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[DenialofReality]

I'm new at this createblog, but I just needed some space where I can just pour out my feelings with out having anyone close to me find out, everyone I know is nosey =/.

I woke up today not feeling anything but sad. The dream i had last night was anything but ordinary, just having your close one taking the person you like away from you.

Well here it is, I like my cousin's "bestfriend." He's the one i'd fiend for right now, because i feel like i'm infatuated, that i'd drop everything on the floor if he wanted a hug from me. (Not obssessed, infatuated.) But right now i feel she might like him too ;>.> and in my head i say "OH C'MON YOU GOT SOMEONE!" Its clearly stated i want her best friend. Lately since she found out i like him and he likes her, she's been bragging about how many people she made jealous by hugging him. and its ticking me off! I am trying to be the bigger person and let it go, but at times i just wanna tackle her off a cliff and drown her in water. , hopefully only imagining that will satisfy mee n__n;.

I can't talk to her, because it makes the scenario worse. I be patient and she just nods her head, and i feel like the words that come out my mouth go through her right ear and come out the left.

just needed somewhere to post this.