Find me. Options

[Saeglopur]

I'm wide awake. You can see it in my eyes. You can hear it from the way I talk. You know because it's four in the morning and I'm in car and I'm waiting. Waiting for my dream to come true.

I'm sitting there. Street lights highlighting different parts of my face. Streetlights highlighting the road for us. The road for me. I'm still sitting there. My face is emotionless. Should I feel happy? Excited? Lonely? Happy for leaving home? Happy because in a matter of hours, I'll end up somewhere in a brand new place, big enough for me to grow. Big enough so I can find that special somebody?

I'm not too far away from home. Although, I may be about 75 miles away from home, that's not as far as I want to be. I want to go farther. Would going 75 miles farther make any difference? Would being away from everything that distracted me before change my life?

Would I have to start off fresh? Is this giving me a second chance?

"Are you okay?" He asks me. He looks at me, taking only a glance for he can't take his eyes of the road. His eyes twinkle as he says that. His eyes look lonely as he says that.

"I'm fine." His eyes look hurt when I say that. I look out my window. It's still dark outside and you can hear the rain pounding on the roof of the car. It's raining and I'm going away. Is this heaven's tears crying down on me? Is it telling me that I am leaving where I should be at? Am I going the wrong direction?

"You look unsure about this whole.. thing." He tells me. I am sure. I hesitate to answer. Hopefully, as I draw my breath to sigh, he knows I'm sure.

"I'm weary. That's all." I reply. He blinks at the road, he's thinking of what to say.

"Maybe.. you should rest. Take a nap. We won't be there for another hour." He tells me. I look at him. A bit surprised. I told him in the beginning for the trip, I wouldn't be resting.

"… no." I close my eyes. I'm not sleepy… but I need to recollect my thoughts.

"Is there something wrong?"

"No, everything's fine…. I'd like to thank you for bringing me though." I tell him. He smiles. The first from this whole morning. He is weary too. He helped me pack.

He's a good friend.

"No problem. I'd like to see you happy for once." I smile back at him. I'm happy. I thanked him for that. I'm excited. I thanked him for that.

"I'm sorry though." I say, frowning. Ruining the mood that was set.

"For what?" He asks.

"For… leaving you."

"No.. I'll come visit you."

I smile. He makes me happy. But we're only friends. Nothing further. It's something we promised each other we wouldn't cross.

"Take a nap." He says. I obey. I close my eyes and dream.

Dreaming for my new city life.

My New York City Life.

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I had to write it. Somehow, my want for writing has become a need. It's something I need to do to release ideas.. freaky.

[melface]

Hmm much repetition but that's just how you write! <333 I think... besides that other thing you wrote... this is the second piece i've read from you.

[NatiMarie]

I really like this one. At first I wasn't really sure where you going with because the scenario was slightly confusing and redudant at times. I like how you used the present tense and managed to keep it consistent throughout the whole story-line.

Hmm...

Happy because in a matter of hours, I'll end up somewhere in a brand new place, big enough for me to grow.

^ try adding a comma after 'Happy' because I automatically assumed it would turn out to be a question since the phrases before this statement were in question form.

Overall...great job.
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Very sad tale.
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