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#126
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![]() What the fack. ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Group: Official Member Posts: 6,164 Joined: Mar 2004 Member No: 8,519 ![]() |
Dear createBlog Diary,
Yesterday was Mother's Day, an eventful day. I started off with making breakfast for my entire family, a gift my mom appreciated very much because she got to sleep in and not have to make breakfast. :) Then Gabriel gave her two flowers that he had been growing in his school classroom for a few weeks. :) After Dad dropped Kuya off at work, he, Mom, Gabe, and I went to Bed Bath & Beyond to get some new sheets and such for my parents' new bed. Afterwards, we went to Barnes & Noble then picked Kuya back up from work. Then we drove along the strip and ate dinner at a Thai restaurant. On the way home, my mom wanted to drop by the Rio to see what's inside (since we never have before), so we did. We got home around 10:30 PM. ![]() As for today, it was so hard not to fall asleep in any of my classes. Last night I got about an hour and a half's worth of sleep. ![]() ![]() I still have french homework, blah. So I gtg do that then it's off to bed with a book. Then sleep. ![]() G'night cB peeps. Sarah Joy |
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#127
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Dear cB Diary,
My life is a total roller coaster ride. It's great one minute with rainbows & ponies then the next it's tears & clouds. Currently, it's rainbows & ponies. But it won't last long... as usual. - Me <3. |
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#128
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Dear cB diary,
Today turned out a lot better after school. Adrian and I were walking to my car and he was going to bus home, but then jokingly he was saying "K, I'm going to your house now," as he went to sit in my car and I was like "Want me to call to ask if you can?", kinda jokingly but he said okay and so we both made calls to the parentals and they actually said yes because we had nothing to do tonight. It was so exciting. It was a wonderful day. A bit naughty and clean fun happened, ![]() ![]() |
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#129
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![]() What the fack. ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Group: Official Member Posts: 6,164 Joined: Mar 2004 Member No: 8,519 ![]() |
Dear createBlog Diary,
I think I'm going to break up with him. In fact, I'm pretty sure I am. Yesterday I talked to Stephanie and Nisha about this, and I told them my reasons as to why I'm considering ending this six-month-and-a-half-long relationship. They say I shouldn't feel obligated to stay with him just because he sends hints that he doesn't want to break up, if I don't want to be in the relationship anymore myself. And so..I guess I'm kind of just figuring out how I'm going to do this. I hate how he promised me he wouldn't say a thing, except to two of his closest friends. Originally, I had no problem with this idea. I know his close friends, I was fine with it. But in the end, it results in him blabbing and bragging about it to all of his friends, some who still attend my HS, and a lot of people I don't know. Wtheck? I also hate how I'm lying to my dad. Especially having my family lie to my dad. I'm tired of being something I'm not in his eyes. I knew eventually I'd have to break one of the ties, and it's definitely not going to be with anyone in my family. ![]() ... So I guess that's it. I'm going to end it with him. Just, how exactly am I going to do that..? ![]() Sarah Joy |
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#130
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Dear cB Diary,
Life f**king sucks today & just about everyday. So glad it's almost the weekend. God, I can't f**king stand them. Stranger: "What do you want to be when you grow up?" Me: "Whitney Houston." Stranger: "So you want to be a singer?" Me: "No, a drug addict." Stranger: "Oh..." - Me <3. |
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#131
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![]() Senior Member ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Group: Member Posts: 195 Joined: Aug 2005 Member No: 212,369 ![]() |
Dear cB Diary,
Yesterday was Early dismissal, so a bunch of us went to the park, played tennis and went to the lake. I invited this one guy to come and my boyfriend also came with us. I think I like that one guy. The highlight of that day was him giving me that one hug before he left with his "fan" club of girls. I don't know .. is it jsut me or what because i feel like we like each other, because he notices when i'm sad or w/e and cares. But then again, he flirts with a lot of other girls. So i don't know ... it really hurts a lot of the time, but i should be getting used to the hurt by now. I give up .. damn it .. I feel like my boyfriend is starting to worry that i might leave him. But I won't do that, unless he does. Because i`ll never want to break his heart, he's done a lot to put a smile on my face. Anyways today was really tiring .. i had a headache through out school .. and it really put me down. I didn't get to see that guy today.. I shouldn't care right? I mean i should be worrying about not seeing my boyfriend. But i always see him .. I was sad .. i kept hoping to bump into that guy but it never happened .. But i saw him after school for like 30 seconds before i left .. My boyfriend was there <33 The moments are gettin akward ... and i hate it soo much ... f**k im tired of trying ... |
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#132
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![]() j'adore =) ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Group: Member Posts: 723 Joined: Mar 2005 Member No: 107,848 ![]() |
i honestly don't know what to do with myself. i can't stop thinking about him, even though we haven't dated in months. and i don't think i really want to date the other him anymore which sucks cuz i think he's finally starting to come around. whyy...why does this happen to me? i'm finally really happy and falling for someone and he changes overnight. then when i think i feel it for someone else he takes too friggen long so i stop liking him and now he gets upset when i don't want to act all 'couple' like. i hate this. i don't know how to tell him cuz he's so depressed about this right now.
