Createblog Diary, Version 8.0 Options

[*Freaky Krazer*]

Dear Cb Diary,

I'm so sick of everything. I really am. I need a better life. One person isn't helping. He's only one person he can't help it. I just wanna get out of this place, real bad. Plus my mom being a cheap fob just takes away the chances of going to a college out of state. It's horrible I tell you...

What did I ever do wrong. I tried so hard to keep things together but it all felt apart. I'm so sick I just want to end it all. I just wish I can get out of this age/phase. f**king hormones.

[*lolita kitty*]

Dear cb diary,

-erases long entry from last night-

I'll type up what happened later.

- Cassie

[*jooleeah*]

Dear Createblog Diary,
I'm so f**king stupid. Seriously. I take everything out of proportion.
But why can't people realzie that I'm a good person? I don't want to sound cocky or conceited, that's definitely not what I'm aiming for. But, I mean...I just don't know. I feeel like I'm always getting overlooked. Always. Even here on createblog. It sucks. It really does...

Goddamn.

[NgocQuyen]

dear cB,
i just feel like i have no social life anymore...ever since my cell phone broke i just haven't been connected to the outside world..i haven't been going out anywhere...i've just been at my house all day taking care of mai, in which i do not mind doing because i love her so much. and i try so hard to clean the house for chi uyen because i know she works a lot, but it just seems like it's never enough you know? theres always something wrong or dirty in the house and it seems like i'm always the one to get the blame for it...even though most of the time it's that stupid retard tim's fault...dude...chi uyen just takes her anger out on me all the time and i don't even know why...do i really not do anything? i mean i know i take some time off during the day to get on the computer but is that so wrong? i have no kind of social life and the computer is the closest thing i have to fun and like, i get punished for it...i don't know..i mean it's no wonder i can't communicate with them...i mean you should see it..it's awful...x__x i just can not wait until two years...two years i will be OUT OF HERE...st. pete here i come! theres only one thing wrong with eckerd college....it doesn't have a minor in photography! how sad! omigosha. i really wanted to minor in that too...=[ it doesn't even offer it as a major..ehh...that has got to be the suck..but yeah..anyways...i don't know...i think if i was happier i could be able to talk to chi uyen better and maybe she wouldn't hate me as much? maybe if i was in a relationship i would be happier? i don't know....i just feel weird....i want to be in a relationship but at the same time i don't want to be in a relationship...you know what i'm saying? i think i'm just retarded...oh well..i'm tired..good night cB

[*stephinika*]

Dear cB diary,

I had so much fun today...but now...he seems upset for some reason. I don't think he likes the fact I keep hanging out with them...its not like I'm doing anything wrong... So my cell phone woke me up at 10:30am and I got invited to go do the Grouse Grind with them...this hike. I agreed and managed to get out of the house on short notice by saying I went to Marcela's house...and I still need to tell her, just so she knows but she's out again, haha. Its not like my parents will check, but just so she knows...anyways, so I met up with them in Surrey and rode with Larry to get there...oh my. Most intense workout of my summer...it was fun though, as hard as it was. Took the gondola down after and then went to get my car back from Surrey then went to White Pine Beach...that was fun. Then grabbed some sushi for dinner before heading home...a fun filled day.
I hope he calls me soon though...I'm worried now. I just want to know why he's upset and I hope I can fix it...sigh.

[*lolita kitty*]

Dear cb diary,

I won't go into details, but mom got back early this morning. Damn was I mad.

Today was average.

I'm getting paaaaaaaaid friday 100 buuuuucks. Babysitting rocks.

- Cassie

[*Freaky Krazer*]

Dear CB diary,

I was watching commercials late at 5:30 am. It surprised me how phone sex services are still advertising...

It made think anyways. I just wanted to cry after thinking that much. I'm such a selfish person. I made myself think I never liked Eric after that night but it never works. Those stupid love songs really make me wanna gag.

Oh well, time to buy ice cream. Happy depressing summer!

[SarahxJoy]

Dear cB Diary,

Four days. That's all. Four more days. Then three days in California. *Sigh* I wish we were in school already.

