on for ages .. 2 years now, he's 16 and I'm 14 now. He keeps up bringing up these feelings, and never does anything about it .. I even give him a little push but he seems to be scared to do something.

He's pretty cool, but lately he's been getting involved in the wrong crowd. Drugs, drink .. you know what I mean? I care for him a lot, and I also worry about him. Anyway I went on holiday this summer, I didn't even have one thought in my head about him .. I pretty much forgot he existed. Anyway, yesterday he told me he liked me ... again. I don't know whats wrong with me but I immediately felt something for him.

It confuses me, it's as if I deep down never lost any feelings for him .. even though I forgot about him. I even met another guy on holiday, but still. So we talked and things, he doesn't know how to go about it.

I then proceeded to tell him this is exactly 'also .. i just dont think i can put myself through it again. when i liked you for 2 whole years, and nothing happened .. i hated myself for so long and if nothing happens now, then nothing will ever happen .. i just need to let you know. i was naive before .. and i let you think i was fine with everything when really i wasnt'

Anyway .. he said thanks for telling me that, we carried on talking and stuff he was fine with me. Then today I im him, hey you okay and all that jazz. I then ask him 'do you still like me?' .. because I needed to know .. before I did anything 'stupid'. He says I got to go for food .. hour later .. obviously I wasn't sitting at the computer waiting. I left the PC on to send my friend some music .. and he doesn't reply.

So I'm thinking .. he's avoiding me. It's like all he needs to know is that I like him, and then he pisses off.

I'm really fed up of this, and to be honest all I think I can do is leave him. I feel as if he doesn't deserve me, and also all this stuff thats going on with him. It scares me, it scares me that he's perhaps not in the state to have a relationship with me.

Anyway, I'm sorry it's so long .. I just needed to have you understand.

I would be grateful for any advice =]

Thanks.