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#133
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![]() banangst ♥ ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Group: Member Posts: 727 Joined: Sep 2005 Member No: 237,399 ![]() |
Dear cB Diary,
What am I doing? The smallest things effect me severely, why? Hah, so it is the time of the year.. Where have my morals gone? my priorities? Can`t wait for the damn Grad Portfolio to end, better yet, the year to end. |
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#134
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![]() crushed. ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Group: Staff Alumni Posts: 9,432 Joined: Jun 2004 Member No: 20,026 ![]() |
Dear CB Diary,
It's over. High school is over. Four years of old friends, new friends, smiles, hugs, laughter, familiarity, drama, tears, stress, and IB are...over. Wow. But now what? I have a bittersweet feeling. I've always loved that word. I'm so excited to be done with this huge chapter of my life, but I'm so scared. I have no idea what I'm going to do without my best friends and the best teachers. I have no idea. Today was fun :) Yearbook signing at Christina's was a great time. Playing basketball was also fun, even though I didn't do much! Haha. Then, I got a little primped for prom. Which is tomorrow. How bizarre. I've looked at so many magazines ever since the beginning of middle school and always wondered what I would do when the day came. And it's finally here. I'm so ready to have fun with my best friends. Both during the dance and after. I have the best friends anyone could ever have. I love them so much, I wish I could show it more. This summer should be good. |
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#135
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Kaitlyn,
![]() ![]() Dear cB diary, Sigh. I miss him so much. I really do. I've been thinking about him pretty much all day...I almost cried, but I didn't. I feel so...I don't know. A little like a fool...its only a few days and all but I can't help it. Augh. Its stupid. This weekend has been good so far nevertheless...hope that it continues like that. |
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#136
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dear cb diary,
if i f**king puke one more f**king time i'm gonna go f**king crazy i thought my f**king stomach virus was f**king over and done for what the hell?! i don't want f**king relapse. this hurts like motherf**king HELL okay and you know what else is great? me getting my effing period. whatthe hell?! CRAMPS to add to this f**king hellhole?! omfg. i am so sick of this. ahhh and more stress to add because of damned finals?! the next three days is gonna be the worst days of my life. i know it damnit |
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#137
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![]() i've never wanted anything rationale. ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Group: Staff Alumni Posts: 8,449 Joined: May 2004 Member No: 19,045 ![]() |
i can't do this anymore. i can't keep putting myself out there for him just to crush me. i can't cry over it. i don't even want to be with him, i just want to be friends. Us not being friends made everything worse, actually us just not being together did. i feel like anyone who was my friend has suddenly disappeared. they "never liked me anyway" according to him. i wonder if it's true, if they all never liked me...i hate that i question some peoples friendship. i can't wait to get out of here. i need to get away from him and all the baggage that i carry around with him. i do love him and care about him, but i don't think i can do this.
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#138
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Dear cB Diary,
I am starting to think all my friends are f**king fakes. I am sick of all this drama. It's like I am only there in a time of need. Even the friends I though that would be beside me through anything are slowly disappearing. God, even Alex is slowly disappearing & not speaking to me. Stupid bitches. I can't stand this anymore. I need a life-makeover. - Me <3. |
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#139
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Dear Createblog Diary,
I do not enjoy getting yelled at or being lectured by my teacher telling me that I didn't work hard enough this semester- especially since I worked my f**king ass off in biology. f**k that, "i didn't work hard enough". i worked f**king HARD for those damned projects and wasted weekends just for them. uhg. Meh. So, I really don't feel like studying for the math final. I do not enjoy sulking over the fact that summer is here in two days yet I have to take these hardass finals and am depending on them to raise up my grades. |
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#140
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![]() skaters gonna skate. ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Group: Official Member Posts: 6,861 Joined: Mar 2004 Member No: 6,336 ![]() |
Dear CB Diary,
13 more full days of school. Can you believe that? .. Damn. I swear this year FLEW. I don't even remember doing things that I know I did. |
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#141
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Dear cB Diary,
Woot, back to school tomorrow, four days of bitchy drama ![]() There still like a month of school. I am so f**king glad that I will be leaving this school. I am sick of these teachers assuming sh*t about me when they know nothing. Actually I am sick of everyone at my school except a few people. Everyone tends to assume sh*t about me even when they know nothing true about me. - Me <3. |
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#142
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![]() What the fack. ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Group: Official Member Posts: 6,164 Joined: Mar 2004 Member No: 8,519 ![]() |
Dear createBlog Diary,
It's official. Sarah is single. After a seventh-month-and-a-day relationship, Sarah is single. But no worries, I wanted it this way. I have no regrets, in being in the relationship, and ending it. He took it much better than what I had expected. Although, I wasn't quite sure what to expect. It's over now.. It feels weird, if I can even really "feel" this. In the end, it wasn't all it was cracked up to be. I just..wanted more. Something with more substance. Something I can call "my everything". Something..real. (How corny, lol.) ![]() Yeah, but I'm not looking. We'll see how this goes. Sarah Joy ![]() |
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#143
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1 more day and I'm out of this place.
