Heartbroken, ever felt it? Options

[xjjajeengx]

well, i've been heartbroken before. actually, many times. but, i think 've broken hearts more than i've been hurt... and i regret being like that.

But, i guess i just aint the type of girl who can handle a guy thass always like "I'm hurting dang why cant you see, b!tch?" its like dang. I guess im really selfish and a b!tch and im just like... so dominant... but I dont let down my gaurd. I've broken a heart recently, but it's been painful for me... i guess i couldnt take the unbalance between friends and guy... so i had no choice but to take a break from him. I told him i needed time to get this balance correct and to mend the hurts between my friends and me, and he said okay. Then, he kept pushing the fact that we have to get back together so much. When i needed time alone, he wouldnt give it to me. every second of my whole damn alone time was intruded by his presence. Every time i was away, he would load my away message with like 937649327493274 billlion IMs. i couldnt handle it. While he was telling me that he missed me and crap, i was crying cause he wouldnt leave me alone. i guess after a while, he gpt the point that i needed time, but he chose to move on and start to flirt with gurls that he OBVIOUSLy knows i hate. and so i began to dislike him and become distant. And just yesterday, he IMed me and got all nosy into my personal affairs with my friends and crap, and he accused me of ignoring him and crap, so i yelled aat him, and he yelled back. We usually never yelled at each other, and i felt guilty and said sorry. And just cause i said sorry, he IMs me back saying a sorry. honestly, i cant take it anymore and i just still need time i guess... but not time to watch him flirt with the same gurls that i hate. and not to mention, i dont think we'll ever be the same again. So bleh. f**k this, relationships are a pain in the @$$. you ahve your lovely dovey time, and it fades. You dump, get a new one. same process over and over again. this is SH!T i tell you. and it hurts to. the One guy i htought i could spend time with truly in "love" was the ONe and ONLY guy that really broke my heart to the fullest. I've been hurt, but never like this. Never to the point where i acnt say anything to him cause im shocked at what he tells me. He constantly IMs me and yells at me or assumes i dont care and just f**king makes me so mad and annoyed, but i cant show that im hurt. This is why someone who is a independent girl cant date withont lossing her head. and i've learned my lesson now.

sorry. i guess my story isnt the sad omg kinda story. its a b!tchy one.

[islandkiss]

constantly.. w/ my f**king bf.. he's so.. er.. I know.. you're probably thinking why am I still going out with him?.. well.. I'm asking my self the same thing everyday..

[illushun_eyez]

thnx man. yea i hope tingz go gud btw me n mai bf. wellz, n fo u when that person comez hold on tight. hehe... sry if it soundz corny. haha. wellz, g2g. thnx again.

[kantoaznboi]

constantly.. w/ my f**king bf.. he's so.. er.. I know.. you're probably thinking why am I still going out with him?.. well.. I'm asking my self the same thing everyday..

honestly, u should break it off, cause if he causes u that much pain, he doesnt really care for u. if he truely luved u then he wouldnt be constantly hurtting u. but ehh its just my opinion

[kantoaznboi]

ur pretty illushun_eyez

lol

i'll shut up now

[MissBunni]

=\ yea i know the pain...it hurts..a LOT it kinda feels like...someone punched you in the stomach...or someone just comes up behind you and stabs you a billion times. sometimes i feel as if like...i don't know...it's a feeling that hurts to much to know the real meaning. =[ but remember....if she breaks up with you...she's not worth it. she doesn't know what she's missing out on. and trust me...i've been a fool for far to long

[shawty_redd]

i think i have felt it but now that i look back im not sure no more

[kantoaznboi]

=\ yea i know the pain...it hurts..a LOT it kinda feels like...someone punched you in the stomach...or someone just comes up behind you and stabs you a billion times. sometimes i feel as if like...i don't know...it's a feeling that hurts to much to know the real meaning. =[ but remember....if she breaks up with you...she's not worth it. she doesn't know what she's missing out on. and trust me...i've been a fool for far to long

exactly, dats how i feel. yea tru. but its hard 2 get over her. ya kno?

y do u say u been a fool 4 2 long?

and dang, ur pretty, lol sorry , i'll shut up now.

