breaking down over her, an email i just sent her Options

[deadsouls]

Yea... so my best friend, she's enganged, and she's getting really scared of things, because this other guy who is her ex still likes her and makes her feel like sh*t because she's marrying another guy (her current b/f ofcourse), and so she's kinda in freak-out-mode. She was already originally bi-polar/sucicial/depressive and stuff.

Now just so you know, I'm in South Carolina, and I might be moving down to Ft Worth in the next few weeks, and we're both kinda stressed over that too. She just got a job at a Mcdonalds, first one since a few months back. I was pretty happy for her. But uh, she quit hangin around this coffeehouse that me and our friends always go to. And well, it sucks alot.

Anyway, here's the email i sent her. I need your thoughts.


"hey, congrats on that job. I know it's not the best, but it's still a job
right? :-)

yea, so this is my new email that i'll be using from now on. It's actually
better than hotmail in some ways, but in some ways hotmail is better
because of more organizing options. but i dont need any of that junk.

umm.. im sorry, i know you didn't want me writing you anymore, and i am
always so bent on doing whatever makes you happy. but i'm burning up
inside. i know you're going through a really tough time with this marriage
and patrick and all that stuff. trust me, i know your getting scared of
things. i just wish i could see you up at this coffeehouse again. it feels
like i might as well be in texas lately, and i dont ever want to feel like
that. the weather lately, has taken me back to the time when we had first
met during the summer and fall. it feels like it's back then but i know its
not and you're not around anywhere, and... well it causes alot of heartache
i guess. it's not your fault, but that's just how things have felt lately,
and it sucks. now-a-days, people have things to do now. they're busy, and
even i am.. thing is im always busy here at this coffeehouse until i start
goin up to that new music 4-u studio. but yea... it's getting hard for me
too, and all i can ever think about is how relieved i would be about
everything if i could hang with you again.

im sorry, this letter must really hurt to read, it hurts like hell to even
write it, but i'm exploding to get it out. it always feels like home around
you, no matter where im at. everywhere else feels like i'm on another
planet and i'm being kidnapped and going to my doom... but when your around
me, its like im at home, and everything is great.

do you have any idea how long ive held all of this inside? it's gotten so
hard, and now its impossible. no, please don't think i'm trying to hit on
you and say i want you and all this. your my Friend. its just that you are
THAT kind of friend to me.

Every night I fall asleep with tears in my eyes thinking of how much I want
to see you in heaven after we're both dead. I feel like heaven wont be
heaven for me if you're not there. And I would go beyond anything to be
able to help you restore your faith in life and God (atleast any faith
you've lost, trust me, over all the things you've been going through since
and maybe before i met you, im sure life has done this to you).

But don't you understand? I've always believed in this bond we've had
between us. Not a g/f b/f bond, but a best friend bond. I dont know tho,
because althogh you're the closest friend I've really ever had, I know you
are alot closer to other people than me, and I guess I just need to accept
that and move on.

I'm sorry, I'll leave you alone now. And if you never want to see me again
because of all the heartache or whatever, I understand. But don't ever
forget, that I'll always love you, more than anything else in this world.

Bye."

[CloudUnionX]

I may not know your exact situation, but that email sounded great. Im sure that it will mean alot to her. You defenantly put your feelings into words very well.

I might be moving down to Ft Worth

I live right by Ft. Worth.

[deadsouls]

well, the situation is, we used to hang out alot, and we have been extremely close friends. Well because of her depression, she sometimes posts things on her xanga saying how she doesn't want anything to do with us (me and many of the other friends she used to hang with) anymore, that she's done with her heart being pulled on, how she wish she were dead and stuff like that. But she's always believed that I had the potential to help her with her issues. But we dont ever really see eachother anymore because she's always stuck at her fiance's house on an air force base here. I can't ever get in touch with her anymore and it's starting to feel like any connection we've ever had is fading.

Anyway, that's basically how it is.

[CloudUnionX]

Is the base far away? If not could you get permission to mabye suprise visit her? It just an idea.

