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[XaZnX07]

dear diary

today was pretty boring didnt really do much but went out to eat with the family yummm so much food i was realy full lols then had fortune cookies yum

heres my fortunes

1)Every man is a volume if yo u know how to read him
? i dont get this one ?
2)Your courage will bring you honor

3)you have an ability to snse and know higher truth




.:tony:.

[crazeegirl411]

Dear Createblog Diary,
My sleeping schedule is growing crazy!! I didn't know someone can sleep 17 hours until I did it . I had a lot of dreams...but one dream was pretty memorable. In fact, all his dreams are memorable. I think I'm obsessed. That's what. And it's pointless. I don't know what I'm saying. These are one of the times when I feel like I cannot write. Uh.

[eboarder2020]

Dear Creatblog Diary,

I think its time I take this weekend to be a little bit alone and to think about me and the things I want/need/ask/wish for in like... I guess knowing those things is half the battle in this struggle i have.

[Winter]

Dear createBlog Diary,

I think I'm feeling much better now. I started talking with my ex. And he's been really helpful. He helps me with my schoolwork, he cheers me on, he's just so much help. Iono what I'd do without him to help me.

Love,
Winter

[SarahxJoy]

Dear CreateBlog Diary,
It's 3:25 AM and I haven't really anything to do. So I'm making my first entry into this diary here. Tomorrow around 3:00 PM, I'm headed to Leon's party, since he's turning fourteen. I'm looking forward to it, because I get to have some fun and hang out with my friends again, since this summer hasn't really been all that eventful.
In five days, my dad is coming home from Italy for the rest of the month. We're planning on driving through Reno, then Washington (where we'll stay with my great aunt for a night), then head to Vancouver in Canada. We're planning on staying there for three nights. So that'll be nice. I'll be sure to bring my digital camera and takes lots of pics, so I can show my friends when I return.
My friend Paige, showed me this touch-typing test from typingtest.com, and it's weird, but it's kind of getting addicting. LoL. It's nice to see my improvements in my typing. Oh, well I just recieved an e-mail from Paige and Jacy, so I'll end this now and stop boring others with this pathetic life of mine.

~Sarah Joy

P.S.
I feel like an airhead for some reason!

[hybrid]

Dear Diary,

I need to die.
Scratch that, We all need to die.

Seriously,
Kim Jr.

[*jooleeah*]

lilangelgurlpnai Posted on Jul 3 2004, 11:19 AM
  Dear Diary,

I need to die.
Scratch that, We all need to die.

Seriously,
Kim Jr. 

what are you talking about?? you're so nice.

Dear Diary,
The day just started for me. Kind of.
I'm really bored.
And sick.
great.
-julia

[BeyondElite]

Dear CreateBlog Diary,
Tomorrow, i'm gonna release my xangas of the month in my site! I can't wait! And yeah...tomorrow will be Independence day! Yay! I'm so exceited!
Love,
Ron

[onenonly101]

This is from Friday

Friday already. Thank God it is July finally things shall be picking up. I want to see the notebook on Saturday, but you know those parents like to act a straight fool alot of the time so...Sunday is the 4th, and Chealese's birthday. Happy birthday girl, eventhough i will see you on Sunday. If her slacker behind will be at church. We are going to the church's thing and then fireworks at lenox. Monday-Bar b que(my sisters hooks that up every year), Wednesday-Six Flags, wuuu it better not rain, it has been like freakin monsoon weather over here, itz making me mad. Then friday KAYANE WEST...Jesus Walks with me! Can't wait for that. I am startin my birthday countdown and houston countdown.

