Love Square...?, This situation is really fcked up... Options

[vietbabiiix3]

Well my recent boyfriend of 1 year and 3 months had broken up with me... Our relationship was perfect, and I couldn't find a reason why he broke up with me. He kept hiding things from me, and supposedly said "I don't understand him." He's my first love... and I was heartbroken and so confused... I couldn't find a reason why he broke up with me. He acted like a jerk too, but I couldn't understand because he had changed so much. I became so depressed... so lonely... and I just had no one to turn to... Then one day, his "ex" best friend (like they don't hang out nomore ever since I became his gf) started to talk to me. And I told him all about how my relationship had ended. I just needed a friend to talk to, and I hope that him being my bf's best friend, he would know my situation better. And he was already in a relationship of two years and they were still strong... Yet... we kept on talking, more and more... and we both were so happy to talk to each other. And he seemed as if he was bored of his current girlfriend. And he didn't call her one day because he was talking to me all day so she broke up with him..

I don't know.. at first.. I wanted to like flirt wtih him to get revenge on my ex-bf. Which was foolish.. cuz his best friend was starting to really like me... And he admitted his feelings for me. And he was so nice.. I guess I liked him too... I don't know though... and his ex girlfriend is like stalker creepy.. And after liking each other, we both felt it was wrong... I felt like the third person in this... so we decided to be "just friends"... But he didn't treat me as his friend.. He treat me as more than that.. yet he still loves his ex-gf.. And now.. his ex-gf knows about us. And soon my ex will know too... and I'm really scared. I don't want to hurt him.

But like I don't feel I did anything wrong... We were both single, and the fcat that we always thought about my ex and his ex and how we decided to be just friends. But I can't deny the fact that I really like this guy. Yet I'm still torn between whether I like him or I stil love my ex... I'm so ughh.. What do I do now.. Everyone thinks I'm like a slut or something for liking my ex bf's best friend.... -_-'