message to anyone, v. 14 Options

[*stephinika*]

today was fun. i liked spending time with you. really.

you're annoying. and kinda stupid. but not as bad other people.

[SillyCourtney]

___: DOUBLE REEDS! "I don't look down there..." Wow, I love you. We have the best inside jokes.

___: Seeing you tomorrow makes me excited.

___: Please look over my essay so I know which paragraph to turn in. I really have no idea.

[ANG33ZY]

f**king stupid. stop bitching to me about the drama that's going on between your friends because when you told me what went down/caused the drama i come to the conclusion that it's your f**king fault cause you keep running your damn mouth. i hate drama don't bring that shit to me. i'm so f**king pissed off cause it's you.. and i know you're capable of being able to handle this kind of shit in a mature manner but really you're handling it in an immature way right now. the girl got a problem, leave her the f**k alone -- it's no use. if that shit happened to me i would straight up leave that girl alone cause i know i'm just wasting my time.

have a nice day

[silver-rain]

Aww, what you told me was just so sweet and brought me to tears. I really cannot wait for us to grow old together, get married, etc. That scenario you described: I can really see it happening if the situation was true. I love you so much, and I can't possibly see how just a couple of days ago we were on the verge of a break. You are my only one, and I am so grateful to have you in my life. I can only hope to make you feel loved, to feel that vision of love you have. I saved that conversation we had because it makes me so happy just reading it again. I love you so so much <3. I promise (and I really will try to carry it out) not to get angry/mad over stupid trivial things and to constantly remind myself how much you love me. And, just reading that made me realize that you are a romantic, and made me hopeful for the future <3. I have all the conversations saved where something you said made me feel so happy. I truly love you.

[SimplicityGirl]

could've been, would've been, should've been an awesome ONE YEAR with you on October 26...but ... well...no use looking back at the past..at what could've been...

And do you even remember what Nov 12 is...i can't believe it's been one year since we broke up...and you still won't notice me...maybe we really weren't meant to be ...=(

[Retrogressive]

You self-centered coward. I hate you, do whatever you like. Do you realize how much I've risked and lost for you?

I DIDN'T THINK SO.

I'm so f**king tired of you, so go if you want. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!




You really make me hate everything.

[*lolita kitty*]

________, ___, ___, _____, ______, _______, and ______,
sometimes i wish i could print out my cb diary entrys, shove them in your face, burn them, print out more copys, highlight all the parts about you people, and then force you to read them over and over until you get it.

i hate myself

[xTINAA]

Dear You,
I try to wait it out. Be patient and have you come to me. I try that route and it doesn't work and it doesn't get me anywhere. Then, I try to talk to you. I try to initiate things, get them going. That route doesn't work or get me anywhere either. What am I supposed to do then?

Am I supposed to just sit here and cry? Sit here and pray for you and hope that something changes? That's all that it seems I can do. And I don't want to because I don't like waiting. I'm sorry. I'm not patient. I want results now. I want you to come back now. I need you now.

I don't get it. Why don't you see it? How come I'm trying so hard and you're not trying at all? Do you honestly think that just ignoring me or not initiating anything is going to make me stop loving you? Make me move on? I already told you, it won't. Nothing you can do will make those things happen, nothing.

Why is this so hard to grasp? I'm here for you. I love you. I miss you. You know this. I told you it won't change. I could never hate you, never stay angry with you. Does that not matter? I just don't understand. Why don't you feel it back? Why? At one point in time it really did seem like you did.

You couldn't have been faking it. I don't want to believe that you were faking it, I can't believe that. In my heart I know it's not true. I know everything between us was real. I know it. Why don't you? Or rather, are you just not accepting it? Do you not want this? If so, then why not? I don't get it.

I think you just aren't ready and please understand that I understand that. I know everything about you, how you act, think, feel. You said so yourself. I think you're too immature right now for a really serious relationship but I don't have to have a serious relationship with you at the moment. I just want a relationship with you. If you love me like you say you do, then why is that so hard?

You say so many things but the way you act is so different. Please. I'm dying here because of this. You say you love me, you say you always will, then you say you don't know how you feel about me, but you'll never forget me, that I'll always be in your heart, that we can't be friends, but we can't be together. It doesn't add up. It drives me crazy. It hurts. It all hurts.

