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[BrokenDream]

Dear cb diary,

So today was just another boring day. Shopping soon! I'm getting my haircut too, just for school. Maybe highlights.

...

I just heard on the news that some man put a dog in a washer filled with hot water. Why? He was angry. Just because you're angry doesn't mean you have to take it out on the damn dog! Idiotic people. The dog was fine, it had alot of burns...it had to be put down, sadly. He should be put his ass in that washer filled with hot water and see how it feels. The man has been put in prison for only two years. I just want very animal abuser shot. They deserve it.. the poor creatures. [/animal lover]

Night.

-Melissa

[xTINAA]

Dear cB Diary,
I can't stand living here anymore. It's so annoying and frustrating. I wish I could just snap my fingers and be out of here. These people drive me crazy. Not only do they bug the shit out of me about school but just about everything. I'm sick of having a curfew too. Leave me alone. If I want to stay out then I want to stay out. I'm pretty damn sure I've earned it after years of being sheltered in this house. It's not like I'm out having sex or something so I wish they would calm down and just let me stay out. This is my "last" summer. A lot of these people I'm never going to see again. After this summer everything is going to change. Why can't they let me enjoy it. Ugh so frustrating. Oh and they want me to pay for so much too. I have this low paying job so how in the hell am I supposed to cough up hundreds of dollars for school? UGH. Thank God I leave in 15 days.

Besides all of the conflict with my parents everything else is going pretty good. --- got my number so now I'm waiting to see if anything will happen. I don't think anything will but I guess that's just my negative side getting the best of me.

Anyway there are some other things I'd write about but I'm just too tired and angry, haha.
15 days.... I hope it guys by faster at all the right times and slower at all the right times too.

[AngelinaTaylor]

Dear cB diary:

I am terrified of the 12th and the 15th.

The end.

[*stephinika*]

Dear cB diary,

He's been so...difficult lately. Sigh. Hopefully he'll like Saturday... I hope so. I hope Friday works out and he can stay overnight...I hope Sunday works out too 'cause I really, REALLY wanna be able to make both nights...

[AngelinaTaylor]

Dear cB diary:

It's weird being single. Very weird, actually. I haven't been single in over two years - I kept switching from relationship to relationship. Maybe I should stay single for a while. Like a year or something. Because right now, I'm experiencing two very contradicting feelings - I hate men, yet I want a man. Why - I can't explain it to myself. It seems rather implausible. I just want my old life back, well, in terms of business. So that I can immerse myself with work. I'll keep the current part time job too. So I'll have two schools and two jobs. You see, that way, I'll have no time for social life, and therefore, I'll technically ban myself from relationships. My plan will work out, and I'll focus on other things, whilst forgetting about men.

- Taylor

[emazing]

'Ello cB Diary,

Oh I know, it's been quite awhile since I've updated. Just wanted to give you a little heads up on how things are going on around here, and it isn't going along too well.
Firstly, of course, I love my parents, but they've been a bother lately. Why even try to argue with their strict parental rules? .. I mean, I would love to have a little bit of freedom now & then, go to the movies/PGA with my friends, or even go running without parent supervision. I mean, they won't even let me stay at home by myself due to the neighborhood burglaries lately. I think that's ludicrous. *le sigh* Mah. I suppose I'll just have to be patient and sooner or later December 9th, 2009 will come [the day I finally turn 18].

Secondly, I've been helping at the local Senior Center lately, and yes, I have seen some volunteers there as well. GUY volunteers, if you will. I know, I love/like him [second chances work out], but there's this one guy who always comes everyday. IDK what he does to be honest with you, but he seems so caring and attentive to every single problem that they have. Who is he? I'm too fscsdfksdfking shy to bring up a conversation with him. Maybe we can be friends. :) Nothing more, I hope, because .. well, you know. He seems so caring though. He did say hi to me though, but I was too busy assisting someone else so I don't think he heard me when I responded. That boy = wow.

Finally, I've had it with my parents arguing/ignoring each other. It's getting on my nerves.
I have no idea who to side with, and I absolutely ABHOR going back&forth to tell them what the other wants to tell him/her. I don't get it.
25 years, and they're fighting almost every month or so. I guess that's how some relationships work? Ugh, lame.

[thanhmai]

dear cb diary,

ricky is a bastard. watch, someday he's gonna get owned with rape charges from some girl he forced up at a random party. he better watch his back. he's lucky i was his friend. was being the keyword here of course.

[Looow]

Dear cB Diary,

I get so frustrated with myself. Cus it's like .. I don't want to or should be waiting around for him when he's not being straight up with me but I just can't help it. I'm trying to move on & I'm saying I will but I guess I won't know till school starts & I see different people. I don't know maybe I'll even see him around tons of other girls & I'll get over it. Like I've said before .. for him .. girls come & go. I'm just another one of them.

