should i give up? =\, not meant to be? Options

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well this is kind of complicated and theres a lot of guys involved in it? here goes..

i've been liking this guy for a long time..but the thing is i dont even know him.. it was like love at first sight.. maybe not as strong as love but more than just liking him. during the summer my best friend and i would aLways go to the arcade and i would see him there everytime.. i started falling for him more and more.. he would always smile at me.. and he had the cutest smile ever thinking of it just makes me wanna smile. after sometime it seemed more and more like he liked me and i felt so stupid for not noticing earlier..sometimes i would be looking somewhere and my best friend would tell me he was secretly glancing at me,he would always try to get my attention and many other things. i guesss we were both too shy to say anything to each other. he seemed sooo sweeet..i know he told his friends about me bcuz sometimes it would seem like they were eavesdropping on me and one time i was waiting in the arcade for a friend wen i saw a bunch of his friends standing there staring at me.. i heard one of his friends say "thats her".i told myself everytime that i would go and talk to him but i never had the courage to. one time i went with i guy friend and i think he mistakened my guy friend for my bf =( as we left i looked back n i saw him looking at me sadly and it made me feel horrible.. i made a few other stupid mistakes i regret as well.. soon summer came to an end and school started.. i kept going in hopes of seeing him again but i didnt. i had fallen for him sooo much by then.. everytime i thought of him my heart would ache.. i hated that feeling.. and sumtimes i would cry.. i thought of him everyday and prayed to see him again. it something Very different for me since im not the type that falls in love that easily.. love at first sight. rarely happens but i believe it can.

So after weeks i FINALLY see him again..but something always goes wrong.. something always keeps us apart and i ended up making another stupid mistake..then a few weeks after that i saw him again.. but my friend messed it up for me and i ended up crying in front of her.. then she said to me " now i know how much you like him..." So now its been around 2 months.. last night i prayed that he would show up Today and you know wat? he did.. but i wasnt there. when i was on my way home, my friend called me and she told me she had seen him walk by.. she tried to turn around and look for him but he wasnt there.. why is it that im so unlucky? are we just not meant to be?

i dont know if i should just keep waiting or not.. i mean its been a long time but i was thinking i should wait till Valentines day to give up.. but i dont know anymore.. because im giving up for much just for him.. so many chances..

This guy named nick.. hes the sweetest guy i've ever met.. i know hes not shallow or anything because he took the time to get to know me.. He always called me beautiful and i told him about this guy from the arcade i liked and he was fine with it.. he would always ask me things like "do u think we could ever be together?" "Wat if i asked u out?" and i felt so bad about it.. i told him i needed sometime.. and he would say "okay i'lll wait for you.. but u have to tell me no matter wat and dont be afraid to hurt me". He would talk to me a lot of msn but he was way to shy to talk to me in real life (aww shy guys are so cute). now.. i think hes given up on me .. i broke his heart he didnt tell me but i know because of his names " i know i can never have you" "why is there a cure for sickness but not a broken heart?" he knew how much i liked that guy.

Karsen- i dont ever want to date him but i need advice on wat to do.. friends tell me hes only using me as a rebound bcuz his ex broke up with him a week ago. he just wont leave me alone! wenever im not on he emails me saying" i miss you" blah blah blah.. He acts all nice and stuff but hes a real JERK! he always calls me baby and i hate it. what should i do to make him leave me alone?

theres a few others that have liked me and i feel so bad becaue their so sweet.. like i Want to give them a chance but i just cant.. because *HE* is the one i love most.. and im giving it all up for him..

so what should i do? give up or just keep trying =\.. I wonder if hes even worth it.. I THink he is.. i just hope hes who i imagine him to be..