ever lost someone you didn't care about until you realized that you did? Options

[batman]

it was so stupid. like i didn't give a shit about this guy (from work), but i knew that he liked me and he was kinda cute so i decided to flirt around with it just for fun. like for a few weeks we fooled around and the entire time i was like "god wtf am i doing" and at one point it just felt so wrong, like i felt literally sick to my stomach whenever i thought about him, so i broke things off the bitchy way by acting completely cold and ignoring his calls and lying to him.

now he wont talk to me and all i can think about is how much i miss him.

haha. things are totally awkward now during our daily work meetings.