what do u do when...., i need help..guy trouble PLEASE!! Options

[1azn_kutee]

ok..well i just got baq together with mi boyfriend...and long story short is...
we were together for 7 months then i broke up with hym to go out wit a guy in gr.11 (yeah i no pretty low...but how kan u say no..im onli in gr.9 and a gr.11 asked me out...kinda feeds your ego huh??) ne wayz..then after a week i broke up with him because i thought i still had feelings for my first boyfriend...but it was at the end of the school yea...so then during summer i got grounded...for the 2 months...and well i havnt talked to him for 2 months....
now the problem is...i dont know how he feels...we never comfirmed we were together or any thing...he just kissed me...but now...after 2 months im kinda iffy about the relationship...as my firend says *no chemistry* and schools coming up and i dont know if i wanna try and make us a couple agian..like if i wanna try a lil harder to make us a couple..or just forget about it...pretend it didnt happen......lyke i dont ever wanna c him again..it just bring up feelings and its akward u no?? and it took so long for him to trust me again if i brake up with him ive probably lost his trust forever...but i dont even want to go up to him and tell him...i just wished it never happened!! you know... :yawn:and also..like his gurl friends...he was goin out with for 2 years iz coming to our school...nd well there still great friends almost best friends..nd yea that kinda makes me uncomfortable...yea yea i no *JELOUS female dog* lol
i dont no!! im so unsure of this relationship i dont no wut to do...i wanna b friends with him but i no for a fact it won't workout that way...itz like saying if i break it off ill lose him forever...

ok lol yea..im willing to acept that im 1 big whore lol but ...i no i made a mistake...and if i could go baq id change it ..but i kant now kan i??..i no that itz a really slutty/player...kind of thing to do...and ive regret it soo badly but now...i dont no..if i ver shoulve told him i still have feelings for him...it just made things worse didnt it??
so yea tha prolem is..the first day of school is coming up..and honestly i dont wanna c him...not cause i hate him but beacuse..itz so awkward to c him...but i have to him..his in my first class with me...and well i dont no what my reaction will be...should i just ignore him??(im sure he'll get tha message)..or should i go and like hug him and pretend everythings ok??