Poem, It may trigger some who SI..but enjoy Options

[*mSz_dOrk_anGeL*]

I know it sucks.

i wanna be alone
don't dare try and make me a clone
it'd be a waste anyway,
who'd pay to see another ugly face?
im drowning in my sorrow, scared and dazed
my life feels like a never-ending maze
does anyone else feel similar pain
and wish they'd get hit by a train?
thats how i feel 24/7
im scared if i die i wont go to heaven
so i'll stay for a while, til i cant take it no more,
cry until my eyes are sore
drink my life away till it dont hurt no more

I got my wish i guess
im alone,
no ones home
the perfect time
to commit my crime
hands shaking, holding the sharpened knife
i knew it would come to this, it was just a matter of time
no one could reach out to me
to make me see
the reasons why, i should not die

the fridgid metal contacts my wrist
it glides across the skin
until maroon colored blood
spills over my hand
i sat there crying in the dark and unwelcoming shadows of my bathroom,
counting the painful drops of blood that hit the floor
when they stop i will suffer no more
my wrist wont be sore.
i wont see you again
you were my only friend
so trustworthy and loving
you never lied, only sat with me when i cried
you sit with me now, in my last minutes of life
but theres nothing you can do
and you were the only one i knew i could turn to
you dont know whats happening
because you are only death, my best friend.