23 more days till my birthday

20 days till Houston

I went up to the Lenox area with two of my sisters. We ate at Fat Matt's rib shack...mmmmm that tasted so good. Then we went to this Italian ice cream shop and that also tasted good. I realized i hardly ever eat during the summertime. People have said i look like i have lost weight but I don't think so. I shall post a pic at the end of this post that i took yesterday, i don't like the picture too much but it is alright. I realzied then when we were out i have stopped looking at people. I mean allthe way. Man this year i am going to be focused ON ME and ONLY ME. It is tiring worrying about others. I love people but...I am a bad friend during the summertime because i hate talking on the phone and then those people upstairs i swear never want me to go and do ANYTHING. I am goign to tell Brittney i am coming over her house soon. So i can get ou of this place. Then i need to go to Chealse's house also. then i need to walk up to farmer's market and visit Illiana working. Too bad my parents don't know most of my friends cuz if they did then i could be visiting them. Hmph well everyone is home now so i will be getting off for people complain i am always on the computer.

Love

[XaZnX07]

dear diary


today has just begun alot of things yet to come and tomorow is July 4 witch means i will be on my way to california fun fun dont worry i will still visit cb i cant live with out it lols well i will edit this post later on what else i did today hehe





.:tonY:.

[eboarder2020]

Dear Cb Diary,

4th of july is going to be another lonley day. Alot of my friends are gonna watch fireworks with their significant others. I however wanna goto a firework show but no one wishes to come with. I dont wanna spend my 4th all alone. If anyone would like to goto a firework show with me please ask...

*sniff Sniff*

[faithin_felix]

Dear Createblog Diary,
this few days my internet is not working as well, so can't really post as much. but i had fun. i watched spiderman, hang out with this youth group, Bubble Tea fight
and slept over. =)

-- faithin felix

[inthemudhole]

Dear createBlog Diary,

Hiya. I had an okay day today. I'm extremely tired, however. I've been awake for 39 hours and 47 minutes.. Yes, I kept track. ^_^
I'm shooting for 48 hours or more..
I hung out with my friend Zena today..
I miss Alec.
Oh, well. He's coming back tomorrow for the 4th. =-] I can't wait.
I miss him..
My new shirt roxx0rs. It is an Offspring shirt. :)
Anyway. I'm bored, tired, and a tad bit sad.
I feel like I belong here a bit now, though.
I mean, I was #1 on top 10 posters for the day for a while today.. and I'm now a tad bit more than halfway to the big 1,000 posts.
I feel like I belong.. a little bit.

Well, I guess I'm out.

--Brie

[ryfitaDF]

dear cb diary,

the forth of july is lame. it always reminds me that summer doesn't last forever . oh well. August is coming up which will be fun. i got 3 huge shows i'm lookin forward to.

it's hot out. grrr. i wish i had a drum set. i been playin the air drums alot and i know how good i'm doing it! i realy want a real set! then i'll be a real renecance man . i lvoe my guitars n stuf. and girls are so hott. i wanna kiss them all. laura has a crush on me and i find it laughible for 2 reasons: 1) she has a b'f and 2) it's me.

i need a haircut.

~lunchbox

[LiNHy POO]

oo cool!!

dear diary,
today i went to my friend ricky's house!!! we played video games and hung outside talking and playing sum b-ball!!! then i came home.. took a nap... and got ready to go to hang out with sum other friends... we went to see spiderman 2... very good movie!!!!! then came home... and talked with my boyfriend... haha pretty much it!

[bobbster]

Dear createBlog Diary,
I saw Spiderman 2 today. It sucked big time booty. Then, I went home and ate some ..rolls..thingy. Yerp! It's 1:43 AM. Meaning it's the Fourth of July already! I'm not gonna do anything for it. No fireworks or anything. =/ Stay home and make out with my pillow is the plan. Phantom Memory has a great ending song. I'm listening to it right now. I'm also in the createBlog chatroom. We're talking about Yugi Oh!....
-______-;; Thanks for listening, sweet watermelon gelatin.

---Bob

[*CEP*]

Dear CB Diary,
I made it through a day without taking a shower.
I'll try not to take a shower again tomorrow, but I doubt I can.
We'll see.

- Chinkieeyedpnoi

[Justingamemaster]

This is neat.

