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[*Funkadelic Kiss*]

Dear Createblog Diary,

Ew fat f**k.

[johsee]

dear cb diary,

i had a really great day today! ryan was trying to get me to go to the dance with conner and buddy. i'm like ummm no. but then in leadership we had to finish the backdrop for the dance. it looks like crack. me court & katie stayed after to finish it. uhm. yeah. i kinda painted the classroom. oops. we were talking to dallas before he left and he said kyle was going to ask me to the dance. huzzah.

josie

[oXMuhNirvanaXo]

dear cb diary,

Last night sucked. Period. It's not my failt. Well, It kind of was but that not the point. He had no reason to say that to me. I do love him and I don't know how to show it in anyother way. Which is really gay because.. I thought that I was showing him all the love I can give. :-(

[joiedevie]

dear cb diary,

i wish it were the weekend already.

and people are dumb. that is all.

love, me.

[think!IMAGINARIL...]

Dear cB Diary,
My iPod is being shipped back to me. I don't think they fixed it.. Maybe I should call their customer service and yell at them. That always seems to work for my friends.
Maybe I will call Apple if they didn't fix it. I'll just scream at them and make them give me a new one. That'd be much better for me.
I'm not really sure if it was the iPod or not, but maybe it was iTunes 7. I really hate iTunes 7. It's ok looking, but hard to navigate.
Or maybe it was the new iPod software that I downloaded...
Maybe I'll try installing Winamp and that plugin again.. It messed itself up the last time, but at least that'd be better than iTunes.

Today was one of the best days this month. Maybe 2nd or 3rd. I just woke up happy this morning. School was ok. I think I did really well on the tests. I GOT INTO THE DIGITAL PHOTOGRAPHY CLUB! AHH. I love it. Tomorrow's the first day too :) I get to learn how to use Photoshop now. And how to take better pictures.
Today was just awesome.

[joiedevie]

dear cb diary,

omg! i'm watching the office right now and it's official, dwight wins at life!

love, me.

[AngelinaTaylor]

dear cB diary:

I can't believe that I'm actually happy. I can't remember the last time I was so satisfied with my life. No complaints at all. I've learned not to whine too much these days :) It's great. Love is going great, both schools are great, I've got so much energy.. And there's stress, but I like stress.. it means hard work and achievement.. Yeah, I'm a workaholic :( But I like it. I can't wait until next year!

[johsee]

dear cb diary,

ugh. everythings so confusing. becca & i just hated the world today. people keep making me so mad! dallas told me that kyle wasn't going to the dance. what the hell? then why was he going to ask me?? that made me just totally pissed for the rest of the day. in yearbook i was talking to phillip and he dumped katie so he could go to the dance with me. i don't really want to go with him, but it's better than going alone. after school courtney katie and i stayed to keep score for the basketball game. i was like singing and dancing [[badly]] and kyle came up to us. i ignored him . . . well he pissed me off so. yeah. but i think he was going to ask me to the dance. i talked to shi later and she said he seemed depressed. i feel really bad. i still like him.

josie

[SarahxJoy]

Dear createBlog Diary,
Today was my sweetie's seventeenth birthday! At 9:00 AM I went to his house and he, his grandma, cousin (Ashley), and I had pancakes for breakfast. Then we drove to the New York New York casino/hotel to ride the rollercoaster 2x. Funnn. Afterwards, we went bowling at the Sante Fe, and after that we went back to David's. My mom dropped Gabe off there and then all of us, including David's mom and his two younger step-siblings went to the Sante Fe for dinner at the restaurant there. Yum. I got David to try some calamari! He doesn't like it, but at least he tried it, lol. ;D He still has to try some sushi. Yep yep.

Then after dinner, Ashley, David, his grandma, Gabe, and I went back to David's. Ashley's mom picked her up then Gabe and I were there for an hour before getting dropped off at home.

I miss him already. I can't wait to see him at school tomorrow. Tomorrow's Pilar's sixteenth birthday. Wow, there are so many birthdays in September. Also in April and June, I've noticed.

I'm off for bed, I'm exhausted after spending all day celebrating my baby's birthday. G'night cB.

Sarah Joy

[*Azarel*]

I've waited for this day for so, so unbelievably long, and it's finally here.. But for now, sleep beckons.

[AngelinaTaylor]

dear cB diary: I'm falling in love.

[faithin_felix]

dear diary,
life sucks since july 1 2006
Felix

[angelrevelation]

dear cb diary,

i'm starting to learn more about him, and so far we seem to have some things in common- we're nerdy and music-y

but then with the other guy... i hate how he 'draws me in' more, because he's so confusing. he's so amazing one minute and completely horrible the next.

i always seem to like the boys who hurt me, more then the boys who wouldn't.

[think!IMAGINARIL...]

Dear cB Diary,

I NEED TO VENT. GAH. I feel so pissed. He's confusing me. He's just like totally ignoring me now. Ok, maybe not totally. Maybe not at all, but I still feel horrible. It's making me really sad.
I also feel bad about not talking to the other guy on the bus this morning. I could have at least asked him what school he went to! I feel like such a retard.
I added 2 parts to my AIM profile.. I feel pretty retarded for doing that. #1 means more. I doubt that anyone reads my profile anymore, since I haven't IMed them since last last last month.
Why do I feel like things have to be hidden even though I want the person to know? Is it because of my insecurity? Blech. I've just been pretty depressed on weekends.. It's been almost a week now. Depressing. =/
It's unhealthy. 4 hours of sleep per night. I just feel like I'm obligated to stay up, y'know? Because... yeah. I dunno. I just feel more secure that way. I'm getting major bags under my eyes though..

