createBlog Diary., Version 3. Options

[Nicolatofu]

Dear cb diary,
how, HOW, could she deny saying that to me when I can remember her there, b*tching abou8t how I'm such a slutty dresser? I've never worn anything like that before! Has she taken a look in the mirror?!?! OMG! bah.
Moi

[miss barnes]

Dear beloved CB diary

my my..the time surely has flown since our last convo. well nothing much has changed in my life except i quit softball b/c coach kay is fukkin bullshit...had a D in spanish b/c mrs johnson fukked me over on the vocab...now its a B...had a F in geometry...i fukked mrs hale over..now i have a D...A in accounting....did my english project in 1 hour tops and managed a 93/100...brian took 3 days and got a 100...lol....oh...C in physics...need..GOT to raise that...93 in desktop publishing...better not go lower...damn its already mid-quarter

Reekah

[*stephinika*]

dear cb diary,

life is frustrating. as always. but whatever...theres nothing i can do right? except complain but that doesn't really help...i've learned that a long time ago and yet i still do. meh.

[Outloved]

Dear Createblog Diary,

I'm so confused and mad and sad. All mixed emotions. My dad is away for a week-month right now, he is on underway in his ship, and my mom is being mean. My mom is mean to me when my dad is gone. But when my dad is here, my dad is mean to me. I just can't escape all this. I also feel like everyone around me is changing, if change is suppose to be good, why do I feel so left out? Well that's all for now.

[*Azarel*]

Dear createBlog diary,
Some things are just not worth the effort.
-Me.

[gigiopolis]

Dear createBlog diary,

Today I fell flat on my ass on the edge of the stairs. Now I have one gigantic line-shaped lump on my butt. I can't sit down without a pillow because it hurts like a bitch.

Also, when I was pulling my Science textbook out of my locker, my hand slipped, and my textbook came flying out, and hit me in the lip. I have a cut lip. It bled like crazy. I even had to go to the nurse's office.

Smooth.

[heyyfrankie]

Dear CreateBlog Diary,

yesterday was awful! school was very boring and i had to take like 3 quizes! it sucked really bad! and then i was like, okay, this is a bad day and it is pouring down rain. therefore, i will have to walk home in the freezing cold and pouring rain! i was so pissed. but then i found out that my sister was going to have her friend pick me up after school. i was so excited! and, since they were seniors, my sister and her friend get to leave school early. so i went and ate lunch and then went to my last period. i finished all the rest of the day and walked outside to wait for them come. and i was like well i am not going to go outside because it is really cold and wet. but my school is stupid and they say that you have to be out of the school by 3:00pm. so after 15 went by, i had to go outside! and i waited their for another 10 minutes. afer that time passed, i was going to go inside to use the school's phone but i couldn't find an open door! and after all that, i found out that i had to walk home! i was so pissed off! i was like, "i have been waiting outside for like 30 minutes and i am sopping wet, my backpack is soaked and now you are telling me that i have to walk home!!!!?????!!!!". and then on my way home, i slipped into a mud puddle and my BRAND NEW SHOES got soaking wet and filled with mud! it was so cold! and finally i get home and then i walk, dripping wet, and then my sister starts to laugh at me! i don't know why but i just felt like crying! i guess because i was so mad! i mean, i was told that i was going to be "driven" home and i wasn't. my brand new 90 dollar shoes are totally ruined with mud, and i am freezing cold! i went and took a 30 minute shower. and now i am sick.

--Frankie

[Wishful_Dream]

Dear Cb Diary,

I don't really understand this topic. =D Anyways, In a way I'm new. I hope I get to be an offical member. =O I want to be an official member.. Or get at least 100 posts. =D Anyways, So far my day has been real bad. Well, yesterday was worst. I had so many tests and junk and they were all unprepared for.. Meaning the teacher just surprisingly gave it to us.. T_T" It was a burn really.