I'm not stupid. In fact, I'm quite intelligent and I don't mean that in a cocky way. I think about things, a lot of things that probably a normal girl my age doesn't. I overthink too. I know I'm young. I've heard all the statistics. I know we're going to college next year. I know you want to go to Washington and move away. I know love is complicated. I'm not stupid. I know those things. But what I also know is how I feel. I know I love you. I know that I said before that I didn't think people our age could love someone else, could comprehend it. But guess what? You changed that. I'm not stupid, I know these things. I know that ten years from now if we're not together, not even in touch with each other, I'll still love you. I'll still miss you and long for you. I know that. I know it might be hard for you to grasp but it's true.

I'm really tired of always crying, always feeling sad, always being bummed, always waiting on you, always praying for you, always falling asleep thinking about you, always being reminded of you, always dreaming about you, always picturing you, always wondering about you, always complaining, always writing these damn messages to you.

I wonder if you actually read them if it would change anything. If you would see that I started writing in here almost daily ever since I met you. That you would maybe see the love, pain, joy, hurt and everything through these messages. Or maybe you'd just read them and think that I'm crazy and pathetic.

It hurts. It all just hurts. I don't know what to do and I'm falling apart. Why has this got to be so hard? Why don't you understand or why aren't you accepting it or what? Please. All I'm asking is please, come back. Seriously, 'when you left I lost a part of me'.
-Me.

[*stephinika*]

fcuk you. seriously, just fcuk you. i hate you now just leave me alone. i'm fcuking sick and tired of your idiocy and bullshit. eff off.

i miss you. i wish i could see you more...it sounds greedy and selfish but i can't help it.

[topsyturvy]

[xx] -
What's going on? Why are you so cold? Are you mad at me? Did i do something to upset you? Stay mad at me but TELL ME WHAT'S WRONG. You're killing me.

[xxxx][xxx] -
Jie Jie!!

[xxxxx] -
I'll ask you about the argument tomorrow. Go Taiwan, hm?

[xxx][xx] -
When people talk about their significant other or sweetie or baby.. i think of you.
When i hear songs we used to sing together on the phone.. i think of you.
When i see the back of a brown spikey head.. i think of you.
When i smell that peculiar smell.. i think of you.
When i taste sweet happiness.. i think of you.
When i hear a deep rich voice.. i think of you.
When i see your favorite stuffed toy.. i think of you.
When i smell the smells of a busy city street.. i think of you.
When i taste the popcorn from a movie theatre.. i think of you.
When i think, i think of you.
But i also wonder why i don't miss you anymore.
Thanks for all the memories.

[xxxxx] -
Bitch, what is WRONG with you? Why do you have to go around inching people? Fine, if it's not [xxxxxxxxxx], then WHAT IS IT?
And do u haf 2 type lyke dis? Lyke, OMG, to-tal-laaayyy~
GET - A - LIFE.

[redpeony]

I loved talking for five hours and you staying on the phone with me until I fell asleep last night. I love how you were silent for 5 minutes and then you would whisper to see if I had fallen asleep yet... and at then end how you said "good night.. I love you" and then hung up so quietly. I love you, baby. =p Can't wait til Wednesday.

[xFaith]

____;
Sigh. i cant stop thinking about you. and i just know that you arent thinking of me. i can tell by the way you act towards me. if you liked me, you would definately visit me today when i was around just to say hi. i know how you are... but you didnt. Please.. dont play with me.

____;
Dont be such a bitch. you are my friend remember? When i say "stop it , its not funny anymore", just stop. Its sooo annoying!

____;
Lol so funny. your trying to make me jealous with all your "actions", but i just couldnt care less. haha.

[*tweeak*]

EVERYWHERE. So, incredibly everywhere. Stop it. Geez.

[mzbbc]

you're so addictive. i can't help it...

[Nugget]

Okay, just stop it. Stop trying to get my attention - I don't like you. You are so annoying, disgusting, and ugh. I can't stand you. Stop trying to make me like you by tripping, hitting, anything that Rob does. Just because he does it and I pay attention to him doesn't mean I'll do it to you. You're different. WAY different. Pathetic, disgusting, ugly loser. Stop trying to ruin everyone's hope to get yours. No one that you like will go out with you. I bet you never even had a girlfriend. Just saying it to look 'cool' or some shit. f**king gay-wade. Get a life.

