ex's?, what to do =\\ Options

[milyyk]

well its been about a month since we broke up and idk if he`s moved on or not but i certainly haven't. the whole reason we broke up was cause apparently i talked to this guy too much. but the thing is that he`s always around my friends and he treated them better than he did me. plus they know so much more about him then i do.
right now, i dont really wanna move on, but it seems im already halfway there. sometimes it seems like i got over him, but then remember somethiing sweet he said to me then BOOM. it all crashes down.
what i really wanna do is get back with him, im well aware that its never going to be the same, but at least now i know what i did wrong and maybe it can be fixed? after our breakup, i found out some of my bestest friends that were kinda close to him haven't really been telling me the truth, and i guess we argued since she always ditched me for him and things just seem so different. it's like his impact on my life was my "life support", he goes away, my friends ditch me and ive got no one left.
i really just want to at least get things cleared up, how i never liked that guy that i was talking to so much, i mean, he was my friend for like four years, and i just met my ex this year. i know theres not much i can do about it, but i really just want things better, since now we cant even talk that much, but i guess thats just cause i`m super duper shy =\.
any suggestions please? cause i`m kinda dying here... ><"