I'm kinda tired right now. I've been tired lately, barely able to keep my eyes open. So sleepy. About to collasp. I made a topic on this on my other account (Wishful_Thinking) but yeah.. someone said I should go see the doctor. =/

So far, most of my friends have been neglecting me.. but it's okay.. =/ It's not their fault that they are busy.. =/ I don't really know what to write in here.. so I guess I'll make it pointless ne?

I'm jealous of my friend... I found out she played this game with my crush and she knew I had a crush on him... x_x but I just recently lied to her that I stopped liking him.. I dunno. I hope I'll get over him.. I think she likes him. =/ Seeing as they are so close, I guess they'd make a really cute couple. I will cheer them on all the way...

--Alina Nguyen =)

[silver-rain]

dear cb diary,
this week has been pretty well. i got to see stephen every day! that was great. today's track party was fun too. but i'm really sad that my grandmother died, and that everyone is going back to china. eh, i feel a bit guilty because sometimes, i didn't really like her that much or whatever. but seeing my mom, it really killed me, especially since she like lost her whole family in like 10 years. eh, i feel really sorry for her. i wish i could've gone to china too...

[heyyfrankie]

dear createblog diary,

yesterday was so boring at first! we had to clean out the garage! it sucked! my sister didn't want to do it so, of course, we were messing around and laughing and not doing that much work. so my mom and aunt got super mad at us! they started yelling at us. i didn't laugh after!

after that, we went to a step show at TCU. it was awesome! some of the schools there were so good! the girls got first place and the boys got second! WE GET TO GO TO THE FINALS!!!!!!! we are so happy!

and today, i got yelled at again. i think i let my mouth override my ass and i just get into trouble. but i don't care. i always have friends.

--Frankie

[jinsyungitis0811]

Dear CB Diary,

Shinhwa Sarang's forum is down again. my laptop's been pretty much dead for the last week. im suffering without my daily kpop updates TT_TT. good thing i found you yesterday though. at least i can learn how to make skins when im bored. i wish there was PS on this computer so i can get more creative.

im supposed to be doing this lit assignment right now, but im typing to you instead ^^;; i love how i procrastinate, heh.

i think im getting sick my throats all parched and yeah. bad day maybe? >_>

its monday tomorrow. i HATE mondays. i dont want to go back to school and live through another day of hiding under my happy mask. why cant i just stay home, or get a job, and stop going to school? school seriously sucks, especially when i think of it during one of my depression days.

Sadies is coming up. all my friends want me to go. im tempted to but the guy i have in mind to ask will never say yes. he hates dances... but ive just got addicted to dancing. wth is with the bad timing --;;

im drinking apple juice and listening to Kangta's Pine Tree album. its pretty soothing until i glance down and see the lit book im supposed to be analyzing.

i've been awake since 9 and im tired already. and its only 3:27~~ _ _;;

guess i should try finishing my hw before starting on my first skin.
<33
-eva

[*stephinika*]

dear cb....

i've had a 50/50 kinda weekend so far i guess. i've been doing so much other stuff instead of studying and thats been fun. a bit stressed due to a rather interesting arguement with angela...sigh. whatever. i don't even care anymore. i hope someone can come with me to the movies...haha i might see a movie with marvin next friday. that should be interesting. anyways...bye.

[heyyfrankie]

Dear Createblog Diary,

today was so boring! it was a monday and an "a" day so i was extremly tired! and just to make matters worse, i was sick. i mean, sicker than i have been for the past 4 days. i stayed home on friday but then it got progressively better as the weekend went on. but then, this morning, my throat was hurting me so bad! when i would swallow, it would feel like i was swallowing glass! and then i thought that i would take some medicine, eat some cough drops, and use the medicated spray that would help my throat. but guess what...it didn't! i ended up eating 5 cough drops and taking medicine and nothing help. so luckily i got a doctor's appointment tomorrow. yay! drugs!

and tomorrow should be better becase i only have to go for half a day and there is supposed to be snow...y'all know what that means...NO TENNIS!!

