"Life Changing Experience", what changed you? Options

[klumzy]

still waiting patiently for my life changing experience ^^

[cLinT_wEStw0oD]

My computer changed my life. I don't know how to explain it but it did. Changed my personality, grades, alot of shit. I guess I'm obsessed with it. I don't know.

Something else that changed me was school. I used to try to be the good guy, you know? But now it's changed. I almost got jumped once. Now I demand respect from other people, just so they don't try any shit on me. I joined the latin kings for backup whenever I need it, now I'm cold on the inside. I don't feel anything as warm as I should. I guess I'm just learning life out there. Outside of home. Oh well...at least I'm getting somewhere. Don't know where...but it's somwhere.

[*not_your_average*]

hmm. a life changing experience?

well, when i was around eight or so, my parents were having a hard time with their marriage. i'd rather not saay why, but there was another person involved that almost compelled them to divorce. i was only a little kid, so i didn't know what was going on or why. once i found out, i was devastated. i grew to hate the person who was tearing my parents apart. one day, i met him at an ihop, and my attitude about him changed. but i still was angry at him for threatening my parents' marriage. my parents wouldn't stop fighting, and i would cry myself to sleep each night because i was so scared that my parents were going to divorce.

luckily though, my parents are still together, and i'm thankful for it everyday. they still have their fights, but their relationship is stronger than ever. this has made our entire family much closer.

the experience taught me that no matter what, you have to stick with those you love. you can't run away from your problems, and you have to face them head-on. i also realized that my parents are only human, and as strong as they are, they're not superheroes. i've come to respect them more because of it.

[ecargnmyst]

hey its a very good thing your not gonna be like your dad..props for that...and also very good how u stand up for ur mom...u must love her very much

as for me....i reeeally do wanna love my mom b/c i feel so srry for her...but my hate for her kinda prohibits that..

ook so.. my dads been cheating on my mom for the past 17 yrs (i just turned 17...sbeen happening when my mom was pregnant with me) he has a 15/16 yr old son with that woman...hes been physically and mentally abusing my mom...more mental abuse tho..sooo..well hes done alloottt of other stuff...still hazy on a bunch..but from what i overheard in the arguements...he had a girlfriend who he got pregnant ..took her money and ran off...then he had another wife who he did the same thing to...and now my mom his 3rd "victim" cept my mom wouldnt let him run off w/ her money..so here they still are..unhappily..

so of course...him being such an a-hole...not providing for us..never being home...cheating...all that stuff drove my mom crazy..so right now im living with a mom whos been blinded by hatred and paranoia....her actions r unreasonable and she takes out her pain on me..that is why im unable to love her altho i feel very srry for her...but she is so close to killing me..and has..on several occasions almost killed me...choking me..smothering me...trying to stab me w/ scissors/pencils ..id go further into detail but i dont want to depress anyone here..lol..i wrote about it in my college essay and my english teacher thought i needed counseling =\ b/c my writing was so darkk ><

but this has been a life changing experience..well not life changing b/c i was born INTO it..but it certainly has affected the way ive grown up..and altho there were time ive thought of dying (even tho amazingly i dont do drugs or cut myself or anything =]....and amazingly i look/act like a happy perky girl O.o) i have to really appreciate and thank everything that happened to me..to make who i am today..b/c all the dark emotions inside of me only motivated me to write more and express myself in more creative ways..and im very thankful for that

i grew to hate the person who was tearing my parents apart.

=\ my moms always yelling at me for not standing up for her and not hating that other woman ... but how can i stand up for her and fight for her...if shes treated me so badly? even tho its not really her fault..but i grew up seeing her as more of an enemy...and how can i hate that other woman if there was no happy family in the first place to miss? iono..i think my reasoning makes sense..no?

[omgah_itsmaggiex]

mine would definitely have to be my mom dying in 1999. i was 9 and for some reason, i think it was meant to happen. she wasnt happy with her life or her family, so she killed herself. it feels so weird, because i have no mother..and if she did come back, it would feel so weird to have 3 people in a family instead of 2. its taught me so many things about my dad. people may think its weird; to not have a woman figure in my life, but its not. if she hadnt pass, my dad and i wouldnt be as strong as we are now.

edit//wow, i said weird a lot. haha

[De112]

clint_westwood -- you were getting better with grades...don't let that stuff get to you. Life isn't perfect, someone gets hurt whether it be physical or emotional, but 2 wrongs don't make it right. Don't DEMAND respect, show it some other way. Like me, I show it on the football field. That's how I get my respect. Or show it in humor. Personality. You don't need gangs for backup man...I've had people in my family die from whack crap like that. Why? For no reason. It's not worth it man...and I mean that.

[De112]

mine would definitely have to be my mom dying in 1999. i was 9 and for some reason, i think it was meant to happen. she wasnt happy with her life or her family, so she killed herself. it feels so weird, because i have no mother..and if she did come back, it would feel so weird to have 3 people in a family instead of 2. its taught me so many things about my dad. people may think its weird; to not have a woman figure in my life, but its not. if she hadnt pass, my dad and i wouldnt be as strong as we are now.

Wow, I was taught that everything DOES always happen for a reason...It's the same thing with me, although my Dad isn't dead, he doesn't talk to me. So it's just me and my mom...But it's alright because it taught me that I would do anything for my mom. The priorities of my life are Jesus, and my mom, and sister.
I've also had my other sister die, but she had a hole in her heart...I understand where you are coming from, and it's great to know that you went through it and looked to the better side.

May I get your name? maggie is it?