Sarah Joy

[BrokenDream]

Dear cb diary,
I'm excited.. yet bored.. yet sad.. ugh so many emotions . I can't sleep, so I'm sad, I'm excited because my two best friends in the whole universe are coming over on Saturday and I can't get it out of my effin mind, and I'm bored to death.. oh, and there is nothing on the TV! Just lame Paid Programming. Ehh.. oh well. That explains it. It's 2:06AM. Ha. I'll be up all night again. I feel alone. =( I wanna be with my friends. I can't get off this damn computer ><". Seriously. I can't. I can't move. I need to sleep. I'm tired.. but once I get in the bed I'm wide awake! I hate being a night person . It sucks. Bad. But it's fun at night with your boyfriend, or your best friend, you know? Being alone at 2:00AM on Friday is really, really depressing. People like me should be sleeping goddammit! I'll be up again.. and again.. and again.. the again's continue.

I can't wait till tomorrow. Best friends are coming over and it's gonna be fun. We're gonna watch a scary movie, and hang out and stuff. On Sunday we're going to the mall and just hang out. We're so loud and obnoxious (sp?) it's not even funny xD.

Hmm.. well mixed emotions about William. I kind of like him, he's my friend and all.. but he's just so immature and retarded . But heeeey that's why he's so funny! I just don't know anymore. Bad breakup with my ex.. it reminds me. I don't trust alot of guys anymore.

That'll be all for now. Love you all.

Melissa

[xTINAA]

Dear cB Diary,
I can't remember the last time I've wrote here? Anyways, some new things have happened.

I got in a fight with Dicle. What a stupid girl. Funny thing is after getting bitched at and getting her hair pulled and getting punched several times on her head, she still doesn't get the point. What a stupid, stupid girl. Her boyfriend is equally stupid though. After that happening and after being yelled at he doesn't understand it at all either. Too bad for them. I guess they must be perfect for each other then - both stupid.

Another stupid person to add to the growing list is Phillip. Go figure. For some reason (unknown to me) he wanted to come to my best friend's birthday party although he wasn't invited and when he had repeatedly said he hated her. Then he chose to not talk to me the entire night. That's just great. Wonderful. Fantastic. And I recently found out that after Prom he said he liked me. He has a funny way of showing it don't you think? Ignoring me? Mm, doesn't equal "I like you" to me.

Last night I had friends come over for a little get together. It was really fun actually. I risked getting in some trouble I suppose since my parents were out of town but I'm glad I did. I liked that we all got to chill, drink, loosen up a little, and just have a good time. I hope to have more kick backs like that...especially with college coming up.

Speaking of college, I have orientation next week. I'm rather nervous actually. I hope that it's fun and that I get a good feel for school. Also that I meet some new friends.
-Me.

[*baby_in_blue*]

Dear createblog diary,

why am i here?
i just feel like i have no life.


thanks for listening.

[*islandgirl4eva*]

Dear cB diary,

How is it possible that nearly everyday I have a revelation that completely contradicts the one I had the day prior? After he hurt me, I figured that I would never give him another chance. No talking, no communication whatsoever. I was wrong. Now that I've forgiven him, it makes me feel like I want to try and open those lines of communication again. Maybe I'm just too stupid to see that not everyone can remain friends after something like that. I don't really know.

[BrokenDream]

Dear cb diary,
Heeey! It's the daaay! Yaaay.



That was gay. Anyways.. it's Saturday! And in about 7 hours my friends will be coming over. Damn, we are going to have so much fun. I swear. Yay. Kristina's more of a louder person. And Rachael is more calm. But they'll both be loud xD. Hmm.. I cleaned most of the house today. I cleaned my room, the den, the kitchen, the living room, the bathroom.. and etc. I live in a 1 story house. No stairs. Easier to clean, no? (:

I went to bed at effin 7PM yesterday night. I was tired. How weird is that for me? I'm the girl that stays up all night on cb or anything on the internet. I was just exhausted for some odd reason. Probably cause I was cleaning the whole house and crap . It'll be worth it today (: What's also weird is that I woke up at 6AM and went to bed at 7PM last night. Doubleyouteaeff? I didn't want to wake up so early. Nothing to do.

That'll be all for now.

-Melissa

[*lolita kitty*]

Dear cb diary,

I SAW PIRATES 2 TODAY!

Patreesha got me addicted to gaia again. Dang.

- Cassie

[*jooleeah*]

Dear Createblog Diary,
Not feeling too good. Just threw up.

I feel so congested and gross and dizzy and exhausted and both emotionally and physically tired. and i didn't even do anything today..

I guess I'm not meeting up with Andy and Cindy tomorrow

[Looow]

Dear cB Diary,

Okay okay, I'll admit it. I want him back. I f**king miss him so much right now. Lately, actually. Anniversary today ... I know it's not that long but .. he meant a lot to me. I don't even know if we'll ever go back. Shit. .. I know it's hella impossible though.

