Createblog Diary, Version 8.0 Options

[*Intoxique*]

Dear cB Diary,

I am fat. Woot Woot.

- Me <3.

[*jooleeah*]

Dear Createblog Diary,
Way to go, Mother. Ruin my first day of summer.
Fck. You piss me off. Along with you, f**king brother. BOTH OF YOU.

Family sucks. JKSDLF

[Nugget]

Dear cB Diary:

f**k MY BROTHER. I HATE HIM. MY PARENTS ONLY LISTEN TO HIS SIDE OF WHAT HAPPENED JUST BECAUSE HE HAS f**king AUTISM. THEY NEVER LISTEN TO ME. f**king BITCH MESSED UP MY ROOM AND BROKE MY HAIR STRAIGHTENER AND BROKE ONE OF THE f**king HOME PHONES. MY PARENTS DONT EVEN CARE ABOUT MY ROOM BEING MESSED UP. THEY JUST CALL AND TELL ME TO CLEAN IT UP MYSELF. f**k. NOW HE TELLS ME TO SAY SORRY TO HIM? I'M NOT SORRY. HE f**king CONTROLS AND WATCHES EVERYTHING I DO. I WAS IN MY ROOM AND HE BARGES IN WHILE I WAS DOING MY HAIR. THEN HE SAYS "OH YOU COULD HAVE BEEN MESSING UP MY ROOM" WHAT THE f**k . I WAS IN MY OWN ROOM. f**king DUMBASS sh*t. MAN, WHY COULDN'T I HAVE A SISTER OR BE AN ONLY CHILD? I CAN'T WAIT UNTIL I MOVE OUT TO ANOTHER STATE. :(

-Christine

[Emma Sue]

Dear CB diary,
I still love Ralph, I don't know what to do..I'm so depressed.
My bro Logan tried to cheer me up, he made cookies. I tasted one- I bet he forgot to put some igridients coz it didn't taste that good. But I'll have to eat them since what he did was dead sweet and he's so funny whenever he cooks that he definately cracked me up.

My bro Aaron has his birthday tomorrow so we are organising a surprise party 4 him. My parents don't give a damn they still haven't called since Apri to see if we are doing well. Sometimes I think I don't love them at all, i MEAN THEY NEVER CARE ABOUT US. They just put money in our bank account and bring us stupid presents every time they come to visit us. They can't understand that we don't need money but love. They are so in their own world they forget they have three kids. They even forgot Logan's birthday.

I'm wondering what are we gonna get for Aaron. He has everything.

[SarahxJoy]

Dear createBlog Diary,

And so, as things end, new things begin. My ex is being dumb about me breaking up with him. I'm really glad I did now. He's decided that we shouldn't even be on speaking terms, I guess.

Also, this has never happened before. Usually after a break-up, it makes a long while for me to get over the guy and move on. But..not in this case. It's only been just a little under a week, and already I'm with someone new. I don't regret it getting into this, this fast. Why should I hold myself back from something or someone I want? David's teaching me that, and he's taught me so much more. He's been one of my very few close friends. I just find it amazing how what I wanted was right behind me all along, I just needed to turn around and realize it.

David & I [5/29/0]

Sarah Joy

[Jane Doe.]

...
I don't understand.

They say every human has potential. They have potential to do anything they set themselves to do.
If they have any problems, there are many, many associations, people, doctors and People With Power to help. A person with the ability to see more than is in front of them is rare as well, I know.
However, when one's own mind is the same thing that disables its host--that's bad.
Having so much potential, so much "if only you'd concentrate harder, you could do it all" from others--and even yourself--is so confusing, disabling, and can just cause one to stop functioning.
This feeling in my chest is getting deeper.
I want to talk to someone. I want to talk to someone and know that they care, that I mean the same to them as they do to me. I want to be able to depend on someone and know that it's okay, that they don't mind--or even prefer that I do--and would be able to come to me for help as well. They'd know I'd care, and it would all be...okay.
I want a deep connection with people. That's it. I do not care for acquaintances; I want only deep, meaningful friendships. Hah. I use the word friendship loosely.

My night has gone from an angry, inexplicable who-cares-wow, to a christwhydoesmychesthurtsomuch.
Oh well. I'll make up for it by doing something stupid to induce sleep and a completely useless feeling in my body. It's okay. Uhm, that's a lie - it's not okay.
I only post it here because I know it will be lost and no one will read it..or at least won't acknowledge it.

