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[OMGitzNAV]

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[Looow]

Dear cB Diary,

I'm pretty fcuking stupid. I can't let go.

[AngelinaTaylor]

Dear cB diary,

I've done something horrible.. and I wish I could change that fact, but I can't.. You can't change how you feel, right? I hate this. I really, really hate this. I wish everything was different.. I wish I never had to be put through this.

And I swear, I hate him.. I f**king hate him.

[angel-roh]

Dear CB Diary,

Today, I woke up at 2:00PM.
Then I went to eat Pho with Howard Roh and Yumi Noh =D
After Pho, we went to drink at Bubble Tea.
I ordered Mango Peach smoothie without tapioca.
After Bubble Tea, we went to
Mountlake 9 theater to watch Devil Wears Prada.

and omg...

DEVIL WEARS PRADA IS GOING TO BE MY FAVORITE
MOVIE . well not all time. lets see about it =P

[*jooleeah*]

dear createblog diary,
i love meeting new people. meeting new people is fun.
meeting nice people. meeting fun people. yet still being with your old group of friends is nice too.
i loved meeting those new people today. and i loved hanging out with friends today.

now why am i so sad now?

[AngelinaTaylor]

dear cB diary,

I just want to feel loved. Is that asking so much from someone who's supposed to love me?..

[*jooleeah*]

dear cb diary,
okay, i haven't felt that "feeling"
but i am definitely nervous as hell.
and i haven't felt THAT kind of nervous in a while.

oh my gosh. oh my gosh. its been like 2 years.

[SarahxJoy]

Dear createBlog Diary,

In the midst of all of this trouble and boredom, I'm missing something. Hrm..

[*stephinika*]

Dear cB diary,

So grad has come and passed. It was quite the night. Had its good and bad. Let's begin...
The trolley and partybus people met at school at 1:30ish which was fun. It was great seeing all of us dressed up and such. The pictures started then and eventually we loaded onto the trolley and headed downtown. Our stops were QE Park, Kits Beach, and Gastown and it was lots of fun taking pictures and parading around in our dresses. Finally, we reached the hotel for our dinner/dance and after lots of waiting we had dinner. This is where it got bad. The dancing began and I danced a small amount before feeling sick. I was nauseous after awhile and thought it'd pass, but it didn't. I couldn't dance which just made me so upset and I ended up throwing up a number of times. I had a crying fit and was and still rather upset about it since it was my grad night...it sucked. I felt like crap and I just couldn't help but cry. Eventually, I went and got changed for drygrad and I started to feel a bit better, but I couldn't do any of the activities like the obstacle course and those things because my stomach wasn't in perfect condition. Time went by so fast, and then the hypnotist showed up, and the show was hilarious. Then, breakfast at Kait's. I had fun with my friends & Adrian still but I'm so sad I got sick...I wanted to dance and do all the other stuff...sigh.

[*jooleeah*]

Dear Createblog Diary,
I kind of want nothing to happen, so I can move on from this crazy obsessed girl stage.

I hate being so masochistic.

Why am I so indecisive about this?

[ghjgfkgfk]

♥~*~Dear CreateBlog Diary,~*~♥

Maria likes to suck fat dicks. As does Caitlin. As does Anderson Cooper(ME!).
Q: Do you have a Ziplock bag in your house?
A: Yes
A: Well, you better go zip it!!!!!!!111111bbq

Today I went to a movie premiere. I looked so sexy and stunning. Then I interveiwed Maria Dawaher, the famous actress. She totally digs me, I can tell! I'm not gay! I like woman too!!!!!! She gets her period four times a year and her favorite color is mirror and transparent. Coincidence? I think not! I go to New Orleans twice a day!!!!The effects of acid rain can be seen all around us. I eat boxes upon boxes of lemonheads, but my tummy doesnt digest them well. MARIA WEARS SPANDEX! TODAY I WENT SWIMMING AND A LEECH WAS ON MY ~*~PENIS~*~!!

Love,
~*~♥Anderson Cooper♥~*~

[Rachel]

Dear createblog diary,
Soo much has happened in the past month or so, I don't even know where to begin.

A lot of shit went down with Tom/Allie/Me/Vinne. It is all better now except that I haven't spoken to Tom since then really and it's a bit awkward with Allie. I don't feel bad about hooking up with Tom, only afterwards when he told me she was really hurt by all the lying. We didn't even tell her the truth, he said it was a druken kiss; it was a sober f**k. I don't really care either. I am over everything he has to offer. I don't see what I used to in him.

Orientation at Ithaca was positively the best part of summer so far. I met so many amazing people and can't wait for fall. There were some cute boys, unfortunately all had girlfriends. Oddly enough, that didn't stop Oliver. He even said "I have a girlfriend, this is a bad situation." but 20 minutes later, his hands were roaming and we were sharing some salvia. Now this is a hookup I feel awful about and regret completely. I was decently drunk/messed up and wasn't really thinking about how much it would hurt his girlfriend. I almost forgot he had one until he told me not to say anything that could be sexual/hook up related on his facebook, ass. All boys seem destined to cheat, or at least the ones I am attracted to.

Oh well.

[AngelinaTaylor]

Dear cB diary:

I f**king hate people. Yeah, I've said it. I HATE PEOPLE!

God.........

[AzNxBaBi]

Dear CB Diary,

It's July 3rd and it is 7:32PM and tmr is Fourth of July.
I don't think my family are going to do anything nor will they let me go anywhere.
It's summer break and I want to spend time with my friends.. I don't think they
understand that, I mean it's okay I can wait until I'm out of Highschool. But I mean
this is the time of my life where I can still be able to enjoy life without worrying about
bills coming in every month and stuff like that. *sigh* I have never tried to reason with
them that I am older because they've worked so hard for me and my siblings to get the
things we got. So I don't want to worry them and plus give them the pressure that their
child has grown up. My mom has been sick lately and I'm worried *sigh* Life isn't fair is it?
It's been really boring lately .. I don't know I should be grateful that my parents did not make me work this summer.