[Rachel]

Aww, what you told me was just so sweet and brought me to tears. I really cannot wait for us to grow old together, get married, etc. That scenario you described: I can really see it happening if the situation was true. I love you so much, and I can't possibly see how just a couple of days ago we were on the verge of a break. You are my only one, and I am so grateful to have you in my life. I can only hope to make you feel loved, to feel that vision of love you have. I saved that conversation we had because it makes me so happy just reading it again. I love you so so much <3. I promise (and I really will try to carry it out) not to get angry/mad over stupid trivial things and to constantly remind myself how much you love me. And, just reading that made me realize that you are a romantic, and made me hopeful for the future <3. I have all the conversations saved where something you said made me feel so happy. I truly love you.

Can I just say a)HOW CUTE and b)Totally going thru the same thing. If you ever want a shoulder to cry on or even to bitch about how lovely our boyfriends are, send me a PM

[*stephinika*]

you're annoying.

i'm proud of you boys for shopping.

i have to admit...you are pretty hot. =p

ilu. i do, even though i get confused sometimes.

[*iNyCxShoRT*]

FERHUIVGEC REYCR GH CEHDFCDNWH3UI!! Bloody 'ell. I always bring up things at the wrong time. That's it, I'm not gonna write on pieces of paper anymore. You know those buttons I was holding?!?!? I still have them, but they represented our love. Pink one was you and white one was me. I was going to sew it on my bookbag and show it to you. I was gonna ask Camilo, tell me you didn't tell him, Camilo please. But he just ignored me. How are you going to say that I don't show that I love you. Whatever chance I get I try to hold your hand SO much. When you broke the news to me sure I said "okay." but you don't know how much I cried. How much I wanted to go up to you and sit next to you. When I tried walking around for a bit. I came back around, just to see if you were there. And the only reason why I wrote that was because in science Cristian went, "You're just gonna leave your girl like that?" it was because I wanted to spend more time with you, was why I thought that was such a nice thing for him to say. That's all nothing more. I don't like him. You see me talking to him, for like a few minutes. He's your best friend I know. But how do you think I feel when you go talk to Amay. For you, I've tried to stop being jealous cause I know you wouldn't like it. And for this I won't even talk to Cristian okay. If that makes you happy, I'll give that up for you. Perhaps I am too forgiving. But I don't want to lose what I so strongly value. SO MUCH SO SO MUCH. When Opal told me, "He's not worth it" I had to disagree I cried everytime she said that cause I knew that you were. These tears did not go to waste and as I'm typing this tears roll down as well. I love you so much. So much. So very very much. I really hope this is one of those breaks. Because I miss you already. I don't care if you're taking advantage of the oppurtunity for you to be able to ask me and know that I will say yes, I couldn't care less if you did. All I want to do, is know that you're mine and know that I can be with you. I wish I could rewind this from happening. And if we were on a break I wish that it could be like the last one we have...where we were friends, we could hang out with each other. And now you can't even look at me. It pains me as well Daniel, that you didn't see the good of me. I love you so much. But I guess that doesn't quite matter. R.I.P I guess.











oh how i miss you.

[sm0kinm0nky]

I wish I could tell you how I really feel but I guess I'm just to scared, scared to admit the truth

[NgocQuyen]