Dear Createblog Diary,
Today I went to the BMX track with the male parental unit to go check out the big NBL tournament they had there. There were tons of hot guys, but all were racing, so I didn't get a chance to talk to them. I wanted to invite Sarah (my bestest best buddy, for all that don't know), but she was sleeping when I called. When I arrived at my house, I called her again. We tried to come up with a plan for the day, but realized nothing would work out, so she went and delivered her candles for her youth group instead. We plan to do something on Monday because her and Jolie (our other friend) are planning to go to a concert.

Edit // Last night, I painted my nails and they're all prettyful pink now! *Giggles*

-Kathleen

(Is that how it's supposed to be? )

whats a male parental unit...is that your dad?

[ryfitaDF]

whats a male parental unit...is that your dad?

you are correct.

[crazeegirl411]

Dear createBlog Diary,
I hate "selfish." I think I hated it more than I thought I would. It's another factor to why I hate myself so much. Because I feel so selfish. And then I have to contradict with myself...when they're sad I'm sad, when they're happy I'm happy. But that's not what it seems. It's natural, and I hate that. I have no say on my emotions. I have no power over how I feel or what kind of a person I am. It's like I'm being pushed here or there by everyone. I feel abused. I feel unlike myself, and incomplete. Lost...but never found. I want to know the feeling of being found again. But then...I'll be let down once again. Like any other time.

I've slipped myself away from reality again. I told myself last time, "not again...not again..." but I can't help it. Who could resist? That true appreciation given. That's the point though. It's not TRUE appreciation. They'll forget you. They'll change. They won't talk to you. Everything will fade and you will ponder to yourself why you fell in that trap. Again. I HATE IT I HATE IT!!!

Surely someone will kill me. Surely someone will believe me when I tell them what a selfish little whore I am. Surely someone will tell me I am one. So I don't have to "pretend." So I don't have to keep it inside so much. So I don't have to feel so trapped inside myself. I want to tell someone. I want to tell someone all of this. I want to tell someone about this pain that's never going to stop. Ever. Every second. I can't stop fighting with myself. I can't get over this. I feel horrible. No matter how many times I smile...it couldn't replace anything. It couldn't erase anything. I'm not the person I pose to be.

Why, f*ck it, I'm a hypocrite. I'm a f*cking poser. I hate for caring how the world thinks about me. Why am I caring? Why do I give a damn? Why can't I just let it all out of who I am and all the crap that's in me? Someone I don't know is taking over me. I hate everything that I am right now. I hate selfish people. I hate posers. I hate people who say "I hate...". I hate jealous people. I hate it. I hate lazy people. I hate me.

I seriously want someone to kill me. Run me over. Jump out the street. I'm not that strong. I'm just really weak. Like people always tell me. Like my "friends" always tell me. Even her. I'm even believing someone I loathe the most besides me. She says I'm too emotional. I laugh at her for hating me because I'm too emotional. But I laugh at myself because I'm hating myself for the same f*ckin thing. Everyone's been telling me the answer my whole life.

Even my sister hates me. She could stand everyone but me. I don't see how we're siblings. I don't see how we're related. I don't see how I'm related to anyone. I don't get along with anyone. I can't...do it. I don't feel love. Not anymore. I've had the lack of it for so long...I just feel lost and unloved again even if you shower me with the most care and love you could muster.

I feel hopeless. I feel like it's never going to end. It's been going on for 14 years. I feel like it's going to be too long. I'm dreading it. I'm dreading the rest. I feel like a failure. Worthless. Crap. Sh*t. What's wrong with me? Don't I have a normal and good enough life? Why do I have such a f*cked up mind?

I'm going crazy. And when nobody takes me seriously, I go even more crazier.

I wish I could tell someone. It's really painful. Really...painful. I want someone to kill me.

I don't feel like going out tomorrow. I don't feel like seeing anyone anymore. I feel like trapping myself and just cry. Cry. And wish to die.