I mean, guys can come & go for me too ..I'm just not like that. I get STUCK .. he doesn't.

[*stephinika*]

Dear cB diary,

So Friday & Sunday worked out and I partied hard...and Saturday he enjoyed...so all in all, one HELLUVA SWEET WEEKEND! Haha...oh man. Buuut...no more alcohol for awhile...I'm tired of the headaches... I'd go on but...I'm lazy. But definitely an amazing weekend.

[fagget]

I can't believe it really happened. I saw your name on the caller ID, and I picked up the phone and said "Hello." with a bigass cheesin' smile on my face, expecting something like "Hey, baby, I miss you, what are you doing?" Or something along those lines. But instead I get a "Hey, I need to talk to you." The smile faded from my face immediately. I knew what was going on. The day I hoped would never come.. Came. You called to break up with me. Except you made up some lame excuse saying that we were too far away, and you hardly get to see me. That is such bull. It's been like this for how many years? 5 years? And after all these years, you suddenly decide that you don't get to see me enough? I may have been blind when I was with you, but I'm not stupid. It's not like I don't know there's another girl. It's pretty obvious. When I haven't gotten a single phone call from you ever since I left California, and all of a sudden you decide to call to end everything with me. I sat there holding the phone, crying, because I didn't, couldn't do a damn thing about it. You were ending it, and that was that. After how happy I was knowing we were back together again. I should've known. I know, but I never thought it would hurt that bad. I thought I was prepared for the worst. But who knew the worst was this bad?

[emazing]

Life is good.
LG, babyyy.
I just hope nothing goes wrong when we go off to L.A. this Friday.

[*Freaky Krazer*]

I don't know. Is God enough for me? Are my friends enough for me? I've been telling myself that I have the strength only if I look deep enough, but day by day I feel like I'm rotting. Just thinking about them, it kills me. All those fun memories I wish would be here again... It's just killing me. I can't handle it anymore.

[shynhuggablee]

dear cb diary,

I cant wait for 2moro!!!

-sara

[*mzkandi*]

Dear cB,

I just got through midterms. I didn't feel like was going to make it for a while but at the moment I'm pulling 2 Bs and 2 As so I'm happy with that. I knew this school was going to be alot of work and a challenging experience but....I don't know, at this school there is alot of competition to be the best. Maybe because it's an art school but I can't help but get design envy when I see someone elses amazing work. There are many talented people here that inspire me to be the best. I have a passion for this and I want to succeed.

- K

[*stephinika*]

Dear cB diary,

Wow. Summer is almost over.

I can't believe it. I was thinking about how high school is actually over the other night...I still find it kind of unreal. I'm starting university for gods sakes...thats ridiculous. Haha...man. I'm leaving for Hawaii in like...3 days. I'm excited but not at the same time...I just really don't want to be stuck with just my parents for a week...ugh. Otherwise, it'll be fun. I can't wait to go shopping and just relax on the beaches there...it'll be my 6th time going there. But yeh...today was my last day at work before I leave, woo! A job is a job but still...I want a better one. So I've got 2 full days (tomorrow & Tuesday) with people before I leave, so that'll be fun. I can't wait for that. Sigh. Anyways...thats it for now I guess..

[Derty_sweet]

Dear cB diary,

Its almost School Noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!
after this I'm going to play Harvest Moon a wonderful life. That game is like so fun but takes to long to finished it. I'm so tired today. i had to helped my mom cooked because she's going to work like at one or two and it takes very long to cook for us. How come I don't have a boyfriend yet ?

[*Funkadelic Kiss*]

Dear Createblog Diary,

I feel like a tub of lard. Scratch that, I am a tub of lard. 14 days till school starts. Desperate times call for desperate measures.

[angelrevelation]

dear cb diary,

D says J might like me. he doesn't know why he thinks so, but he does. i kind of always have had a suspicion, but there was the whole thing with anna asking and him saying 'only ever as a friend'. even IF it was a while ago, i still dont think he really would. he has his precious anne.

i mean, he's SO fickle. he just goes down his list when he's rejected. if he did like me, i'd still be at the bottom of the list, only gone after when his first choices rejected him. uggh.

anyways, on a somewhat lighter note, school's starting in exactly one week. i wish the BTC wouldn't be growing apart like this. i kind of realized that many of us never were REAL friends, just more like friendly acquaintances. like a friend of a friend. but i still wish that we could all have a good time like we used to. but since all those petty fights things just arent the same.

for high school, i keep on thinking that he's going to move back. i don't know why. i was looking through margaret's yearbook from june, and i was looking at the sophomore pictures and i kept on somehow expecting him to be there, even though i KNOW he wouldnt be. and i know he's not coming back this year, so why should i still even consider it the least bit? why should i think that the people who moved in across the street would be his family, and that he'd live right across from me? why can't i just FORGET about him. i never even KNEW him.

i just hope i'll find someone new at b-town. but then again, even if i did, i wouldn't do anything about it. i'd just sit there, hoping my feelings would die down eventually. because i would never take the risk. i never have.

