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[*My Cinderella.*]

I never knew love could be as hard as this. It hurts so bad and I wish I could make it go away but it won't. I know it would hurt looking at his profile but I do it anyway. At what cost? I don't know. Please make it stop. Sometimes I wish this was all one big nightmare, and that I'd awake from this and everything will go back to normal. No matter how happy I am, one thing leads to another and I find myself near your house...hoping to see you walking home. I remember one time I stood outside in the rain, just so I could think. I wanted to scream. I wanted to shout out. I know, I know. To you this seems like a big deal that I'm making it. But you were a big deal. I can't just forget about it so quickly. I can't find someone to replace. It hurts. It hurts real bad and I wish this would've never happened. I had no idea what to say when you said you didn't want to talk to me. What could I say? Nothing, I just continued to let you say it. Why? I don't know. I don't wanna lose my chance with being friends with you. I know I'm not being fair...but ever since you met her. I was ripped apart from my privledges (sp?) No longer able to text you without being replied with a bad text. No longer being able to comment your myspace without it being deleted whether it was meaningful or the most pointless piece of writing in the world. No longer being able to call...or having you talk to me like you did. I used to call you dork and now she's taking that from me too...why? Why did this have to happen. I regret taking everything for granted and I wish I could take it back so badly...no one else above her, huh? You used to say the same thing to me. I'm not blaming you. I can't do that to you. I promised myself no matter what happened I would always care for you--together or not. I can't be happy for you...nor will I ever and I'm heartless to say that. But you've never experienced what it was like..to watch the one you love being with someone else and going wow...I used to be him. Life is never fair. The best things in life must be worked harded for. I have learned my lesson. You can trust someone but it takes more than just that. Sometimes I wonder if you were ever missing me too. Do you feel anything now?...I wish I could just run away from everything. I didn't know it would be this hard to forget about someone. But it is, and I can't bottle up my feelings. You don't know how many times in the day I wish I could wrapped my arms around you and form a tight hug. Or how I'd be so happy to see, "Hey you" appearing on the screen. I wish...we never broke up. Life is harder than it's ever been and I've been trying my best to hide it. This is it for now. I desperately need someone to cry on.

Much love,
Jane.

[blucheri]

_______,
IM me you dumbass!!!!!!!!!!!

[Hiphop d[-_-]b]

What the hell. This ... shit we have. We dont even have anything what am I talking about. I reaally need to quit this. Bouncing back and forth between loving you and hating you and just not wanting to give a f**k anymore. I just wish things could be good between us. Not wavering between awkward and ignoring. I was hoping it would be better than this, but we still months and years ahead of us. I guess I'll just see.

[*krnxswat*]

b' date='Sep 17 2006, 11:03 PM' post='2286793']
What the hell. This ... shit we have. We dont even have anything what am I talking about. I reaally need to quit this. Bouncing back and forth between loving you and hating you and just not wanting to give a f**k anymore. I just wish things could be good between us. Not wavering between awkward and ignoring. I was hoping it would be better than this, but we still months and years ahead of us. I guess I'll just see.

Please don't just throw that word around left and right.

[Hiphop d[-_-]b]

Please don't just throw that word around left and right.

Oh, believe me. I don't.

[*krnxswat*]

Good. Just making sure.

[Hiphop d[-_-]b]

(SeanHo) Ooh , and I've lost around 14-16 pounds. Aren't you proud ? I was proud. And excited. I still want to lost a looooot more though. But sometimes I get depressed and I start eating and I gain the weight back so yeah, still struggling with that, but I'm about to go back on the special k diet. It worked really well, and I'm taking these diet pills and I excersize a lot more and lot more rigorously ( sp ? ) and I'm doing a lot of activities that involve a lot of movement and aerobic stuff so I should see a lot more good weight loss results. (:



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That was hella sweeeet fool. Aw. I'm all smiley now Lol. It's hella nice to know that I have you as a friend. ASKASLKB AHHH I feel all floaty inside or some shit Lol. I am hella sorry for that one time I just stopped talking to you though. Because when you told me you had feelings for me it was just hella awkward because you knew/know I still love or want to be with L and I didn't know how to deal with it so I just stopped talking to you and avoided you. But I'm hella happy we're back on that best friend status (:

[*krnxswat*]

b' date='Sep 17 2006, 11:46 PM' post='2286885']
(SeanHo) Ooh , and I've lost around 14-16 pounds. Aren't you proud ? I was proud. And excited. I still want to lost a looooot more though. But sometimes I get depressed and I start eating and I gain the weight back so yeah, still struggling with that, but I'm about to go back on the special k diet. It worked really well, and I'm taking these diet pills and I excersize a lot more and lot more rigorously ( sp ? ) and I'm doing a lot of activities that involve a lot of movement and aerobic stuff so I should see a lot more good weight loss results. (:

Wow, I'm actually real proud of you. I lost about 15 lbs over the summer because I haven't been eating well and I didn't really exercise. However, I recently started working out again and back to eating healthy (sort of) so I'm actually trying to gain the weight back now. I'm glad to hear you've been taking care of yourself and exercising. To be frank, you're still fat in my eyes. But my opinion doesn't matter to you, right?
Keep up the good work, kiddo.

By the way, my name is spelled "Seon Ho", not SeanHo.

[Hiphop d[-_-]b]

Thanks (: That actually does mean a lot Lol, and I still think I'm fat too. But for my body shape I'll never be down to like 100 because of the shape of my body, because I have an hourglass figure but you just can't tell cos of all the fat. So to get like a toned flat stomach and be 'slim' I'd still be around 130 or something so that's what im working for. Ive also been working my arms cos they're really flabby and they've been aching like hell Lol. I hope to lost about 20 more pounds by Christmas or January. And sorry bout the name

[*krnxswat*]

Haha, don't worry about, it's a common mistake people make. Anyways, no matter what people say (or I say), don't let them bring you down. :) Don't get too caught up on losing weight or you'll end up losing your mind. You've got to learn to accept to accept yourself to a certain extent (I'm not saying you're not). Anyways, WHY AM I BEING SO NICE TO YOU TODAY!