[SarahxJoy]

Dear CreateBlog Diary,
(Since technically, my day has just barely started, I'll talk about "yesterday." LoL.) Hey peoplez!! Dang, just got home about twenty minutes ago, and I just got out of the shower. Damn that party was hella' fun!! LoL. I took some pics, but then the batteries on my digital camera died on me!! Which..sucks. Ah well. Nina was actin' like a model and I took pics of her. LoL, they came out prettyful. I'd upload them now and post 'em and all that good stuff, but I just started recharging the batteries, so...Nina! You'll have to wait a while to jack my pics and post 'em on your xanga!! LoL. Mhm. So it was all good and fun. Here's how it goes..(or at least to how I remember it) Oh and.. Happy 14th Birthday Leon!!

We were about the second group of people to arrive at Leon's place. We ate some and the adults were just chatting and the usual. Then Tanya, Myron (dunno if that's how you spell it), and Thomas come over. So yeah. Rozelle and I hang out for a while, since she was following me again, and Gabriel was following Leon. LoL. Rozelle and I were just walking around the house and stuff. There was a band there in the garage, and they're not so bad. Pretty good. Lol.

Mm, anyway, Myron and John start playing some DDR upstairs, then we move it downstairs, since the tv down there is bigger. Rozelle, Leon, and I just watch 'em a while. And so on. Nikko and Nina finally come over, and they play some DDR 'n' stuffage. Mm..then we moved upstairs again. LoL.

For a long while, we're all just talking and things like that, the usual, having a few laughs. Later on, Tanya, Myron, and Thomas leave. So yeah. Then..erm..what else did we do? Oh! We went outside to see what's going on..or something like that. The bands leaves and stuff, talk a while, then we go into the garage. LoL, we started playin' hide-and-seek in the garage with the lights off. Last time was fun, so we tried it again. Lmao. It was hilarious! I was laughing so hard when I heard Nikko scare Nina in the dark. Yeah..during the game..there was some accidental touches. When Leon was it Nikko and I were just sitting on the carpet and all that. So then I stand up when I feel Leon getting close, and suddenly I feel someone grab my leg, so I reach down and try to feel who it is. Accidentally, I touched Leon's butt. LoL. Then Nikko touched mine..ACCIDENTALLY!! Sheesh, what are you people thinkin'? Get your mind out of the gutter. LoL. But..err..yeeeaaah..

After we kinda' get tired of that, we bring out the cake and sing Leon "Happy Birthday". Rozelle, Nina, and I had a plan. That when Leon had his piece of cake in his plate, Nina would push it into his face. We even asked his mom for permission if we could do it. But..sadly, when she tried, it didn't work! But oh well. We got him good when Nina and I started running through the house after Leon with cake in our hands. We got him good. I couldn't stop laughing. Then we started going after the other guys. Nikko was runnin' and then he stopped in front of the counter in the kitchen, so I went to his other side and smashed a huge piece on his cheek! LoL. Nina got him on the other. Lmao. He said it went up his nose though.. Sorry 'bout that Nikko! Lols. Nina got me though. She got me on my cheek and some of it when on my hair, but it's all in good fun. When we tried to get John, he was running like crazy. Lmao. I only got him when we calmed down and he was playing DDR against Nikko. Hahaha. Funneh.

Um, we gave Nikko, Nina, and Auntie Shiela a ride to their house, so it was fun. John, Nikko, Nina, and I were all crammed in the backseat, but we had some laughs. The moon was yellow. Well..orangeish-yellow..LoL. Weird. We saw fireworks when we got close to their house. So prettyful.Then umm..we went into their house for a bit. We saw Mark, that was cool. And guys..lemme tell you..damn, I LOVE their house!!!! It's hella' big and so nicely decorated. LoLs. While we were there though, we just spent most of our time in Nikko's room. He was showin' us some funny stuff from homestarrunner.com..I think it was called. Lol. I had a slice of pizza while we were there, because I really didn't eat all that much while at Leon's. Good pizza. Haha.

Sorry for the long entry..? ;;

[ComradeRed]

CB Diary,

Today I arrived in Malis, the second largest city and Aeonian Port of the Imperial Province of Pontus. The barbarian tribes to the South are engaged in a major revolt. Having been assigned here, under command of the great and brilliant general Traes Ptolemais, I am fully ready to crush this new rebel uprising.