[deadsouls]

well, im not military and i dont hardly get to hang around those who are who can get me on base... plus there's her fiance who actually dispises me because he knows that I knew her before him and he knows that we have a very very tight bond of a friendship, he's a very jealous type. it sucks.

but! someone told me that she would be coming to the coffeehouse later tonight!!! it's a maybe tho, maybe not... but im looking really forward to it. If she does tho, she'll most likely be with her fiance and ... well, you know what i mean. heh.

[MaDxCowZ]

oo..

[aud_chua]

hold on.. i don't get it...
why is she mad at you guys? i mean, aside from her depression and all that, what caused her to hate you?
hmm.. that's really sad... maybe you should call her? much better than writing to her cuz you can get a response right then and there..
i hope that everything went well in the coffeeshop. ^_^

[*Podomaht*]

omg, thats so sad, i feel like crying...

[xjjajeengx]

man.... your so sweet! *sniff anyways, i think she'll be moved by the email. (better be... ) well good luck in helping her out. i think shes gunna cry tho literally.

[deadsouls]

hold on.. i don't get it...
why is she mad at you guys? i mean, aside from her depression and all that, what caused her to hate you?
hmm.. that's really sad... maybe you should call her? much better than writing to her cuz you can get a response right then and there..
i hope that everything went well in the coffeeshop. ^_^

she feels like a burden to us because of her issues. there's more than just that though, i can't quite explain it.

but um.. she didn't show last night at the coffeeshop, probably because her fiance made some excuse not to go or take her when it really was because he knew i was gonna be there aside from other people that are good friends to her. and you know what? that's exactly how her ex treated her and that's one of the reasons why she dumped him!

i just wish i could get more chill time with her and do just what god has put us together for us to do, and that is help eachother out with our problems.

[Just_Dream]

It seems like she's really someone deeply special to you. It's great how you can be a shoulder for her to cry on. People go through tough situations everything, and I think it's romantically sweet that you care so much for her. I don't know the situation either, like cloudunionx, but I think the email is really sweet and it came from your heart. You must be a wonderful friend to her. Even if she feels like a burden towards you, you'll still be there for her, because that's what friends are for. Even through the toughest, true friends will always be there. And that's what counts. She must be a lucky girl to have you as a friend

[casssy]

crazy stuff going on huh bud? maybe from the emaill u sent to her.. shell hang out with u a little more before u leave..n realize that ur a great firend and that u honestly do reallly care.. maybe itll make her feel a little better.. knownin how u feel and stuff.. itll give her a relief =;.. if u kno wut im saying.. but yea.. im bad at this kinda stuff lol.. if u wanna talk.. im here for ya

[*CEP*]

Man, that's sad.
Maybe you can talk to her fiancee to let her go to the coffee shop once in a while ya know/

- Chinkieeyedpnoi

[deadsouls]

look, i dont mean to make her look mean or bad because of certain things said in the letter.

she asked me not to email her a couple months ago during a convesation between me, her, and this other guy who was kinda insisting it after she had told him some of her emotional issues. So I havn't emailed her in months and never questioned it. But things have been gettin so hectic inside of me about my life and about hers that I didn't know what else to do.

I can't call her because she's never at home, never at her fiance's, and i dont know any other way to get in touch with her. She only pops up at the coffeehouse whenever I'm not there and it's most likely because of her fiance. And well, I wouldn't feel right asking her fiance to let her go to the coffeehouse because then he would get offended that I'm making it out to be like he really is keeping her from me.

But there are friends of her's that are talking down at her and her fiance about getting married because they both still have issues that they may need to get strait before jumping into something like marriage. Although their friends had some points, I personally think that her friends should let them work it out themselves unless they come to someone about it for better advise. Infact, one of the last times I got to actually talk to her, she asked me for some help and advise on it. Well you see, there's some lack of communication between her and her fiance and so I told her whatever she does, not to forget communication, its a very important part of what they're going through. That's one thing aside from lots of others.

But I'm just worried about her ya know? Everything seems to be keeping us apart and sometimes, I just get that feeling that even she is trying to avoid me or something because she probably still has that vibe that I'm trying to steal her away from her fiance or something.

It's just complicated. And I'm sorry... I'm bein such a damn panzy over it. I'll just shut up now.