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*Intoxique* |
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#144
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Dear cB Diary,
It makes me sad that everyone gets school out in a day, couple of days or a week & my school goes out in - a month. Yes, a month of hell still to go through. Okay, eventually everyone is going to be on the "Fake" list. Meanwhile lets just add Cody on it. That f**king bastard. God, I am so f**king glad I won't be see him next year. I trusted him as a friend & - just, all I have to say is... f**k YOU. 3 f**king of drama till weekend. Woot woot, amuse me. - Me <3. |
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#145
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Dear Createblog Diary,
I'm slightly in a good mood :) So I'm not sure if last night's studying paid off, but the math final wasn't as hard as I expected it to be. Of course, there was a lot of guessing, but they were good guesses, haha. Anyway, more importantly, I fell in love with all the old soap operas again. Hahaha. It's a little pathetic that that's important to me, but hey, I don't really have much else to be obsessed with. Anyway, God, 煙火的季節 has got to be the sweetest song EVER. If a guy ever sang that to me while watching fireworks....I think I'd just about die. But of course that'll never happen haha. Here I go again, being the pathetic hopeless romantic I am... Mmm. So, I have a feeling the biology exam will kill me tomorrow. I don't have my fcking book because the librarians are damned idiots, and yeah. I should probably start studying now-- because obviously the study time at Alex's didn't work out too well. I'm so excited. After school tomorrow, Ippolito's with a couple of friends...then forum shopping for her gift. Then two days of relaxation [or hanging out..] and...THE WEEKEND! I'm so excitedddd for the sleepover thing. Oh boy. I have a feeling this summer will be off to a good start. Y'know, who's to say that I don't deserve this slight happiness, eh? Ever since the beginning of August, I've suffered through the damned bullshit of school. It's about f**king time I'm out of here. What has this year represented? Almost everything. I wonder how much I've changed since the beginning of the year. It's kind of strange to think that I actually pulled off not having ANY drama this year. Not even small drama or arguments. Nothing. That's pretty much fcking amazing. I guess it's good that I'm not a dramatic person, haha. It makes me laugh when in 7th grade we all fought...oh man. I'm glad I'm over that stage. It's good to sit back and enjoy the fact that you don't have to deal with all the drama that most others have to deal with. Of course, by this type of drama....I mean school drama. I had a hell of a lot of f**king family drama which was fcking terrible. I'd trade family drama for school drama anyway.... Gah, whatever. I'll finish this entry later. I've got an exam to study for. |
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#146
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![]() hi. call me linda. ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Group: Official Member Posts: 8,187 Joined: Feb 2004 Member No: 3,475 ![]() |
Dear CB Diary,
I've been so disappointed recently. 2 seconds. That's how I define my life now. Just a bunch of missed moments that, had I been 2 seconds faster, everything would be better. 2 tiny freaking seconds. 1, 2. Sigh, I know this will forever hang over my head. Every time something goes wrong, everytime I miss something, I'll just keep repeating, "2 seconds." Just 2 little seconds. Take today for example. Had I been 2 seconds faster, I would have seen him, talked to him. The story of my life. 2 seconds. |
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#147
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![]() Jus Sweet Chocolate ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Group: Member Posts: 739 Joined: Aug 2005 Member No: 216,959 ![]() |
baby, if your reading this i want you to kno that its killin me that we cant hold and love eachother like we want too. Everyday i think about me and you being together and how good it would be. Honestly you really dont kno how much i love you and how bad i want us to be together. I cant express it in words and its even harder to express it when we dont get to see eachother. I kno that some days we dont talk and it feels like were becoming distant but i want you to kno that i havent forgotten about you and that i think about you every second of the day. I've never felt this way before...atleast i dont remember, but its a Great feeling that you give me and i dont want you to stop making me feel this way. But the last thing i want you to kno is that I Love you and when that day comes for us to be together i will never let you Go. I'll never do anything to hurt or upset you. You'll always be my baby, my superman, my best friend, my soulmate, my life, my lover, my Angel.....I'll ALWAYS Love You baby
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#148
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Dear cB Diary,
I f**king hate a lot of people right now. I wish they would just shut the f**k up & die. God, f**king annoying. I am sick of everyone & everything in my life. - Me <3. |
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#149
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Dear cB diary,
I don't know whats up with me right now...I feel like I shouldn't feel like this, but I can't help that...he has so much more power over me than he realizes. The tiniest thing can make or break my day. I don't get it...augh. That mere fact just made my day worse...I don't know. It's stupid and something I have to get over but its so hard sometimes...I really hope Friday and Saturday turn out like they're supposed to and that I can make his birthday memorable... ![]() |
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#150
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Dear Createblog Diary,
YAY FOR HUMOR! and yay for sarcasm. and yay for...summer. gah. i feel like such a bitch sometimes. but i don't want to think about that right now. lalalal moving units is good. |
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