--Frankie

[miss barnes]

Dear CB diary

today was a totally not needed day in my life. didnt want to go to school and had to go. didnt have to do a damn thing while i was there. never have homework so yea school is a big fukkin joke to me. mario is soo sexxy. a damn shame that he wasnt at school today. hella ppl were M.I.A today. tha party must have really been something...naw nvm mark said it was wack.

until later tonight
reekah

[pbear]

dear createBlog diary,

i love him and hate him at the same time.
on one hand, i can't forget our past and everything he did for me.
on the other, i feel like he's stabbing me in the heart. he won't talk to me, he won't look at me, he won't acknowledge me.
i can't help but wonder about my future. when i'm 30, 50, 80 and on my deathbed, will i still remember him? will i still hurt for him? will i still love him?
forever, he said. i said it too. forever was a blink of an eye and eternity. forever and ever and ever. i kept my promise. did you?

i wish i had never known him.

-Linda

[*Azarel*]

Dear createBlog diary,
Jose makes me smile.
The end.
-Me.

[*mishyerr*]

Dear cB Diary,

I feel like I'm in a swirly car ride. I'm being pulled this way and that. I don't know what to do anymore. Life is really confusing right now.. I want to do everything. But I can only do so much.. I want to fall in love with him, but my heart can only love so much.

Bye _Me.

[heyyfrankie]

Dear Createblog Diary,

today was boring to my surprise! i thought it was going to be fun but it wasn't. i think it was because today was the sickest i have been! i got to go to the doctor and they said that all i have is sinuses! i don't believe then! but i at least i got some drugs! thank god! i hope i start to feelin' better. and i have to give a speech tomorrow and i just can't wait.

--Frankie

[Flaunted]

Dear Createblog Diary,

i feel this is going to be a long entry

I wish i can help my friends, there is so much tension and problems in my "groups" of friends i can't keep track at all, i wish it would all just go away. My Friend said that i should go to King of Hearts, it would be lovely to go but i have no boyfriend and no one i like to make a possible date, the whole dance is just making out and dry sex, why would i want to go if i don't want to share it with the person i go with as friends? (oh dear i sound like a slut) anyways i'm going to a party instead with some friends who aren't going as well.

I know he has been busy lately, i don't mind it that much but i really miss talking to him and knowing he is around, i feel like i'm not up to the standards and i'm just one boring chick that never have any good conversations. He says i'm not but i'm still if-y about it. i try to think of ways to talk but it doesn't do anything really. i don't like how things are going now and if they are going to stay this way. we barely talk...

Anna, is a awesome person, her birthday is tomorrow? i am sure to put a birthday card with my letter that i am currently writing to her, its going to be so cool, but my handwriting is very messy and i doodled a lot on it.

So my cousin and aunts and uncle have been here for over a month, they seem to settle down pretty well, its just different because i want my parents out of my room and them out of my house, i mean 7 people in this small of a apartment isn't cozy. my cousin has driven me over the wall with his disrespect to his parents and his manners. he is very stubborn and just annoying, my mom almost killed him the otherday because he almost got ran over by a car, seriously if he did, i wouldn't be sad. his parents try to disipline him really but they don't do it, he never learns his lesson, he never listens only to my mom, dad and me when we really yell at him. when will he ever learn? my mom said i can have the priviledge to hurt him if i have to, but my damn conscience is blocking me to do so.

errr lets stop talking
bye for now.
sam.

[ladymahogany87]

Dear createblog diary,

I should be studying for my exam tomorrow but I'm surfing the forums instead. Can you believe my exam is starting at 7:30 in the morning!!!! Hopefully I will do well on it. Today was an okay day. I wanted to get up early to study but that didn't happen. I ate lunch with some people from Intervarsity which was fun even though the food was gross. We celebrated a girl named Trisha's birthday. Then I had three classes and two meetings so it has been a long day. Tonight I'm going to teach some girls on my hall how to play spades. That's all for now.

sooooo tired!

