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So here is the story...

I went to college this past year, as a freshman, and met this great girl named Amanda who was a sophomore. She had a lot of walls put up; she didn't really want a relationship because of it being college and everything. Well, I stuck around, met her parents and everything...told them, and her, that I felt like she was worth waiting around for.

Turned out, she was. We started dating about 2 months after meeting each other, she hung out with my friends, I loved hanging out with her and her friends, and even her friends from home for the first couple months of summer, I got to hang out with them. It seem like I fit in and everything was going good, except the whole distance problem. We lasted for about 8 months. Keyword, lasted.

Basically, she broke it off with me for the summer because:

1) She got into a car accident and didn't have a car to drive to come see me (about an hour away). She also said she hated how I had to come up there all the time, and she couldn't come see me.

2) She pays for her own schooling, so she usually works double shifts everyday, so basically from 11:00 am to 11:00 pm nearly everyday.

3) Literally all of her friends from home (I've met them) go to NC State...a college that is about 3 hours away from our college, so she never really gets to see them except on occassions when she goes up there or during the summer. So in accordance with reason number two, most of her free time was with these friends.

So the problem? I move up back to school come the 19th, and we're thinking about maybe going back out again. She says she doesn't know what she wants right now because she's not up there, but once she gets up there, she says she'll be able to figure stuff out better. Im afraid that if we do go back out, it won't be the same, and I'll have to start over again from the beginning as if we didn't have what we did have before. And I can't do that. This summer has already been hell, I'm literally a borderline alcoholic from all this crap and my summer has been basically just working and drinking, I don't even have a concept of where it has all gone.

If you've read all that and have made it this far, lol, I'm just basically asking ya'lls opinion on the situation. I really believe her reasons for the break-up; I don't think it's someone else in her life or anything, mainly because I had to fight so hard to go out with her, she doesn't just let people in eaisly.