[ichiban]

MY STORY. I've posted this up a couple of times before, but you all can read it just fer.. entertainment i guess .. sort of long .. so dont bore yourself

Okay, so I become BEST FRIENDS with this guy .. Jason .. two years ago .. that year .. we did EVERYTHING together .. i always hung out with him at lunch .. we played sports together .. close as can be .. after a few mothes .. i realized ..i loved him .. i couldnt stand being one second away from him .. i was really young back then .. but i knew what i felt ..
And then it was summer break .. nothing much happened.. he went away and i never talked to him durin summer .. but school started again and everythin was cool .. my feelings for him increased .. still hung out with all the time .. then during .. May i think .. he told me his feelings for me .. he had really loved me .. but .. i was too young .. so STUPID .. i regret it soo much .. i didnt tell him my feelings fer him .. so it was like that .. he didnt know the fact that i loved him .. i finally decided i would tell him .. it was the end-of-the-year party .. and my friend sara tld me, Jason doesn't like you anymore .. and i was like .. .. i was just about to tell him and i had to know THAT .. sara never lies .. so i knew she was tellin the truth .. and you know what? I had a strong feeling Jason liked sara .. and i was so hurt .. so full of regret .. durin the party, he kept on flirtin with her .. and practically ignored me .. omg me and him were supposed to be BEST FRIENDS .. and .. it was like, i never knew him .. so i ended the year horribly.. summer vacation .. that vacation i thought that maybe next year everything would change .. a new start .. Jason and I would be close again and just chill .. so the school year began again .. middle school .. the first day .. i saw him with a group of guys .. he didnt notice me .. and somehow i didnt have the courage to walk up to him and say hi .. i thought that he didn't want to be around me anymore .. so i thought, hmm maybe tomorrow? the next day i didn't see him around at all .. so it went like that for a week .. we didn't talk, say hi, or anything .. i was so sad .. i knew it was probably my fault fer not telling him my feelings in the first place ..a month passed .. still, we didnt talk or anything .. we chatted online a little, but it was so different than before .. i remember he used to IM me to just mess with me .. distract me from my homewerk a little and just make me laugh .. and now it was like, "hi, hi, sup? nothing .. *silence*.." .. i couldnt BELIEVE IT .. everything was so different .. i still had feelings for him .. i dreamed about him almost every night .. dreamed that we were just hangin out .. like before .. i cried about it a few times ... i kept on thinking of those times we had together .. everything was gone now.
So it was now November..i was talkin to sara online .. and she IMed me and said, "is jason on?!" he wasnt .. so i asked her, "why?" .. she said, "dont tell anyone, but i really really like him and i found out he likes me alot too!" *silence* .. my heart was BROKEN .. well sara and jason never were bf and gf .. because soon sara didnt like him anymore .. jason began liking someone else .. ERICA .. i still barely talked to him .. once or twice i played basketball with him .. but it wasn't the same .. well jason got with erica .. but i didnt know that yet .. then my friends and i were hangin out with erica .. and she showd me this keychain, and was sayin, "jason gave this to me!" once again .. i was heartbroken .. i had thought that maybe jason and i could have been CLOSE again .. become best friends again .. or somethin .. i still IMed him every once in a while .. just to say hi .. finally, one day i just told him, "You know how you told me you liked me along time ago? well .. at that time .. i had really really loved you too .. i just never told you .." .. and jason replied, "oh .. i dont care now" .
ever since then .. we never talked .. never said hi .. never acted like we knew the other existed...
It took me well over half a year to get over him .. because now i dont give a damn about him anymore .. because he's changed even more now .. hes just like some gangster now ..

wow that was long. have fun reading!

[HaNeul-ye]

i've been broken-hearted before;actually even now. everytime we get into an argument,it's so bad. it breaks my heart into a million pieces. you know the feeling; feels like i've been stabbed in the heart and shot by a shotgun. i guess it really hurts that much depending on how much you love that person rite? but still, i love him. and i know i hurt him that much also... i guess you could say we both share the pain. i feel really bad when i make him cry...so i shed tears too.