i cut myself - please help, ABUSE/bad breakup and i can't handle it anymore (merged) |
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 Jun 22 2006, 10:43 AM
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 imitation is suicide.  Group: Member Posts: 33 Joined: Mar 2005 Member No: 110,799  |
since the day i met him,
i've always wanted him. and my selfishness blown through. i believed i put too much of my emotions and thought through this relationship. and now it only brings me pain. all i ever wanted was to love him. make him better than what he already is. make all the bad times turn into good times. he'd always said, "i love you," and meant it. and i would always repiled, "i love you too." and meant it. yet now there is no time for me to move on. i still love him very much - no, i still love me and forever will. but it pains me in ever way till i start to cry. eventually it leads to physical pain. cutting myself throughout the night, only wishing i can still have another chance. i get mad at myself and it hurts not seeing him here. my goal in this relationship and my mission in life, was only to make him happy. no matter how much pain i would have to go through. but now... there is no chance for that, and i'm deeply sorry. i've caused soo much pain already. i just wish i can stop thinking about him. move on through life. but no - i have no purpose in life anymore. and wish i can just give up. but i still know there is hope. which he can only grant. i have made him unhappy. and now, i can no longer feel the need to live. i am.............. a failure and is there anymore i can do? please help me... |
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Jun 22 2006, 10:51 AM
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imitation is suicide. Group: Member Posts: 33 Joined: Mar 2005 Member No: 110,799 |
I really know how to say this but it hurts not to.
My parents are divorce, and often get stressed out and hit me till I bleed. I cut myself because it's my only relief. I just went through a bad breakup, and just runaway from home. And now I have 'run-away' on my records. So many are mad at me... I can't take this anymore...and it really hurts for me not doing anything about it. I need help - now |
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| *Statistik* |
Jun 22 2006, 10:51 AM
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why the emo action??
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Jun 22 2006, 10:52 AM
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imitation is suicide. Group: Member Posts: 33 Joined: Mar 2005 Member No: 110,799 |
i dunno tons of stuff goes through my house too.
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| *My Cinderella.* |
Jun 22 2006, 10:59 AM
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Maybe you should talk to your school counslor, just to get all of this out of your system. Keeping this locked up so only you know what's going on is only making it worse.
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Jun 22 2006, 11:48 AM
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^i agree with My Cinderella. you should talk to a counselor. it'll help alot
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Jun 22 2006, 12:06 PM
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 none of it seems real Group: Member Posts: 2,469 Joined: Dec 2004 Member No: 73,889 |
If your parents are hitting you than they NEED help. You should not be living with them. Contact a child abuse or domestic violence hotline. I am sure they could help you alot more. Can you move in with your grandmother or someone you know that won't hurt you and you can trust ?
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Jun 22 2006, 12:16 PM
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 the name is ada. Group: Official Member Posts: 4,688 Joined: Dec 2005 Member No: 334,608 |
Tell someone.If I was you..I wouldl live with someone else..like a aunt or something.
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Jun 22 2006, 12:20 PM
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QUOTE(mystikmiko @ Jun 22 2006, 11:51 AM)  I really know how to say this but it hurts not to. My parents are divorce, and often get stressed out and hit me till I bleed. I cut myself because it's my only relief. I just went through a bad breakup, and just runaway from home. And now I have 'run-away' on my records. So many are mad at me... I can't take this anymore...and it really hurts for me not doing anything about it. I need help - now SHES A CUTTER OMFG ADMIN BAN PLZ |
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Jun 22 2006, 12:25 PM
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 Senior Member Group: Staff Alumni Posts: 4,799 Joined: Aug 2004 Member No: 37,450 |
^ Wtf. Forreal, shut up.
-- I think you should talk to a counselor or something tell them what's going with you parents. As much as you might love your parents, you arne't safe with them & I would ty to go live with another trusted family member. |
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Jun 22 2006, 02:14 PM
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QUOTE ^ Wtf. Forreal, shut up. jeez what she said as well to magicfann Anyway you need to talk to someone, go to a counselor. Talk to someone that has some kind of good insights. Your parents are completely in the wrong as well. They should never come about hitting you. My mom use to do that, and then my parents split up and got back together and now their going through it again. 0_o. You need to go find someone else to live with as well. Perhaps someone that is family and if your not safe there then someone that has always said your more than welcome to always come here no matter what type person. But one girl did say that your parents need help, which is true. No doubt about it, they need to go learn that arguments can be calmly figured out through words and not physical abuse. Your not in the wrong at all, except for the cutting part, because you need to get over all this pain and talk to someone as well. Get your life back happy and stuff. Breakups are breakups as well. Their going to hurt and you have to get over them and move on. You'll always have that special place in your heart for them if you really loved him but you still have to move on because not all relationships last because they were perhaps learning ones. |
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| *This Confession* |
Jun 22 2006, 02:15 PM
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this should probably be in the other topic as well that you made.
