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I've been looking for "love" in all the wrong places for the past two years. Honestly, I don't even believe in it anymore. But one guy is always coming up in my mind and he happens to be my bestfriend. He has a girlfriend right now but they're doing reeallly baad. & The only reason why they haven't broken up yet is because I told his girlfriend to just wait it out, so she wouldn't be letting go too early with any feelings still attached. But now I'm starting to wish I told her to dump him. Because I think I'm falling for him for the fourth time. It's amazing to me how our relationship just gets stronger. Usually, once I get over someone, it's for good. But with him it never dies. None of my friends understand why we never got together & now I don't either. We just click like that, you know? He's so huge in my life & I'm just begining to realize how important he really is to me. We only have a few more months until I (might) move to a new school, I wanna try a relationship so much, but the bond me & his girl have recently established holds me back. Note: Before they went out me & him were close to becoming exclusive. & Another problem is his friend & I have been getting closer too & I like him as well. I hate how I like them both & I might ruin everything.
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Sorry this is long. Just a warning: Please do not judge me publicly or say something you know will offend me.