Endless Wishes, so many wishes Options

[*torngemini*]

ENDLESS WISHES
12/08/05

I wish I could hear a promise that is kept with meaning
And feel a love that is willing to stay.
I wish I could not dwell on a memory that brings so much pain
But hold it in my heands with no tears.
I wish I could believe there are better things close at hand,
That mortality doesn't always have a reign over time.
I wish I Had something that would bring me to my knees,
Like an old love that made me surrender my soul as it left on a plane.
I wish I could stop having meaningless relationships,
The overpowering fear leaves me empty and selfish as they end so quickly.
I wish I wasn't so afraid of love,
And accept that some things are always out of our hands.
I wish solid ground didn't make me feel a sudden pain,
Being grounded gives me sight to a reality that I don't want to know just yet.
I wish I didn't have to say goodbye to the way I hoped my life would be,
For the feeling of control is lost to a path gone astray.
I wish I could understand the idea of God standing over me,
And feel guilt in forsaking Him and his devotion to his children.
I wish the songs of life didn't make so much sense,
I would not mind being in a satisfied confusion.
I wish the past wasn't so haunting,
A troubled mind wouldn't have to repress itself and be so bounded.
I wish time could stand still sometimes,
Maybe wounds would have a chance to heal themselves that way.
I wish there was such a thing as holding on,
Hope seems so pointless when death is inevitable.
I wish I could find comfort in the present light,
As life goes on with or without the dreams I used to have.
I wish the good I deserve would finally come my way,
As I stand here with a strong composure knowing someday it will fade.
I wish I could keep this almost painted smile,
As I try to wait for patience to arrive with open arms and be a friend.
Endless wishes to a girl that needs to be moved and proven wrong.

Endless wishes is all I know,

Endless wishes is all I have left.