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[*jooleeah*]

dear cb diary,
today BETTER work out...

<3

I've got to stop listening to these depressing songs.

[rainnydaiis]

Dear cb diary,

I'm having feelings and things I really wish I wouldn't have.... but I guess feelings are uncontrolable thats why it amazes people all the time.

[smearedmakeup]

Dear cB Diary,

I wish I wasn't so attatched to him. Every time I think I'm starting to get over him, something or someone brings it up. Then, I think about how much he means to me. Maybe it'll be easier to get over him, if I wanted to. But I don't. I don't want to get over him, even if it means it's hurting me. He's the one thing I won't be selfish over. Maybe I'm stupid, maybe I'm blind, but I would literally do anything for him. The little things make us so far apart, yet so close. It's just so confusing. I really don't know what I'm feeling. And lately, I've been feeling down. No, I'm not depressed, I'm not in a constant state of sadness, but I have been feeling down. Every little thing that goes wrong brings me down. No, I'm not pissy because things won't go my way, it's only because those little things add up, and my shoulders can't take it anymore. Even when people talk about me, it'll bring me down. Whatever happened to the Eva that could care less about what people think? She's not around anymore.
I wish she was.

[*jooleeah*]

Dear Createblog Diary,
I'm probably going to kill something before I graduate.
I am so f**king mad.

[silver-rain]

Dear CB Diary,

Prom is tomorrow. Despite all the drama, and apparently everyone I talked to had some kind of drama, I'm so excited. I have so much to do, but it should all be worth it.
I hope it's all good.

[*Intoxique*]

Dear cB Diary,

I am truly, finally, officially letting go of him. He has been on my mind for far too long. It's time I let him go & continue with my life. Become the person I was before he came a long & stole my heart then broke it in two. It's time for me to forget him & become more outgoing like I was before. It's time for me to tell myself that he wasn't "Mr. Right" & no matter how many time I tell myself that I can change him, I really can't. I am letting him go.
So, this is how the single life feels like again... hmm, it's been long the last time I was single. I told everyone I was single but inside I was really "taken" by someone that didn't want to take me & call me his 'girlfriend'. But I am over that shit. I am officially single.
Welcome to the single life.

- Liz <3.

[*jooleeah*]

Dear Createblog Diary,
Dang. Dramatic day. I forgot what it felt like to have drama like that.

It's okay though. It was a good day either way.

[NinjaxMageLayout...]

Dear CB diary,
Today i had to live in more fear.School tormented me with the knowledge of knowing whether or not if im going to summer school.I do all my worked and i passed all my main classes.I cant go to summer school for failing gym -.- but my science teacher was such a bxtch failing people for no reason and lowering their grades.I snapped after she left the class room 4th period.I cursed so much everyone just became silent and looked at me.I mean what should i have done?Just stay there silently and let it bottle up inside until the day would have come when i blew up in her face?No.I feel bad now.=[

[smearedmakeup]

Dear cB Diary,

I'm back here again, which means I may see him around. Every sad song I hear, it reminds me of him. It's been a year, already. And I'm still thinking about him. I was so sure that he wouldn't be back in my life again. I want to see him again, but then I don't. :[

[tomgurl]

im so confused....my ex-bf jus broke up wit his gf 2 ask me bac out but now ive sorta started 2 like this other guy...but i wont be able 2 talk 2 the other guy 4 a while cuz hes gone on vacation...bummer...but now my ex-bf is l ike all sad bcuz he knows its 2 late but deep inside i still love him..i so totally dont no wat 2 do..can sum1 help me please...???

*ALEYA*

[NinjaxMageLayout...]

Dear Cb diary,
UGH!today we were apose to go to connecticut for the senior trip to holiday hills.I had to wake up so fast and get dressed fast because i was going to miss the trip because we had to be at school before 7.So i ran 3 blocks for no reason without stoping.Then they tell us two hours after waiting and after we were already on the coach bus which was so nice.That now its for friday!WTF MAN!i did everything today for no crappy reason.But now that it for friday its better because ^__^ i have no school next day YAY.so it had its good and bads but overally it was good.

[*islandgirl4eva*]

Dear cB Diary,

I finally feel like I'm made a step up from where I usually am, and someone pushes me back down. How? HOW?!! I don't know what I do to deserve such mediocrity. I'm just trying to get somewhere. Is that so much to ask?

[*Intoxique*]

Dear cB Diary,

I am under so much pressure right now but the only thing I give a f**k about is my body. I don't care if it hurts, I want a perfect body. I would give anything to look perfect - anything. I want thin legs, tiny arms & a flat stomach. Oh, the things I would give to look like that.

- Liz <3.

[marzipan]

dear cbd,

i'm bored. my summer sucks so far

[NinjaxMageLayout...]