[`SWTWiNKLE3YES]

dear cB diary,
why cant she just apologize and say sorry. i always have to be the 'mature' one and say it first even tho i didnt do anything. this is just so bs. shes just so full of drama!!! i dont think i wanna be friends wid her anymore... she just kind of pisses me off

[BrokenDream]

Dear cb diary,
So this guy loves me.

...

I don't know if I love him . He's a great guy. We've been friends for a long time. I'm just not sure.

[*stephinika*]

Dear cB diary,

Today was fun. Hung out at the beach from 10:45ish in the morning until like...5:15pm haha it was great. Got a tan, my shoulders are a bit red though. Eep. Oh well, should be fun. Kyle brought 'Susan' oohhh my god. Too funny. A bunch of people showed so yeah. It was great. Brought Larry to the rock...twice! Yay for him! He really should learn how to swim. But yeah. It was good times. Chicken fiiiight! K...I thought I'd feel like typing more...maybe later. =p

[*jooleeah*]

Dear Createblog Diary,
Is it sad that I don't want to see my own "best friend"? Pft. Hahaha. She's not even my "best friend" anymore. :P I feel so immature. Teehee.

It's 3:42 AM. What am I still doing up? More later, I guess.

[*lolita kitty*]

Dear cb diary,

I hate babysitting. Sometimes I tell myself it's not worth the money I get paid. Seriously, those kids are BRATS. Oh yeah, I am addicted to gaia again. I have a full on quest thread, shop, free art thread (partially owned by patricia), etc.

I guess that means I probably won't be posting in here for a few days. Or weeks. Haha. Bye!

- Cassie

[AngelinaTaylor]

Dear cB diary:

I feel absolutely awful for doing this.. but it's not like we can control our emotions, right? >.< It's just that I've never had feelings for someone who was so much like me.. I know he'd understand me so much better than anyone. It kind of feels good. But I wish I could do something about it. Everything's falling apart too.. for all I know, that "break" could last forever.

[BrokenDream]

Dear cb diary,

I feel like everyone f**king hates me . My best friend is mad at me and I didn't intend to make her mad.. and then my other best friend's friends hate me for no reason. I feel bad. I don't know what to say. I'm afraid I'm going to lose my best friend. I almost did one time. Over a fight. A stupid, immature fight. Now I'm afraid she's going to block me, and not answer the phone when she sees me on caller id. I tried explaining to her that I didn't mean to make her feel this way. It doesn't work. I really feel like that though. She said she's sick of me saying, "You're always right, ****!" (Named blocked out) I feel like everytime we disagree with each other I'll start something.. and don't really mean to.. and then she gets mad at me. And then we just don't talk. 'Course we make up and all, but I'm afraid that one day she'll just give up and block me and not ever talk to me again.

I'm still fighting with her at this very moment. Not cussing at each other or anything.. just simple explaining to each other how we felt about each other. When she said to me, "I thought you'd trust me by now.. but I guess you don't." That really tore my heart to pieces. I do trust her and I love her to death and would do anything for her. I suck at explaining things to people obviously. I sucked so bad at explaining to her. I feel like a freaking idiot now. Before she logs out tonight, I hope we make up. I really don't want to sleep in tears and her in rage. I really don't. I'm crying as I right this.

Sureee this may seem like a simple fight, but it's not.
It's not really. Because I think she's being serious with me and not kidding. She's always serious when we have these kind of situations.. but this time I mean with our friendship. I don't want to lose her.

I feel so stupid. I feel so freaking STUPID. I feel like everything I do is wrong! Every thought I think is wrong! Everything I try to do, I get it WRONG! Am I just wrong? I think I'm the definition of wrong. Shit, I can't even spell it right.

I have never used those swear words. I guess I'm really depressed and upset then. For real this time .

From,
Melissa

[aeroplane.]

Dear cb diary,

I hate babysitting.
But I felt so good after I yelled at my cousin [whom I am babysitting] last week I have never felt better. The only reason I yelled at him was because he couldn't clean his own room && he is EIGHT. He wanted me to do it. Little bastard. Well I have to babysitt tomorrow from 7:00-1:00. Ughh. Here we go again. p.s. im not making him mac-n-cheese AGAIN.

[*jooleeah*]

Dear Createblog Diary,
I am sitting here, being miserable. Why am I miserable? I don't know....