I'm in love, And she left me Options

[Euphorian]

Created a new account for privacy's sake.

How should I put this? Alright, she, one day, popped into my life, she was a friend of someone I knew, and I immediatly felt this warm feeling when she first talked to me...I thought maybe...but I quickly put that in the back of my mind, and I continued to get to know her, and I started to like her. We would have hours of conversations, and we would always have something to say. It was so exciting to talk to her... So one day, I was talking to her on the phone, and she started up the conversation that she heard someone tell her that I liked her.

So, I was thinking, "shit!" I didnt really want to tell her yet, but it just happened... We went out for about 2 months, ( yes, 2 months, but before you call me an idiot for loving her after 2 months, read what I have to say. Er....try to say. ) All was well, and I liked her alot, but I didn't think it was love quite yet...but I felt like I may soon love her...

So then, I introduced her to my friend, and they talked...a little too much. They started talking, and they would have their inside jokes, and what-not. So, am I wrong to become jealous? My friend continued to talk about my girlfriend, and how she was nice and all, I know, compliments are compliments, but he was talking about her toomuch. Ah! The aggravation.

I told her I was jealous after about 2 weeks of keeping it inside, and then she dumped me. Ouch. I went over to my friends house, ( yes the same friend , and no, I didn't bring a bat to his head like some people may do. ) and I...cried...never had I thought I would cry over a girl.

What was worse was...he didn't realize, that it was his fault too. I felt stuck, unable to move...I cheered up in 2 hours or so, but I still felt empty...She said she still wanted to be friends, but you know what? I realized how you girls/guys always want to be friends after you tear out our hearts and shove it down our god-damn throats.

But I guess at least she wants to be friends? She did some other stuff that was pretty mean, but I'm not gonna say, just because. After she dumped me, and a few days later, even though she was doing all this mean stuff to me after she dumped me, I realized...I...love her... Even now, I want to talk to her, but I just can't unless she first talks to me...I know that I love someone I can't have...Its frustrating to know that when your heart aches for that person..to be close...

I heard from someone she still likes me...Then the question arises, like, WHY DID SHE DUMP ME? I couldn't go back out with her, even if she did like me...I just can't. Yes, I want to go out with her, but it won't be the same. I won't have happy conversations with her, and being close with her wont be the same. So now, I say again, just to end it because this is a long-ass post.

I love her.