Making the pick. Options

[Maccabee]

Thing is, im a player and jerk.

A little history...
There was this really cute girl, a little shorter then me and I liked her and she liked me and we never said we were officially dating because she wasn't aloud (stupid dating in jr high) but I only realized now that she must have seen it as dating. This is the part where I am a total douche. I stopped having feelings for her, because I didnt want to non officially date and I mean, she is a "conservative" girl... and I felt like i had achieved my goal of getting her. I know...I know... so I just kind of lost contact and didnt give any closer. Obviously for that she hates me but she is still in love with me. Then I finally regained contact with this girl that I went to camp with and I had a crush on her at camp and turns out so did she... have one on me... so we talked and I decided that I would ask her out when she got back from idaho. I didnt tell her that of course. Well I didnt talk to her on the phone for one day and she felt like I didnt want her... O crap... a needy girl... well anyways I saw that other girl today and well she was really cute and her friends were all bugging me about how I broke her heart blah blah blah... well the thing is... i like both of those girls... does this make me a jerk? Can it not be real if it isnt an obvious choice, ya know? So should I think about it then follow my heart and pick one? That seems like a jerky thing to do? ya know? whatevs... more like me typing what im feeling.

O and of course they both arent Caucasian... hehehe. I dont do Caucasian. but they arent black or mexican... hehe.

O and if I were to "pick" you might want some info...

girl one = short, cute, Vietnamese, doesnt like spreading the love.
girl two = also short, cute, European, needy, messed up family, likes spreading the love.

And of course... I will look back it this in two years and laugh. Dating when you dont even have a car is stupid in my opinion.

I will now gaurd myself for the responses to come.