girlfriend, so what? Options

[faithin_felix]

well, i have a girlfriend, shes sandra, shes on createblog too. everyone would be happy when they have a girlfriend right? its like the world already, right? maybe to you, it is, but wrong. two girl friends said i have changed. and i think i have too, one of these two girl friends along with this other girl friend wish they never saw me that day. they said i am just different in real life, (because i don't see them much) they live on the east side, well i think i have changed too, and yea, i cried once or twice, because it hurts, one of the girls said i hurt her too much and don't care about me anymore and it hurts, and i loved her very much (friend-wise) and i got hurt and i cried that night, and today i got an email that hurt me too, she said that i only went for sandra was i couldn't get this other girl but that is not true. i love sandra a lot. i do admit the other girl is hot/cute. and i liked her before, but so what? it is and seriously the heart, that counts THE MOST. because the girl that i liked wasn't the really type of heart i was looking for. and i would like to say to her if she reads it, that i am sorry for everything, and i don't know how many more times i have to say sorry again. this is like half the problem i am experencing, the other half is too personal to share, too personal to share even with family and sandra. lifes hard.

and i love sandra.
i regret so much in life.

--edit--
thanks to whoever closed the other one.
and grace, it is never to personal to share, because i want others opinions. fellow createbloggers are the people i trust. and yes sandra is the one on createblog.