the final troubadour Options

[ryfitaDF]

over the past few weeks i've been going through a tough ass berak-up and i've been writing alot about it. i decided to mash them all together and make one long ass song that's all over the place. it covers the whole breakup pretty much. let me try to explain how the music goes...
the first few lines go to a sad manson-esque sound along the lines of "coma black"
and then the line "one last hug..." comes along it kicks into a hardcore badass sound such as unearth's "black hearts now reign". it stays that way pretty far into it.
when it gets to "profound in a stupor..." it breaks down into a kind of cradle of filth "nymphetamine fix" tempo and melody. like a lullaby.
at "DON'T HOLD YOUR BREATH!" it kicks back to the previous hardcore badassness.
at "she sang the hymns" it's a hardcore breakdown like for slamdamcing. think of the one in the bled's "red wedding"
then, finally, at "as she put on the badge..." it's like the end of CoF's "swansong for a raven." soft, symphonic string ensambles. it carries on till the end. ok herre goes. sorry it's so long.

THE FINAL TROUBADOUR
All it’s good for is bleeding, now
All is can do is bleed
It doesn’t even beat anymore
All it does is bleed
Picking at the scab
The former love motif
Trapped in the phobia
Of it living to die again
Of you murdering it again

The strings are holding me
The blades are everywhere
May we share…

One last hug
One last goodbye
And give you back your memories
One last time
One last walk home
In the rain with tears erupting
This is our final hour
I discontinue life lived on my knees
I hate you and I love you
Too bad you couldn’t feel the same for me

No more nights of worrying about you
No more dreams for you to confiscate
This is where I draw the line
This is where you get off the ride
Not another sleepless evening
Now I rest in peace without you
This is where it ends tonight
This is where your luck runs out
Goodbye

So I ruined your night?
So you ruined my f**king life
Now you dare to commit suicide?
You should have thought of that before you betrayed me
So you want to die?
So you want to end your f**king life
If it hurts so much then why’d you bring it on yourself?

I feel cleansed
I feel lighter
The weight upon my chest and shoulders
Went out the door with you

But I miss you
And I miss your warmth
I know it’s real
And I won’t ever forget it
I love you, but it’s time to f**king go

Even though the good times
Are hidden with this pain
The memories of us won’t be in vain
Even though my pleasure
Is shrouded in distain
The memories of us won’t be in vain

Such fond memories
Long walks home in the rain
Rapturous, I meander
In love and in death’s embrace
Piano strings are hammered
In a manner so uplifting
Gives feeling of completion
Every time you kiss me (I die)
Darkness blankets us outside
Post-midnight, we lay in the grass
Talking about stupid things
Made the hours go fast
Kisses healed whatever ailed me
As I poked you with my horns
How I wish to run back to those days
When the sky was warm

If I called her would she answer?
If I sent her a letter would it get any better?
If I presented to her my heart on a platter
Would I fail, for, perhaps, it’s probably already hers?
Does my heart belong to her?
Does my heart belong to her?
Does my heart belong to her?
Does my heart belong to her?...

Profound in a stupor, brain dead I reside
My head still splitting from my last suicide
As the heat from our summer still burns in my head
And I fear that your touch has left me mislead
But I swore to my heart that your path was to choose
Not in millennia did I think I would lose you
For you unlocked the shackles that held me in lust
Broke seals of resent and replaced my “me” with “us”
The night that we danced: such a rapturous eve
A night that would bring me such fond memories
I lent you my jacket. From the cold you would hide
The memories leading tears running form both my eyes

Tell me now that I mean nothing to you at all
After you re-taught me how to feel
Now tell me you’re still going to cast me out
After this prayer I recite to you on bending knees

DON’T HOLD YOUR BREATH!

I made it clear what I hate
I made it known what I abhor
So why should I implore?
I’m not forsaken
She knows what I hate
And she chose the opposite of my fate
I continue my quest for the fulfillment
She was mistaken as

She sang their hymns
She pledged her love
To the porcelain god
Signifying she was gone
She locked her cage
From the inside
The beauty I saw in her
Shattered with the bottle and died

As she put on the badge and assumed her rank
Consummated her vice with the poison she drank
Defiled the foundation or virtue I tried to uphold
Her regrets will return sevenfold
For she ignored the warnings I told

And I remain not astray
I shal live for another day
My heart somehow still in tact
I stand a man amongst cur
I reside on the edge
Watch the lemmings descend from the ledge
All is fair for love is war
With my battle scars and lessons learned