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hiiya!! wellz...guess i kan talk about stuff in here cuz no one knowz me here...um..well..okai..im in this scout thingy, n i guess itz kool n all...but i have no friendz there...well..i used to have one friend there..but something happened between us so we barely even talk anymore...[[i dunno wat happened to us..]] yeah..she n i go to the same skool too..we barely talk at skool too...anywayz...i wanna fit in n have friendz there but i guess i dunno how...on this rare ocassion i spoke to the gurl i used to hang out with..she sed that all i had to do was open up to pplz n that ill fit in faster than i think...wierd thing is, is that everytyme im about to open up..i juz close off...another wierd thing is that im tottaly different at skool than i am at scoutz...lyke..at skool im all happii n hyper...but at scoutz...i juz turn all sad almost depressed...itz wierd cuz i dunno y im lyke that...the gurl i used to hang out with..hangz out with these 2 other gurlz...she told me that those gurlz wanna be friendz with me...i thought to myself "if they wanna to b friendz with me, then y dont they act lyke it??"
i dunno wat to do...should i stop going to scoutz?? or should i try even harder to fit in?? if i stop goin to scoutz..i wont b able to see the guy i lyke...[[waaay different topic...ill save that for another day]] wellz..thankz for reading this...n thankz sooo much if u have any advice...take kare!!