uggh ., getting over a first love; Options

[supjuls]

Okay, I met this guy through my cousin and him and I went out. And I'll just call him ???!; because i'm cool like that. It was great because he made me sooo happy. And to be honest, he was the only guy i've ever loved. We went out for a few months but then broke up because I had to move to this DUMP. I felt like sh-t. At the time, my family and I were staying in a hotel, so i told me mom i had to return something and i cried in the public bathroom by the main lobby. Hah, I didnt really care if someone walked in and heard me. Before my family and I PCSed, we went on vacation. I didnt have fun at all because ???!; was all i could think about.

When we got to Italy ( it's not as nice as you think . ) and our household goods came in, i got on messenger and talked to ???!; I guess he changed over the summer because i felt like i didnt know him anymore. Thats when i decided it was time for me to move on. Imet another guy here and now we're going out. ???!; asked me if i had a BF and i said no. I didnt know why i lied to him though. I think it was because i was scared.

I wanted to find out if he still had any feelings for me, like i still do for him, but i dont know if its possible now. He foun out that i lied to him, and he told me he was going to go out with this other girl. When he said that i just froze. And yeah, i am a little jealous. And as for me and John, i dont know whats going to happen. I know i'm waasting his time so i'm going to try to fix things. I just want to know if the way i feel about my ex is normal or if im just messed up. Any advice would be greatly appreciated. Thanks.