[*stephinika*]

dear cb diary,

oh my f**king god. she is pissing me off SO MUCH! why do you care what i do so godamn much huh!? leave me the f**k alone. i don't care what you do, so why do you care so much about what i do? its my life. i'll do what i want and i don't need to justify it to you. i refuse to let you intimidate me into changing how i act or what i do. i won't let you pressure me into taking that shit off my xanga. i can post whatever the f**k i want. i let you post your bullshit about me so why can't i bitch huh? do i have to follow all your rules now? hm? stupid bitch. now i know why i don't like you so godamn much. you're the one who started taking this whole shit out of proportion and i let it go the first time - i f**king forgave you. twice. and now its your problem that you can't get over it. we've tried being friends so many times but you know what? i give up now. you're dirt.

[*Azarel*]

Anna, is a awesome person, her birthday is tomorrow? i am sure to put a birthday card with my letter that i am currently writing to her, its going to be so cool, but my handwriting is very messy and i doodled a lot on it

Ilu, you awesome person, you.

Dear createBlog diary,
It's been a week since I've written anything of true content here. Not that long, but it feels like an eternity. This last week and a half, it's been a bit hellish. Car accident last Monday. Been going to robotics. Grades today; they sucked. It's been over a month since we've really talked. I don't feel like elaborating. I'm sick because of Jenn, and I feel like shit. Nobody seems to care enough to at least try to talk to me when I IM them. It sucks. I feel utterly unwanted.
-Me.

[RiddleMeWonders]

Dear Cb Dairy..


I'm sick today.. and solo and ensemble for choir is Friday. I have to go to school today. MOm's in the shower,and if I ask her, she'll say no. Jacob's got the flu... which I guess means he can't call me tonight, which sucks because today is the day I'm finally ungrounded and I haven't talked to him in 3 days.
Will I even get to go to Prom? Oh Cb, I hate being a teenager sometimes, I wish I was already lying in a coffin. Shirk all the stuff on someone else. :p I love you!

Lindsey

[*Azarel*]

Dear createBlog diary,
I've been up for an hour. It's my birthday. It sucks being sick on my birthday. My nose is running and I keep coughing.

I want people to make a big fuss over it when I go to school. I want to have to lug around balloons and presents. I want people to know. But nobody is going to notice. Nor will they care.

Some sweet sixteenth, eh? Some sweet sixteenth..

-Me

-----

I tried so hard to hate you,
but it only makes things worse,
I only end up hating myself
And as my hatred grows,
So do the lies,
It's hard to face the truth sometimes
God, I feel so useless

[someflipguy]

Dear Diary,

I fell like sometimes I just want to scream and let all my anger out. I just don't undestand how people can be really that ungreatful. I go out and try to make them feel special but, they go out and throw the shit in my freaking face. Sure I don't want them to get into trouble and she don't want me to get into trouble. But, you know what I am taking the chance not you, feel free to tell me in a nice way that I am doing this whole thing wrong but, you know what cursing and shit towards me isn't the way to go. I was there when you were having hard times with them boys. But, now you just decide that I am nobody to you. I see how are friendship is really. When you get something from someone you just throw them away you get it. Just don't think that you can come back to me and Pablo just with a simple "Sorry." We were your friends and you go out and treat us like shit. What the f**k is wrong with you? We try to humor ourselves to say that you really didn't mean it but deep inside we both knew that you were telling the truth about what you said. All that hidden anger and secrets that we never knew. Go ask your other friends to comfort you when you need it the most. Don't ask me to hug and listen to you when your heart is breaking. If your to foolish to realize the truth then our friendship can never survive.

On a different note, my love life is starting to purk up. I got my Thao Thao and shes got me. I want to make our moments together very special. May it be just sitting and watching tv or going out partying or more special things. I am glad that I have you.

-Ryan