I'm [still] in love with my best friend, =( Options

[vietbabiiix3]

Have you ever been in love with your best friend? I think I'm in the worst case scenario right now, because he has a girlfriend of three years. We've been best friends for almost a year now... and let's say our friendship isn't "friendly" but to the point of boyfriend girlfriend... last year, he broke up with his girlfriend because he fell for me. Long story short, I didn't want to be the third person, because I had just gotten out of a relationship and he still admitted to loving his current girlfriend a lot. In the end, they got back together, and our friendship diminished...

I felt really heartbroken at one point because he chose her over me, but to some extent, I guess that's what I wanted to happen, so I never blamed him for anything. I guess it just sucks because I came after? But yeah, anyways, now he came back claiming... he still has feelings for me, and I didn't really know how to approach that. And... what's worse is that during the past month or so, he has cheated on his girlfriend with me... and I feel so guilty, yet he still claims he loves her. To everyone else and to myself, I probably look stupid saying that he is two timing the both of us, but we're best friends.

He makes it really confusing when we're close to the level of a romantic relationship where he tells me he loves me, to flat out rejecting me by saying "we're just friends, nothing more, nothing less" or going to call his girlfriend and ditching me. And it just sucks, because I can't avoid him no matter how much I want to. Because if I tell him how I feel, he always goes.. "but we're best friends." What I'm saying here is I don't want our friendship to end, I don't want to go back to that period where we didn't talk, because I care for him a lot. But I can't take it. It's just our chemistry - when we're together... it's not a friendship.


CB members - what should I do?