[xjjajeengx]

NO!! deadsouls, you better not shut up haha jkjk

naw, i think its awesome that you care for her so much. and right now, i feel kind of irritated reading ur post because it seems as tho she has shut herself closed to everyone but her stupid frikken fiance or watever. i mean,,, i think thass just... SELFISH even if she does have emotional problems. she has caring you as a best frend, other frends, and i dont think i could ask for more. someone has to grab her by the wrist and plain out tell her that she is being selfish! just cause she has emotional problems doesnt mean she should go around hurting everybody, especially you. just confront her damn fiance, he deserves a big great wacking on the head. and cheer up... being down aint gunna help you in any way

[Kris87]

the email is great...i have been in a really bad situation myself and she should be glad that she has a friend that cares so much for her b/c i have a friend that is like that. it's always a good thing to have a friend out there that really cares for you and your feelings. it always feels good to have someone like that. well i hope she writes back to you with good news for ya...ttyl

[NvieDi3ai3yGrL]

Yea... so my best friend, she's enganged, and she's getting really scared of things, because this other guy who is her ex still likes her and makes her feel like sh*t because she's marrying another guy (her current b/f ofcourse), and so she's kinda in freak-out-mode. She was already originally bi-polar/sucicial/depressive and stuff.

Now just so you know, I'm in South Carolina, and I might be moving down to Ft Worth in the next few weeks, and we're both kinda stressed over that too. She just got a job at a Mcdonalds, first one since a few months back. I was pretty happy for her. But uh, she quit hangin around this coffeehouse that me and our friends always go to. And well, it sucks alot.

Anyway, here's the email i sent her. I need your thoughts.


"hey, congrats on that job. I know it's not the best, but it's still a job
right? :-)

yea, so this is my new email that i'll be using from now on. It's actually
better than hotmail in some ways, but in some ways hotmail is better
because of more organizing options. but i dont need any of that junk.

umm.. im sorry, i know you didn't want me writing you anymore, and i am
always so bent on doing whatever makes you happy. but i'm burning up
inside. i know you're going through a really tough time with this marriage
and patrick and all that stuff. trust me, i know your getting scared of
things. i just wish i could see you up at this coffeehouse again. it feels
like i might as well be in texas lately, and i dont ever want to feel like
that. the weather lately, has taken me back to the time when we had first
met during the summer and fall. it feels like it's back then but i know its
not and you're not around anywhere, and... well it causes alot of heartache
i guess. it's not your fault, but that's just how things have felt lately,
and it sucks. now-a-days, people have things to do now. they're busy, and
even i am.. thing is im always busy here at this coffeehouse until i start
goin up to that new music 4-u studio. but yea... it's getting hard for me
too, and all i can ever think about is how relieved i would be about
everything if i could hang with you again.

im sorry, this letter must really hurt to read, it hurts like hell to even
write it, but i'm exploding to get it out. it always feels like home around
you, no matter where im at. everywhere else feels like i'm on another
planet and i'm being kidnapped and going to my doom... but when your around
me, its like im at home, and everything is great.

do you have any idea how long ive held all of this inside? it's gotten so
hard, and now its impossible. no, please don't think i'm trying to hit on
you and say i want you and all this. your my Friend. its just that you are
THAT kind of friend to me.

Every night I fall asleep with tears in my eyes thinking of how much I want
to see you in heaven after we're both dead. I feel like heaven wont be
heaven for me if you're not there. And I would go beyond anything to be
able to help you restore your faith in life and God (atleast any faith
you've lost, trust me, over all the things you've been going through since
and maybe before i met you, im sure life has done this to you).

But don't you understand? I've always believed in this bond we've had
between us. Not a g/f b/f bond, but a best friend bond. I dont know tho,
because althogh you're the closest friend I've really ever had, I know you
are alot closer to other people than me, and I guess I just need to accept
that and move on.

I'm sorry, I'll leave you alone now. And if you never want to see me again
because of all the heartache or whatever, I understand. But don't ever
forget, that I'll always love you, more than anything else in this world.

Bye."

that was a very sweet letter that y0u wr0te t0 her .. i'm sure n0 matter the reacti0n that she knew it was all fr0m the heart .. i respect that y0u gathered up the c0urage t0 even say all 0f this .. it must have been a huge burden 0ff y0ur sh0ulders .. i h0pe that she d0es keep in t0uch with y0u .. it seems like she'd be l0sing an amazing friend if she d0esn't .. anyh0w best 0f luck and feel better .. try t0 be str0ng f0r her and i'm sure she'll pull thr0ugh 0kay and c0me ar0und .. maybe y0u'll meet again 0ne day to0 .. be patient ..