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| *Zatanna* |
Jun 22 2006, 02:25 PM
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Hello -
I merged your two topics so that any advice/comments people have might be easier to follow. PS - Have you considered writing something and perhaps posting it in the writing forum? We have many wonderful creative writers here and it really is a good outlet. |
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Jun 22 2006, 02:37 PM
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Talk to your friends to help.
Dont cut your self.. thats just gay. |
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Jun 22 2006, 02:58 PM
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 daughter of sin Group: Member Posts: 1,653 Joined: Mar 2006 Member No: 386,134 |
Two words: professional help.
Taylor`` |
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Jun 22 2006, 03:16 PM
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 banana ham! Group: Member Posts: 661 Joined: Sep 2005 Member No: 227,050 |
The relationship problem- Its only a matter of time untill you get over it. Just be patient.. Don`t do anything you`ll regret later on. Try thinking about the positives..
 The parents- You don`t need to put up with that. You need to tell someone ASAP before things get worse. Hope everything is gonna go better for you. 
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Jun 22 2006, 03:31 PM
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QUOTE Two words: professional help. Taylor`` no offense but that is rather rude. You should give her more indepth advice into why you think she should get perfessional help. And how to help her other wise. |
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| *Blow_Don't_SUCK* |
Jun 22 2006, 03:48 PM
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Break up with your boyfriend, vent your pain by talking to someone. Doing anything to help your problem is better than cutting any day
I know how you feel right now, I hate myself for being incapable of doing so many things like being the smartest kid in school or impressing my mom, but ya know friends help, they help a lot. If you have a good friend who can listen and advise you, you're going to turn out great. Don't give in to anything, k? |
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Jun 22 2006, 04:29 PM
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 L!ckitySplit Group: Member Posts: 4,325 Joined: Apr 2005 Member No: 129,329 |
stop it
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Jun 22 2006, 05:06 PM
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 Hello My Name Is INSERT HERE Group: Member Posts: 1,372 Joined: Apr 2006 Member No: 394,903 |
break up with him.
get help from another relative or talk to a counselor. This is so sad 
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| *Statistik* |
Jun 22 2006, 05:58 PM
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I thought this was a poem for a minute lmfao
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Jun 22 2006, 07:15 PM
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Senior Member Group: Staff Alumni Posts: 4,799 Joined: Aug 2004 Member No: 37,450 |
QUOTE(This Confession @ Jun 22 2006, 3:31 PM) no offense but that is rather rude. You should give her more indepth advice into why you think she should get perfessional help. And how to help her other wise. I don't see how that's exactly rude. She really DOES need professional help. She sounds like she's .. really .. depressed . & WHYYYYY must you ALWAYS tell people what to write in their posts. Leave them alone. |
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Jun 22 2006, 08:04 PM
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daughter of sin Group: Member Posts: 1,653 Joined: Mar 2006 Member No: 386,134 |
QUOTE(This Confession @ Jun 22 2006, 4:31 PM) no offense but that is rather rude. You should give her more indepth advice into why you think she should get perfessional help. And how to help her other wise. Are you f**king kidding me? Did you not read her post? Okay, how do you think YOU will help her? What do you suggest, professor Smartass? Get real. Taylor`` |
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Jun 22 2006, 09:08 PM
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 hi, i'm pathetic Group: Member Posts: 71 Joined: Feb 2006 Member No: 382,232 |
I used to cut
and I know how you feel my friends helped me through it but not everyone has the kinds of friends that i do and i don't know how to help you other than to say that you aren't the only one who feels like that and i am really really really sorry that you are in so much pain its horrible, i know its so overwhelming and everyone says 'seek professional help' and thats so annoying because the last thing i wanted to do was go to a shrink after all adults are one of the reasons i was like that in the first place if you have any close friends i would talk to them about it and try writing i wrote songs and they helped me move on when my a relationship i was in went really wrong or painting even if your not a good artist, i think painting helps relieve stress most of all stay strong i wish i could hug you and make all your pain go away |
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Jun 22 2006, 09:10 PM
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daughter of sin Group: Member Posts: 1,653 Joined: Mar 2006 Member No: 386,134 |
QUOTE(i.write.sins.not.tragedies @ Jun 22 2006, 10:08 PM) I used to cut and I know how you feel my friends helped me through it but not everyone has the kinds of friends that i do and i don't know how to help you other than to say that you aren't the only one who feels like that and i am really really really sorry that you are in so much pain its horrible, i know its so overwhelming and everyone says 'seek professional help' and thats so annoying because the last thing i wanted to do was go to a shrink after all adults are one of the reasons i was like that in the first place if you have any close friends i would talk to them about it and try writing i wrote songs and they helped me move on when my boyfriend and i broke up or painting even if your not a good artist, i think painting helps relieve stress most of all stay strong i wish i could hug you and make all your pain go away It's kind of annoying when you type like this. Honestly. But self-expression does help. Taylor`` |
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