SEON HO = MEAN

BYE

[Hiphop d[-_-]b]

Yeah. It was nice but weird Lol. Uhhm ... BYE

& Thanks (:


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UGHSKBSALK UUUGH GET OVER YOURSELF. SHIT.

[SarahxJoy]

: I'm so glad that I can spend the entire day with you on your birthday. No school, hanging out with friends, rollercoasters, cheeseburger pizzas, and who knows what else.. It'll be a good day, I'm sure of it. :D ilusm.

: Boys, boys, boys. Leave 'em alone. You're always hurting yourself because you try so hard in finding the right guy. I've been telling you the same thing over and over again: stop looking so hard. The right guy will come along in due time.

: You two are adorable together. Now we're all happy, and things are as they should be.

[lovescream]

You can't tell my jealousy. :X
Lmfao you can't even tell my sarcasm. So I guess that makes sense.
Goddamn, you are so damn slow for a guy to notice that I'm jealous.
Picking on your soon-to-be girlfriend and picking on you for dating her isn't enough clues? >.o

[KELLYYY]

Mom,
ILOVEYOUILOVEYOUILOVEYOU. thank you. <3 you make me happy.. sometimes. :D

[*stephinika*]

: Don't worry so much please? I don't want you to hurt yourself or something...relax, k?
: Hey babe...so...things seem weird lately. I don't know if its just me.
: Don't cry darling, ilu! A little late, but whatever...haha.

[anniepiee]

_, you are really an stubborn ass sometimes. =\

_, bebs. bee oo kay. mmkay? I will always be by your side. everything will be fine as long as you want it to be. <3

[redpeony]

F*ck. This is so depressing. I don't want to be a drama queen but this is so f*cking hard. It's only been half a month and we have 3 more months to go. F*ck. I don't want this to end before I see you again. Why is it so hard right now. I thought we could do this no problem at the rate we were going this summer. I don't want to force anything but I thought we were so much better than this. And I know it was your fault for screwing up and my fault for thinking so damn much and I know you're genuinely sorry and I truly don't want to care anymore. But it's so hard and I'm going crazy not seeing you. Even though it's only been half a month. I want to be comfortable in your arms again. F*ck I want to cry. And I'm angry at myself for being such a whiny little brat.

[silver-rain]

Gahh, I really do enjoy spending all that time with you, but sometimes I feel like I want to do things with other people, etc. But whatever, it'll still always be better to just be with you. The weekend was nice, except for all the rocky parts. I know we can get through this and make it out together <3.

Gah, I miss you and your texts and our online chats. Boo, when will I see you again? Or, talk to you again?

[Lycidas]

_: I've known you've done it since middle school and you don't get to the point where you get too much in your system, but every time I hear about it, it makes me so damned upset. Why the f**k do you always have to screw yourself? Drinking away your problems won't make you any f**king better. I hate how you encourage others to do it to. f**k that. This just makes me hate you even more. What's even worse is that you go out with her. I wonder if she even KNOWS. I wonder how she even feels about it. Or maybe I just care too much. Whatever, f**k you. You've always been a stubborn a-hole anyway.

_: Things have been happening, I know. But why can't you learn to IM me, call me, or something? You think I haven't been through the same goddamned thing? Is it that you don't trust me anymore? Just don't turn back into your depressed, emo self. Don't' you go f**king drinking and resorting to alcohol with them again. I really hate it when you do that.

_: Sorry I was about to see you this weekend. I know I'll regret it later. I'll make it up to you.

[think!IMAGINARIL...]

_: I don't hate you anymore.. It's just that you make me sad. You don't care at all.
Stop trying to make me jealous. It just hurts me even more. Just stop it with these games! I'm not kidding anymore. I fell for you and you don't know it. I really feel like telling you but I'm afraid your reaction might just push me off a cliff.
_: :( I didn't see you today..

_: If I give you my homework will you do it for me? I'm probably gonna have to pull an all-nighter to finish everything.. If you help me, I'll give you a cookie!

[*My Cinderella.*]

Dont these netflix movies come any faster!?!

[*Azarel*]

Haha, I'm still not over it after all this time; every time you complain to me when you're drunk about how you can't find a nice girl, it makes me sorta glad.. I know you're a slave to your major and really can't commit at the moment, but that's fine 'cause I don't want commitment, I still just want summa that.. yea, you know I'm dirty like that.

[*x1227x*]

: thanks for encouraging me and not looking down on me. i love you.
: god, im loving you more and more everyday. im going to talk to you tomorrow about something. i hope you have a good reaction to it. i love you. <3
: WHY DO YOU HAVE TO BE SUCH A B-TCH AND DO THAT. YOU HAVE TO LIVE WITH IT LIKE EVERYONE ELSE & YOU KNOW HOW YOU SAID YOU DONT LIKE HOW PEOPLE DO THAT TO YOU? WELL GUESS WHAT? LEARN TO NOT DO IT YOURSELF YOU STUPID DUMBA-- WH-RE. I WILL FIGHT YOU ANYDAY.

[*My Cinderella.*]

...I hate it when that happens. I'm such an idiot.

[*My Cinderella.*]

I don't know why I give in to all of it. But it breaks my heart whenever you do that. I dont know what to do anymore. All I can do is cry my eyes out but I wish I could do so much more.

...I need help.