[mylittleMiracle]

dear cb diary,
my 2 of my best friends were so emotional AGAIN.they didnt talk to me for a whole day but talked to the slut that i hate the most in the class.omgits holy sh*t.hopefully another best friend Angel and I knew that they were crazy and fucky when they were in situation.thanks god;)

[*stephinika*]

Dear cB diary,

I feel so lost right now. I know he cares. I think I know...its just, he doesn't always show it and its driving me crazy...it hurts. Just some of the things he says...he doesn't realize how important they are to me but I don't know what to do...I hate this. I'm so scared right now...

[*jooleeah*]

Steph

Dear Createblog Diary,
I know that I'm one of the luckiest people in the world. I have this huge group of wonderful friends who are so nice and kind to me. They see everything but my flaws...actually, they probably do, but they look over them. Why am I not satisfied with life yet? Why does every little thing piss me off?

I don't know. I'm just rambling. I'm such a ridiculous person.

[faithin_felix]

dear cB diary,
i get to see her tommorow. i'm so happy i can't stop smiling and do anything else...teehee
Felix

[*jooleeah*]

dear cb diary,
maybe things are starting to fall back in place again. =)

[Jane Doe.]

...

What. The hell. Is wrong with me.

I am going to be asked to be checked out for any mood disorders.
This is getting ridiculous.

"I am trying so hard. I am. I promise and swear I am.

Please someone see it.
Someone help. Please don't think I am that messed up. I beg you."
And I wonder where the blood could have come from. I don't think I have an ulcer..I hope.
I don't know why I come here to vent.

I usually don't say anything. I need to fast.

I am tired.

[Teesa]

Dear CB Diary,

I think I am getting <3sick. I hate hate hate hate hate hate the way I'm feeling right now. Nothing makes me feel better. Except for seeing friends. That's always the best medicine.

I've come to the conclusion, which I should have come to a million years ago, that I'll always be sort of a second best. I don't understand ME. I don't think anyone does. I wish I could understand the way I feel because I can't even explain it to myself, let alone others. Why the hell do I like him at all?? I don't get it. It's so irrational and it's so stupid. So so so so so stupid. But I basically brought this on myself and now I'm pretty much miserable.

I should be so happy right now. Everyone is so happy and proud of me. But I don't care of that right now. I just want someone to take care of me. For once. For someone to love me more than a friend. Someone I love more than a friend. But I don't see that happening at all. Ever.

Maybe, just maybe, I'm being a tad irrational. But I don't give a f**k. I just want to figure out what the heck is wrong with me. I want to be cured.

-Teesa

[angelrevelation]

dear cb diary,

i don't get him. i really don't. one day, he gives me signals that actually make me hopeful, and the next day he like completely ignores me, is flirting with all these girls... and then there's HER. she's sooo perfect, why wouldnt anyone like her?? especially him. i mean, they would make such a cute couple. she's taller then me (and he's like uber tall so they fit better), prettier, never gets sweaty from long runs in PE... and she's still smart. and she's not slutty, annoyingly preppy, AND foreign. uggh.

on friday, i asked him if he wanted to practice, and he said no!

teacher- why aren't you doing anything?
him- cuz [she's] over there (and no one else in my group is here)

well i ASKED... and he said no. so what was i supposed to do?

there's no point, is there? if he DID like me before, he's probably moved onto her by now, like all guys that have liked me have done.

[AngelinaTaylor]

Dear cB diary..

I tend to be a happy person and to look at things from the positive side, but I really don't know what to do anymore.. Everything's different.. Our relationship's just.. dying. And whatever I do, I can't fix it.. I wish I could, because it's one of the most important things in my life. I was looking back at how things were a while ago, and it was so different.. Where's all the romanticism? All the passion? The late-night conversations that meant so much? There's nothing of that now. There's just.. nothing. And I feel like he cares less and less with each day.. We don't even talk that much anymore.. All we seem to do lately is argue and get mad at each other. For insignificant matters. Isn't that pathetic?

Why can't I change the way I feel?.. All I want to do right now is break down and cry, but I know tears won't do any good..

Taylor``

[*jooleeah*]

Dear Createblog Diary,
Haha. I hate myself sometimes.

It's ridiculous how I let these little things get to me.