The rebel forces, including many fearsome Scythian tribes, are focused inland, to the South, especially around the cities of Ouranos and Dura Europos. While the coast proper is secured from invasion, rebel raiders have penetrated as far as the capital of Pontus, just ten miles inland, at times.

I had a great talk with the General Ptolemais today. He informed me of the thousands of loyal Imperial soldiers recently slaughtered at the battle of the Cynoscephale Plains. I, however, am not afraid.

I did some combat trials. I love the new Decatian swords. Their iron is very sharp and durable. I used one to execute a captured prisoner of war today. I am very happy that the entire XVI Legion is using these new weapons. Together, we should have no problem to strike fear into those who dare oppose the Emperor of Caltha.

[EmeraldKnight]

CB Diary,

Today I arrived in Malis, the second largest city and Aeonian Port of the Imperial Province of Pontus. The barbarian tribes to the South are engaged in a major revolt. Having been assigned here, under command of the great and brilliant general Traes Ptolemais, I am fully ready to crush this new rebel uprising.

The rebel forces, including many fearsome Scythian tribes, are focused inland, to the South, especially around the cities of Ouranos and Dura Europos. While the coast proper is secured from invasion, rebel raiders have penetrated as far as the capital of Pontus, just ten miles inland, at times.

I had a great talk with the General Ptolemais today. He informed me of the thousands of loyal Imperial soldiers recently slaughtered at the battle of the Cynoscephale Plains. I, however, am not afraid.

I did some combat trials. I love the new Decatian swords. Their iron is very sharp and durable. I used one to execute a captured prisoner of war today. I am very happy that the entire XVI Legion is using these new weapons. Together, we should have no problem to strike fear into those who dare oppose the Emperor of Caltha

Wow Minda... did you write that? That's pretty darn good..

[ComradeRed]

Of course I wrote it lol.

[eboarder2020]

Dear CB Diary


As i stared in amazment at the glowing night I come to realize I've found the best way to describe a perfect kiss. For so long a people have been trying to describe a kiss, or better yet, compare it to something we all know about. Its tonight where I may have found something close to that perfect kiss. Before every big firework show there is so much talk, and so much curiosity of what the firework show may hold. Before everything there is the anticipation that everyone thinks about. The questions of "Whats it gonna be like" or "Is it gonna be long, short, colorful" is always asked amoung the crowd. And just like every kiss thats been waited for, you always ask yourself, how is this kiss going to turn out, how is this going to happen, what will it be like. We've all been there, and we all know what kind of questions we ask ourselves. And then "BOOM". The boom isnt the horrible sound of a mistake, but the boom is the heartbeat we have when the kiss happens. The beat may be irregular, and loud, nervous, and rushed, but its strong and passionate. And as the night sky is lit of with different colors, it shows how beutiful and liveley, and noticable your perfect kiss is. Slowly and softly the sparks turn to afterglow and your just there in the moment finally realizing that your perfect kiss has just happend to you. When the show is all said and done, your left lightheaded and live. Your body doesnt know whether to stand up, or sit down, and your left breathless in your shoes only longing for that feeling again...

I spent my 4th of July at a simple park with a beutiful girl by my side and great friends who just wanted to be with people who cared about them. This would be my second year not being with someone on this 4th of July. Which is sad but its funny how i always wanted to kiss under a glowing night sky, how I always wanted to be with someone I love under the burning after glow. Its also funny how everyone in my group wanted the same thing. There was no Eric, no kelly, no matt, no Jon, no Sean, no Rachel, no Alea, no significant others in our group. We were all single, and we all missed someone. As I looked around at my friends I can tell that this 4th or July was meant to be celebrated with someone else, but all of us, had nothing else... As we all sat in our little group, some of us in huddles, others in chairs, some just sitting next to each other, there was nothing but smiles all around. Our night sky was painted so beutiful and so prestine that it can never be repeated. For many people watching the same show, it was a celebration, but for people in the group it was so much more. It wasnt just a firework show, but for us 10, it was like watching a whole 20 minetes of bright and elegant shooting stars... We wished on every single one of them...