[*AngelicEyz00*]

Yea... so my best friend, she's enganged, and she's getting really scared of things, because this other guy who is her ex still likes her and makes her feel like sh*t because she's marrying another guy (her current b/f ofcourse), and so she's kinda in freak-out-mode. She was already originally bi-polar/sucicial/depressive and stuff.

Now just so you know, I'm in South Carolina, and I might be moving down to Ft Worth in the next few weeks, and we're both kinda stressed over that too. She just got a job at a Mcdonalds, first one since a few months back. I was pretty happy for her. But uh, she quit hangin around this coffeehouse that me and our friends always go to. And well, it sucks alot.

Anyway, here's the email i sent her. I need your thoughts.


"hey, congrats on that job. I know it's not the best, but it's still a job
right? :-)

yea, so this is my new email that i'll be using from now on. It's actually
better than hotmail in some ways, but in some ways hotmail is better
because of more organizing options. but i dont need any of that junk.

umm.. im sorry, i know you didn't want me writing you anymore, and i am
always so bent on doing whatever makes you happy. but i'm burning up
inside. i know you're going through a really tough time with this marriage
and patrick and all that stuff. trust me, i know your getting scared of
things. i just wish i could see you up at this coffeehouse again. it feels
like i might as well be in texas lately, and i dont ever want to feel like
that. the weather lately, has taken me back to the time when we had first
met during the summer and fall. it feels like it's back then but i know its
not and you're not around anywhere, and... well it causes alot of heartache
i guess. it's not your fault, but that's just how things have felt lately,
and it sucks. now-a-days, people have things to do now. they're busy, and
even i am.. thing is im always busy here at this coffeehouse until i start
goin up to that new music 4-u studio. but yea... it's getting hard for me
too, and all i can ever think about is how relieved i would be about
everything if i could hang with you again.

im sorry, this letter must really hurt to read, it hurts like hell to even
write it, but i'm exploding to get it out. it always feels like home around
you, no matter where im at. everywhere else feels like i'm on another
planet and i'm being kidnapped and going to my doom... but when your around
me, its like im at home, and everything is great.

do you have any idea how long ive held all of this inside? it's gotten so
hard, and now its impossible. no, please don't think i'm trying to hit on
you and say i want you and all this. your my Friend. its just that you are
THAT kind of friend to me.

Every night I fall asleep with tears in my eyes thinking of how much I want
to see you in heaven after we're both dead. I feel like heaven wont be
heaven for me if you're not there. And I would go beyond anything to be
able to help you restore your faith in life and God (atleast any faith
you've lost, trust me, over all the things you've been going through since
and maybe before i met you, im sure life has done this to you).

But don't you understand? I've always believed in this bond we've had
between us. Not a g/f b/f bond, but a best friend bond. I dont know tho,
because althogh you're the closest friend I've really ever had, I know you
are alot closer to other people than me, and I guess I just need to accept
that and move on.

I'm sorry, I'll leave you alone now. And if you never want to see me again
because of all the heartache or whatever, I understand. But don't ever
forget, that I'll always love you, more than anything else in this world.

Bye."

That letter was so sweet... Got me a lil teary eyed too...(maybe it's just cuz I'm listening to Britey Spears-"Everytime") Anyways. You seem like a really great friend, and she's lucky to have you there if she needs you

[*jimmyjackiechan*]

from what I learned in classes and what especially my Professors enphasizes. It's to have a communication chanel that is direct, one on one. In ur case, an EVEN GREATER impact would be made through a phone call than an email~ All seriousness and trying to help~

[deadsouls]

from what I learned in classes and what especially my Professors enphasizes. It's to have a communication chanel that is direct, one on one. In ur case, an EVEN GREATER impact would be made through a phone call than an email~ All seriousness and trying to help~

trust me, i know.

the trick is to get ahold of where she's at because she's always out partying with her fiance and getting drunk whenever she's not at work. nobody EVER picks up the phone when I call over her fiance's house nor her parent's house. it's close to impossible.