I can't let those things get to me. No. No. NO. I don't want to go back. No...

[*Intoxique*]

Dear cB Diary,

Grad dance is quickly approaching. I am constandly stressed out about my weight. I constandly have an urge to step on the scale 5 times or more a day & count every single calorie I eat. I feel disgusting.

- Liz <3.

[silver-rain]

Dear CB Diary,

I hate drama. And, my life is so full of it right now. Argg. I hate my parents, especially my mom, for being so f**king untrusting, deceitful, and just plain annoying. I can't believe that they're blackmailing me, and Stephen is right, I shouldn't give in, but arggggg.

And now, because of prom, Wendy hates me. But whatever, she started it, so I'm not gonna care.

Oh, and also because of prom, he hates me. He hates how I want to go so much, that I've giving up my pride, etc. ANd I agree, but this is something I've always wanted. I kinda knew that it wouldn't happen though. Sigh, I hope that when I see him today, everything will be better.

I kinda wish there was a universal remote to life (like in Click) and I could just fast forward to when I move in to college. I hope my roommate(s) will be better...

[priyas]

Dear CB Diary,

I really L. OMFG. I <3 him so much. He has a gf, of over a year. I <3 him so much! Ever since the 7th grade. I think its time to let go, and drop the whole thing.

[*jooleeah*]

dear cb diary,
i'm pathetic.

damn those horoscopes.

[mylittleMiracle]

dear cB diary,
im effing worried now exam starts.tmr,english oral.im damn worried about the one minute response part.facing the horrible teacher,i dont know if i will be brave enough to express,say out all the stuffs in my mind.also the next day of english oral,chinese oral.30 mins!how can i survive!?30 mins dicussing with genius who love insulting people.IM f**king WORRIED. i hope god will give me power to say out useful things in eng and chi oral exam.PLEASE.

[*stephinika*]

Dear cB diary,

So today was kinda retarded. Last night convo with him was good though but today was so gay...when it came to him and others and tests...AUGH. School sucks. I need summer...grad...etc.

[*Intoxique*]

Dear cB Diary,

Things have taken a turn for the worst. Hmm, I am disappointed in myself & everyone. I wish it was summer & I could get the hell out of here & be chilling on the other side of the world by the beach with hot beach boys. I wish, hmmm, I wish a lot thing that won't ever come true .
Just like how I wish Alex & I had something. I was so sure that Alex & I had something, I was so f**king sure. I think we did but then of course Stefanie had to come in & f**k it right up. Damn, I can't even trust my best friend. God, I know they are gonna f**king get back together. I just can't stand her being with him. I also really pissed at Alex for playing me. I mean if he still had f**king feelings for her why would you tell me that you "loved me"? f**k. I guess this is what I get for playing games with Eric.
Now on to Eric. Fuckkkkkk, I f**ked everything up. We are on "non-speaking" terms. I hate it, I really want him back but now I am sure he likes someone else. I guess there no chance now, I had him & then I f**ked it up. Just like everything else I f**k up.
God, I guess I am just pissed because I am disappoint in everyone for playing games. But who am I to complain? I been playing a lot of games too. I really need to stop playing games. Now I know how it feels & honestly it really sucks. My feelings are crushed.
God, it's my last f**king month in this school & I want some good memories that I can look back at a year later & say "Oh, that was a great year, I had some awesome times", but I guess that's not gonna happen. The only thing I'll be saying a year later is "Holy f**k, I am glad I am out of there". The drama here really needs to tone down. It's our last year here & I don't wanna be in any fights or girl drama anymore.

- Liz <3.

[*jooleeah*]

Dear createblog diary,
What a depressing night this has turned out to be.
I seem to have screwed up, yet again.

Well, I'll just let it all go in the end. I know I will.

Because this shouldn't mean anything to me. AT ALL. Nope. Nothing to me at all...

[colleen92]

dear cb diary,
the guy i like (who also happens to be one of my best friends) told me that he liked my best friend. it sucks when that happens. but o well, as long as everyone's nice i'll still be friends with them.
i'm about to go spend a weekend at the beach with two of my other best friends. it's going to be really fun. i can't wait. plus i'm aniticipating a good tan.
i'm kind of mad though because the friends i really want to spend time with life half an hour away and i don't get to see them as much as i want to...and i feel like if i don't get to hang out with them very much they are completely forgetting about me...........