[iDecay]

Dear cB Diary,

Summer's almost over.. I'm happy, yet I'm not. By far, this has been the worst summer ever. I've been hurt too much over these 2 1/2 months. I've cried so hard these past few days. I can't remember when was the last time I cried that much. Hell, I never had - until now. Hardly any of my friends were there for me. They just think that I've been happy all summer long. Hah, BS. What have I done wrong? I don't see what I have done to deserve this. My parents think they show me love by buying me things. Sure, it'll make me happy for a few weeks, but then it'll die off. They'll just get me some other thing to replace it. What type of parents are that? They take away the only thing they bought me that I actually appreciated, and give me this talk full of BS. Then afterwards, ask me if I wanted GAMES? What the hell is wrong with them? Always comparing me to people that are nothing like me, telling me how my cousins were better children than me. It's not freaking 1989 anymore, god. I just want to run away. Run far, far, away. Away from all of these people who think they know me, when they don't know a thing.

f**k, I feel emo...

[oXMuhNirvanaXo]

Dear Createblog Diary,

I feel like a tub of lard. Scratch that, I am a tub of lard. 14 days till school starts. Desperate times call for desperate measures.

Dear Cb Diary,

Help her not to feel like a tub of lard.

- Shelby

[think!IMAGINARIL...]

Dear cB Diary,
I'm tired. And I want orange and green caps for my earphones. My crappy Sony blue and silver ones are ugly.
cB Chat is dead x4501405.
I need to do my homework soon. Read two books, take notes and do projects? Hah. Easy for me in 1 day. I really wish I studied a little for the SATs this summer though. I know I don't need to, but I want to get into a good college.
I wish I could get that internship. Maybe I'll ask the next time I go? Eh. As long as it's before March, I'm fine. And I'm pissed now 'cause my parents want me to go to China again next summer. I mean, c'mon! I'm broke and I need a job! Heh. Well, actually, that internship isn't entirely about the money, but I am pretty broke at this point. There are more reasons. Maybe 1 more reason. Yeah..
So I'm listening to The Starting Line right now, and they sound like a lot of bands I know. They're pretty awesome though.
I really don't want him to leave, but he has to :( School is just too important.. Y'know what's depressing? By the time I'm a junior, I'll probably never see him again. I'll get over it sooner or later.. I always do.
Last night's dream was freaky. Like I was with the Hayden kids at a Mets game and there were no interns there or teachers there except for Brian. And so the game goes into extra innings and a lot of people decide to stay, which was really weird 'cause everyone hates the Mets there. And so we were standing ON the field, which was also weird. The Mets won and so there was this thing after the game which was like a test for incoming rookies and stuff and they had to dive in the water and pull the boat.. And so everyone was there, including everyone on the team.. And so after that was over, everyone got to meet the team and they got into a food fight. LOL. That ws really weird.
And so whatever. Yeah. I don't dream about him anymore.. Maybe it's because I'm obsessed with him less and I don't think about him all day long? Probably. But the thing is, I think about him before I go to sleep. And so sometimes, my dreams have a little to do with him. It's not like before, when my dreams practically revolved around him.
Eh. Yeah. Another day in my boring life.
I don't want to go to high school :( I'm scared. And it's starting in less than 2 weeks :(
God, I miss him so much. I wish I could see him again, but that's not really possible until next year..

[*mzkandi*]

Dear cB,

Oh boy, what have I gotten myself into.....

-K

[ParanoidAndroid]

Dear CB diary,

Sometimes I get so f**ked up. Things that should get you a little "upset", get me infuriated. I lose my temper so fast it scares me. It scares me so much it depresses me. It makes think I can never completely happy in life. It gets me real mad how I get mad easily. Make sense?

I don't know. I just want everything to end. Maybe I won't have to be so mad if that happens. I don't know.

[*Uronacid*]

I should have never said a word... I regret everything I said, but was it all for the better...

[Looow]

Dear cB Diary,

I'm so f**king frustrated. I need money. I f**king HATE asking my parents for money. MOTHERFCUUKING SHIT. I do need a job. We're broke ass f**k right now. It's not even funny. I saw the bank account & shit .. wow.