____,
you!! meanie! okay not mean! just weird!! why are you doing this to me?!?!!? is it MY fault?! am i being a burden?! i just want to talk to you and get to know you better. is that so hard to ask? are you serious? goodness...i know you dont want me to be like **** and just jump all over you and try my hardest to get at you even during class group assignments...are you kidding me? im not going to do that! i refuse to! you little donkey self...you must be outside your mind! i KNOW you don't want me to do that. what do you expect from me when i'm so shy and incompetant? i can't do much you know? why can't you make the effort? is it because you dont have feelings for me as i have feelings for you? if you don't...then why dont you tell me? you know good and well how much i like you, yet you dont want to tell me how you're feeling? you don't want to talk to me at all? you just want to put me in a situation where i don't have any choice but to care about you because my heart tells me to? you're going to make me cry...and we're not even together....if we were together i would be so happy...you have no idea...you make me so happy even while we're not together. yet you make me so sad because we're not together...seriously...when you held me in your arms, i felt something...you might not have felt it, but i did! let me feel it again..let me be happy...let me be with you....i probably sound desperate..but its not that im desperate...its because i have strong feelings for you...stronger then you'll ever imagine...i really did feel something when we were together that day...it felt like we were alone together, and thats all that mattered. was that we were together. i just can't take that feeling out of my head. i keep thinking about it over and over again. you have no idea how much i long for that feeling to come back to me. no one has ever held me like that and i felt so good and protect. no one has ever held me like you did and didn't try to grab any of my assets...you just held me...and hugged me and let me put my head on your shoulder...no guy has ever done that for me...and i want you to hold me like that for a while longer, but as a couple...not as two people just being flirtatious...but two people together. i'm not desperate...just madly not over you....

[KissMe2408]

To you,
Please don't ask me out, ok. Do you not think i can pick up a hint? I mean, ur such an awesome person, really great qualities. But man, how many times do i have to hint that I don't want a boyfriend? You've been really nice and all, but i mean c'mon! NO. How many guys do I have to say no to? I don't want to be mean or rude to you, you've been nothing but nice. But seriously NO. Don't play that "good guy-oh-i'm-different-then-the-rest-i'll-respect-you" kinda thing. lol i'm not buying it. I don't feel that way for you, sorry. We're awesome as friends, so no more hints ok? cuz if i start feeling uncomfortable i'll drop you. I know that sounds mean and stuff, but i'm not taking any more crap from guys, i refuse.

To you,
lol man...you've got the biggest attitude of all my friends. You've got to not care so much about what people think of you. You need to not get so offended so easily. just be yourself you know? Don't try to be different just to let people accept you. you're like play-doh, no wonder ur so unhappy! just please be yourself!!!!!

[*jooleeah*]

internet connection: stop screwing up >:ooooo
henry: stoooooop being so whiny. ><
____ ____: you're too nice. even to her. gooosh, i don't know how'd i ever be as nice as you.

[*stephinika*]

um...i miss you. weirdly enough.

i hate you. go away.

school, i hate you too.

[xTINAA]

Dear Whomever,
I don't know who you are or why you said those things or why you told her in the first place or anything but FIRST OFF it's none of your fucking business and SECONDLY thanks. Now I have more shit to deal with than I had to before. Sometimes people don't think before they act. You might have had good intentions but honestly you should have approached me and talked to me about it. I didn't and don't have a problem so I think it's pretty damn rude for you to take things into your own hands. Especially when it doesn't concern you one bit. I'm gonna find out who you are.
-Me.

Dear You,
Thanks. I'm not sure if you realize how much hell you put me through and how much hell I'm still currently going through because of you. Maybe it's wrong for me to blame or to put all the blame on you. Sure, events have a cause and a reaction but how the hell else am I supposed to react?

Because of you everything is messed up. Do you see that? You thought that things would be better for me but you know what? You really didn't think at all. If you thought you would have thought about how I'm better because of you and that doing that to me with basically no explanation (or your poor ones) would have this effect.

Some people are saying that you did it because you care, because you had my best interests in mind, and sure I can see that point of view but I don't necessarily think that was your aim. I think that you are selfish at this point in time or rather at that point in time so you decided to end things. Perhaps part of you thought about me, thought that I'd be better off without you but I had told you I wouldn't be and look I'm not.

You said you corrupted me, changed me, but guess what? In order for someone to change they have to want to. I welcomed those changes because it was worth it for love. "Do it for love" they say and that's exactly what I was doing. I wasn't turning into some corrupted, bad person because of you. I was just changing, adapting, growing up.

This is really an aching type of growing. It hurts to have had this happen and it hurts that it affects every area of my life. And it hurts that weeks, months, later I'm still hurt, still crying, still left with a broken heart that longs for you.
-Me.

[*Azarel*]

I've lost someone I love, again. I've lost twice this time, in fact. Both of you are gone. I can't live like this; I'm not alive. What's the point? I don't think I'll pull through; it feels like I've already given up, fallen in, broken down. I can't wait another year; I need out, and I need it now.