a COMPLEX_PERCEPTiON: a few of my writings Options

[compleXperceptio...]

what was once an innocent heart is now ravished and deeply blackened
stripped of its naivite, in a state incapable of being mended
i surrendered myself numerous times
only to find myself in a dark room alone, confined
in my own state of desolation
unable to find a solution to the inhabilitation
of a lonely heart that is mine
people say give it time but time feels endless
the clock is ticking but nothing has come to end this
and at times, i want my biological clock to stop ticking
stop spinning, just stop everything
the things that love does to people cannot truly be explained
it`s a mystery, it`s a paradox, it`s a reason for change
but i`ve decided to give up, the work is too strenuous
all i ever find are empty promises and guys who are dishonest
too many times i`ve laid myself out on the line
only to be crossed and stepped all over, shoved aside and behind
my blackened heart has become the home of myself
welcoming no one, but you'd only understand if you knew that cards i`ve been dealt
bitterness and pain are the only feelings i can relate to
love doesn`t exist, nor do i hate you
i blame you, i blame myself even more but
all i can is that i`m giving up.

author: me
written: o428o4
inspiration: a GUY... i had motivation and my motivation was sadness *sniffles*


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i can feel the clenching, the wringing, the pain
thoughts penetrating my head, wracking my brain
leaving a stain on my blueprint of life, on my soul
i`m losing my mind
i`m losing control
if i could put my life on hold, i wouldn`t-- i`d push stop
feelings that i`ve already fallen a 50 foot drop
my life is not this unexplainable dream
it`s a nightmare i can`t awake
i can`t see
i can`t hear
can`t even scream
to anyone else, i may seem normal, content with life
but if only they could feel my pain, feel my strife
it`s three strikes, struck out of this game
i`m a rookie, 3rd round draft, what was her name
my fame is nonexistent, my biography unwritten
the obituaries is the only place my name is printed
and as i look down upon this from the clouds i wouldn`t regret
`cause on my life, i placed an everlasting bet
where i am now is where i don`t want to be
but in the end, i`ll be in a better place
for all eternity.

author: me
written: o4o4
inspiration: my life... i lost a lot when i wrote this


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at a time when i felt that all was lost
nothing in my life was worthwhile
you came out of nowhere into my world
and gave me motivation to smile
i thought my living was but a lost cause
i even questioned my existence
then, in the blink of an eye, you came along
and i`ve found a purpose ever since
everything seemed to fall into place
all the wrongs in my life turned right
my days, you`ve filled with tender moments
and a reason to dream at night
this short moment, i`ve grown to really care
i know you may not feel the way i do
you`ve been the light at the end of the tunnel
you`ve given me a friend
and i thank you.


author: me
written: o52oo4
inspiration: the same guy... i wrote it and gave it to him