For awhile I've been getting the "I'm happy yet why am i soo sad" feeling. It's not suppose
to happen? I mean I got mostly everything I want but there's this empty feeling in me where
sometimes i feel like I'm alone and invisible. I don't think I truly have any friends sometimes.
I wish people would look it at me and can tell that I'm lying through my smile. If people say friends are forever then ..
where are mines? Where is my forever? There are some i believe
in and others that just I know forreal are just using me in any possible way they could ..
I just want for one person where I can tell everything too. Where I can cry, laugh everything
and know that they will still like me for who i am ..

[magicfann]

Dear createblog diary,
I love the emos on this thread, they make me lol so much
<33

[*jooleeah*]

Dear Createblog Diary,
To be cautious or to take risks?

That seems to be the question.

Too bad it's impossible to do both. This sucks.

[AngelinaTaylor]

Dear cB diary:

I can't stand this anymore. I feel like I want to run and run run run until I can't breathe anymore.. and I then just stay there and choke on my own mistakes. I don't want to live one more day of pretending.. although lately that's all I've been doing.

"I'm okay", "Yeah, it's ok", "It's alright, no problem", "I'm fine", "I'm not upset".

But I'm not fine. And I am upset. You think I feel fine when you just run away from everything? I f**king hate it when you do that. And you just leave, without saying a word. How's that supposed to make me feel, huh? Well I really feel like I just... hate you right now. I'm sick of being hurt, and sick of being neglected and alone........ I simply can't take it anymore.

And it's just so hard to end it.. I f**king hate this part. I don't even want to think that I love you, or that I'll miss you or any of those absurd things, because lately, I've been drawn to the conclusion that love is nothing but an illusion.. nothing but pain that seeks to confuse your mind and lead you into your own disastrous delusions/hallucinations. Besides, who needs love at my age? I should be focused on other things. Education, friends, travelling? I don't know. All I know is that love doesn't last.

[*jooleeah*]

Dear Createblog Diary,
I'm a terrible person to like. Uhg.

Other than that, I want Sunday to come now.

[*stephinika*]

Dear cB diary,

So grad camping was hella fun. Got a bit drunk, haha but those were some good times. I'm still sore from knee-boarding though. Cotillion practice today was fun. I got tossed around quite literally by the guys, hah. It was a good day. Going to Surrey tomorrow for that SFU thing and another practice...by myself. Yaaay. K I'm tired...I wanted to write more but I need sleep.

[*mzkandi*]

Dear cB,

I have so many things to do! I'm both nervous and excited! Packing, moving in, starting a new school. Then I have to be on the look out for a part time job and new car. I don't even know why I'm online right now....wait, I'm a procrastinator. OK, gotta go, gotta call the Sallie Mae people about my loan and get to packing. DSKGHJGKLD

- K

[*Intoxique*]

Dear cB Diary,

I suffer from myself.

- Liz.

[*stephinika*]

Dear cB diary,

Wow. So much is going on. I haven't been spending as much time on cB but I've been so busy and everything is crazy right now so yeah...I feel bad and almost like I should step down but I think I'll be able to put more time in after the next week or two. I feel so disconnected with the community and everyone else though right now...
I'm so excited for Christina's debut though...I've made so many great friends, especially Larry. He's such a great guy and he's so fun. Definitely a good friend to keep around...they're all so fun. We've made so many plans for after her party too which is pretty sweet. I'm sooo excited...definitely worried about dancing with that humongous dress though.
Had that session with SFU today about course registration...I'm a little stressed about it...I need to decide what Bachelors' I want before I enroll so I can figure out which electives to take..ahhh. My brain... I'm nervous but excited all at once for university. Man...its crazy. I still can't believe it.
Not only is Xtina's debut coming up, so is my one year with Adrian...I still can't believe it. I'm excited for that and things with him have been going well...some rough spots but we've worked them out nicely. I hope he appreciates his gift and all the time and effort I put into it...man. But yeah, things with him have been better..he's been acting a lot better in the relationship, so I'm happy about that.
Not gonna lie though...I'm rather fond of my new found friend...not enough to be bad or not really quite like that but yeah...I don't think its healthy, but nothing will come of it so its okay.

I feel better now after typing all that.

[AngelinaTaylor]

I'll be honest. I'm really out of words right now.. I don't even know what to say. Except that I just feel helpless. I think that would pretty much sum it up.. I feel completely helpless. Oh yeah, and useless.. yeah. It's not a very good combination, but you gotta work with what you got, right?

There's so much I wanna say, but I just can't find a way to get it out of me.. and I want to get it out of me. I want it out out out out ...................

God...............

[*Libertie*]

"You dress like a frikkin' grandma. No, of course you don't look 18, it's the way you dress, it's either you look like a child or you look like you're 50. All. The. Time."

That plus more that I was trying to tune out while fighting back tears.. was fifteen-ish minutes of my day, but it made the rest absolutely miserable. I shouldn't have let it get to me, but his opinion means a lot. That hurt.

Even now, however, I'm still smiling. Some people just do that to you.

[SarahxJoy]

Dear createblog Diary,

I miss him. It sucks how much I miss him. It sucks even worse to see that sometimes it seems like he doesn't miss me as much. They say that usually in a relationship, there's someone who'll be in deeper; more than the other. I don't know if I'm willing to be that person again. I hope not, at least for now.

But through things like this even, he still brings me happiness. The most anyone has ever been able to give me, and so I deal with it. We try to see each other at least once a week, especially with summer in our midst. So far so good. I'm really happy.

Sarah Joy