ACK. I still have SR labs to do. God, this is depressing. Staying online all day and procrastinating? All because of.. ergh. Sometimes, I wish I could just get over it, but I can't. It just feels weird. Like when I try to detach, this voice inside my head tells me to go back.

I dunno. Maybe I'm just going crazy.

[Lycidas]

Dear Createblog Diary,
What the hell?

[angelrevelation]

dear cb diary,

it seems more and more my face is just... plastered in a blank stare. and i cant tell people that i'm NOT doing all that ok...

[*Funkadelic Kiss*]

Dear Createblog Diary,

.

[thanhmai]

Dear cB diary,

I am a whore.

[think!IMAGINARIL...]

Dear cB Diary,

I just don't know anymore.. I feel like I should give up on it, but I can't. I can't just detach from this.
Why did I have to stay up 'til 2 this morning? Ugh, I'm such a retard.
I fell asleep in Global and Spanish today.. I woke up feeling weird. It was like I could see better. Like everything was just.. crazy. It just gave me a whole new perspective on life. It was like I knew exactly what everything meant. It gave me a whole new understanding to the things around me. It totally changed how I interpret what people say. I was also more aware of my surroundings and yet, I felt drunk at the same time even though I didn't drink. It was probably from my lack of sleep over these past weeks. The second half of today just felt unreal. Like I was in a dream or something. I still feel that way, but less tired.
I still have yet to interpret some things..
There are just some things that I just don't understand anymore..
Like people who are just so confusing that it makes you want to go crazy and cry your eyes out. I just don't understand anymore. Almost a week. I'm not as depressed before, but I guess that's 'cause I'm used to it.. I'm probably used to being ignored like that now. It's just that.. I don't understand why..
I don't know.. There are just lots of things that I have to stop obsessing about.

[*stephinika*]

Dear cB diary,

I am pretty sure this is the most scared I've been in a long, LONG time...f**k. I was doing so well then today finally came...holy shit I'm so screwed.

//edit.

Well things have certainly changed. Wow. So...single again. But yeh...what a weekend. Good and bad. So yeh.

[Looow]

Dear cB Diary,
I'm so sick of doing all these nice things for people && them not recognizing it. I'm so sick of trying so hard abotu everything. I'm hella sick of people stepping all over me. I always thot I wasn't one of those people but I am ..

I'm so stressed out lately. Everything make me wanna cry. && I'm not even PMSING.

Fcuk this shit.

[angelrevelation]

dear cb diary,

shelby and margaret are like... 'you have the perfect body it makes me mad!' and all that... but like the quote goes, "she doesn't want to hear she's beautiful. she wants to KNOW she is".

how can they actually be serious? and WHY haven't i gotten a bf yet, if this is true? i haven't even been asked out ever! and it's not like i'm 12 years old or something.

[*mzkandi*]

Dear cB,

I got interviewed for this job today and it looks promising. I hope I get the position. I need this job badly.

- K

[think!IMAGINARIL...]

Dear cB Diary,
I feel like I should give up on it all, but something's holding me back.
Everything's been a blur lately. It feels like I'm in a coma or a dream and I can't wake up. Because of that, I've been questioning my existance more and more. It's just.. I don't feel like myself anymore. I really want to let go of all of this. I want to just escape my life. I just don't think I can go on like this any longer. I've just been totally oblivious for the past week. I've been unable to think before I speak. I've been totally confused. It's like my attention span has been lowered. Maybe I'm feeling depressed? I mean, things that usually make me happy aren't making me feel any better. Maybe I've just given up completely on what I've been looking foward to. I planned on going to Caltech and then work for NASA, but I don't think I can anymore.. I haven't been doing well in school. I need to focus more, stop procrastinating, and limit my computer time. I've just been thinking.. What if I don't have the grades to get into Caltech? What if I get a really low score on the SATs? What if the future I've been planning is just total bull shit? What if my dreams will never come true?
I know I really want to be an astrophysicist/engineer and do good for the world, but what if I can't?
Right now, I feel like I've fallen down. Like I'm stuck in this giant hole in the ground and I can't get out.
I just realized that I haven't been really happy in weeks. I don't think anything can cheer me up at this point.
I don't think I'll ever be truly happy ever again.

[angelrevelation]

dear cb diary,

1. we switched seats so i dont sit beside T anymore. he said more to the girl who sits next to him in the first 3 seconds then he did to me the entire month.
2. S is a player. during lunch he was surrounded by girls. i really do seriously think he likes erika. she's one of the few ppl he actually respects. and they share the same interests. and he's impressed by... realness.
3. W's friends all stood in a group by our table at lunch. (random guys always seem to converse in groups around me for some reason) and... they talked about 'interesting' stuff. i guess he was like that. a jerk, perverted, and... just into bad stuff.
4. J has replaced me with A. whenever she's around... or A or R(less nowadays with R) he forgets all about me almost completely.

four shots to my hope horses in one day