Gah help? Options

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Do you girls ever feel like you can't connect with either of the sex because you feel like everyone that surrounds you are either after something or just wants to cause problems?

I feel insecured now .. I feel as though everyone is trying to get at me and just making a mess .. because a guy i trusted lied to me. I don't know if he lied or was he just using me .. cause his friend this one girl was trying to get back at me.. </3 I wanna start a something new and feel happy instead of doubts .. Gah but i can't .. pretending to be happy is so hard.

My ex my first kiss i still love him but i don't know after we broke up i think he stills feel the same but i don't know :( Do i still become his friend or so cause it hurts to know he used to miss mee and now he's different. i know this is dumb but yeah .. is there anyone out there that can relate ..