Dear CB diary,
OMG im tired of living here in the bronx where im at.When i first moved in this part of the bronx 8 years ago it used to be so beautiful and peaceful.But now crack heads and more drug dealers are on the street causing problems making my life a living hell just having to see them and walk by in the pressence of smoke..Im tired of it.My mom wants to move,my aunts wants to move away from the bronx,everyone in my family does.But only one of my aunts ::Denise::is successful like my mom..The only reason why i dont want to move is because of my friends and because of my sis in law.Well i dont have alot of friends because i hate most of this world..and for no aparent reason.It may seem like i just hate people for no selfish reason but really its because i see people for who they really are and i know how they will turn out to be if i hang out with them..Bff is changing but im not going to deal with anyones drama anymore.I got my own life and im tired of every minute i have to spend livivng here.Why did this place have to turn into a hell place?I wish my old house never burned down.Maybe things would still have been way b etter for me.But that doesnt change all the things that happeend to me there in the past...I want to get away i want to be able to walk down the street in the middle of the day without seeing crack heads on the street or junkies or a bunch of hoochies craving a guy who is homeless and a bum just like every other thug i see....i want to break away...

[magicfann]

Dear cB Diary,

I won a scrim today, so I was like "gg" to the other team but all they said was "mm2 plz" and I was just like 'wtf how rude'.
Those scrubs.

-- unstAWPable

[oXMuhNirvanaXo]

Dear cB Diary,

These past few days have been way messed up. I have been getting in to stuff that I havent been in for over 2 months then I threw it away.. I have been hanging out at the scate park more since Travis has been at work. Mike gave me and Stephanie a ride home last night when he had hardly any gas at all. Aw, yeah. Im glad hes just a hot ass friend. I miss Travis. He said we would hang out tomorrow. I hope. I pray. I will get threw this summer.

- Shelby

[NinjaxMageLayout...]

Dear CB diary,
Today was fun but graduation practice was soo like Preppy white girlish.The theme song to it sounded more like someone died that graduated -.-.But after school i had alot of fun with kristina,me and her walked and walked and talked for hours and i gave her a free icy from my house instead of making her buy it because shes one of my bff's.Yeah my mom always complains that i hang out with more girls than i do guys.SO what i find it cool to hang out with girls,especially if you want to date one.And besides all my cousins are girls except two who are guys,and one is 22 and one i dont see because hes always in his grandmom's watching wrestling.so therefor i was raised up around girls which is pretty nice.It doesnt make mi gay or feminate.OMFG today shardae OMFG i cant stand her,shes more manly than me.We were watching diary of a mad black woman and it was my 4th time wathching it so someone said they buying feminate products and she askes "whats feminate products/whats feminate"I screamed of rage.Your a girl and you dont know what feminism is?!she pisses me off man.DAMN MAN I SAY,SHES JUST LIKE CIARA!Anyway yay tomorrow no school for me because its prom day and im not going to no gay stupid prom its for hoochie's and H*es..Well then friday is finnaly the trip that was re scheduled to friday to holiday hills in connecticut.Its going to be so fun.and i get paid on that day.So im thinking of what game i should buy..and then next week is graduation on next friday..So im getting paid that friday too and im also im getting alot of money and then after graduation we going out to eat ^____^ I CANT WAIT.omfg drug dealers and gangs on my block are getting me pissed off,they so glad i dont have a gun or they wouldnt be here on earth no more.A whole lot of people wouldnt -.-.

[KELLYYY]

Dear cB Diary,

YESSSSSSSSS. FINALLY. I'm graduating from chinese school. Fck yeah. Class of 2006, bitches.

- Kelly

[*jooleeah*]

dear createblog diary,
hm. our conversations are stale. they are boring. they suck.
this is NOT want i wanted/expected.

i suck. i just suck at everything. what the hell. no matter how unselfish i try to be. no matter how kind i try to be. no matter how patient i try to be. i still suck.

gah. i don't know. so much stuff is on my mind. and i can't say anything. blarrr

[doork]

Dear cB diary,

I`m feeling sad and replaced.

[*islandgirl4eva*]

Julia, you can talk to me

Dear cB diary,

Tomorrow is the last day. I can get my license next week! I'm so excited. I can finally go and buy the *mumblemumble* that I've been wanting without having anyone giving me funny looks! SUHWEET.

Ew, I did not just say that

On a more serious note, I'm trying to strengthen the ties that I have with my friends. Even though I feel hurt that we've drifted apart, I want them to know I care and hopefully they'll show me that they care just as much.

For that, I pray.

[KELLYYY]

Dear cB Diary,

6 hours until I graduate. Wow, this is really ending, huh? I know I will never see like, half of the class.. ever. The good AND bad memories will never fade. I can't believe this is actually ending.. I don't want this to end. :[

- Kelly

[AngelinaTaylor]

Dear cB diary:

I actually hate my life right now. I hate everything - I hate him, I hate today and yesterday and tomorrow and next year. I hate being like this. I never thought I'd say this, but hate myself - my body, my personality, my appearance.

I f**king hate this. I hate not being able to do all the things that they do. I hate failing. I wish that he at least understood, but no ones understands anymore. I might as well just end it. Third time's a charm, right?

Taylor``

[Underestimated**...]

Aww..Taylor don't be so down on yourself. Tell me what's wrong and I might be able to help.