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[flutterby88]

uh-oh, i have a crush *blushy face*. the more we get to know each other... i hope i'm not being too obvious. and i hope i'm not reading him wrong. we get along so well, is he just a nice guy? i need a sign. or should i just go for it? not yet, still got some figuring out to do. i have wandering eyes after all. but right now, he's all i can think about. that whole day was out of a movie. oh dear, i hope i don't end up falling too hard.

[S-Majere]

Dear Diary,

Another new year. I can still remember celebrating 2000 - so much so that these others seem mere dreams.

So, I'm 20 this year - 21 next year. That's damn scary. I kid you not, I feel like a 12 year old caught with her hand in the cookie jar most of the time.

It's Ian and myself's second year together this year. I cannot remember a time when I have felt happier or more certain about such a wonderful future.

Sitting here now, 1:05am January 1st 2008 with a pint of Carlsberg Export and a shitload of sweets. Can't wait for this year to show me what it's got.

[Crash2]

Dear cB Diary,

I can't believe it's already 2008. I didn't think this year would come so fast. It should be fun though. Lots of changes are going to go on this year, so all I can do is hope for the best.

Here's to the new year. Ready or not, here it comes (or is.)

[Jinny]

Dear cB Diary,

I really hope we can start all over again.. since it's a new year and everything?

[MrStrife]

Dear cB diary,

I had the best new year's eve ever. First time I had a countdown with my friends and I couldn't ask for more. I mean yeah it got shitty when I had to babysit grown ass people because they wanted to keep a girl around from being guilty, but whatever. Shit tell you the truth, even though them fools wanted to make me feel guilty, I didn't at all. She offered for the gas, movies, and food. Yeah it was a lot but I didn't ask and didn't force her to do anything unlike them. I had fun and wasn't stressing like them bitches. Only thing I did feel guilty was leaving my other friends to babysit them. It was f**ked up because I didn't get as drunk as everyone else and I was hanging out with them and they felt as though I ditched them. I think I made it up to them tonight though. I got madd drunk off drinking games and damn they got me with the doodles. I think they even drew on my ass too. The bastards! Gotta love 'em. But getting them sooner than they think.

[stephinika]

Dear cB diary,

So new years actually turned out to be pretty damn good, which I'm happy about. Yeah, there were a few hitches during the day, but overall it was so much fun and I got to spend so much time with him. I can't believe its been so long already. Wow. But yeah...2008 is here. So many things I want to accomplish this year, so hopefully all goes well.

[Jinny]

Dear cB Diary,

I think we're growing more and more apart everyday.. I wish that didn't happen It's all _____'s fault. If she never came in the picture, it wouldn't be like this! I think we're really not anything anymore.. gaah. It was going on perfectly until she decided to ruin my life..

[flutterby88]

i love being 19 and having a car:D. that's all i have to say.

[MrStrife]

Dear cB diary,

I'm just going to stop feeling sorry for myself. It's a new year and a chance to fix my relationships.

[iDecay]

Dear cB Diary,

I have a feeling this year is going to be much much much better than last year. I'm excited! Everything's great, finally.

[markmejia]

Dear cB Diary,

I hope one of your pages rips.

Mark

[Crash2]

Dear cB Diary,

I hope I wake up early tomorrow. I've been waking up so late lately... It's a bad way to start the new year! So yeah, I need to get back to waking up early since school starts back up next Wednesday. :-/

Justin

[deplorable]

dear diary.

i want to kill her. ive already planned where to hide the body.

[tokyo-rose]

Dear cB diary,

I've only been back in school for two days and I'm already so tired.

[flutterby88]

i need to stuff my face with chocolate NOW

[flutterby88]

wow... i've never felt like a bigger idiot. why do i have to go and take that the wrong way and then open my fat mouth... oh god i hope everything goes ok from here. i'm such an idiot. i give up. i hate men

[MrStrife]

Dear cB diary,

WTHECK MAN?!?! Why out of all days to break out, it had to be this weekend? I know there's a big surprise when homie made sure I was going to be there and he was going to take me out. For a fact whatever party it is, I'm going to get down but my bad skin condition is only going to make me more self-conscious. GRRR. Whatever. Guess I'm pretty upset because of the fact that I thought I'd be over this issue when I got older. I got no one to impress anyways.

[jayybee]

dear CB diary,


im really excited that i get to start 2008 fresh. i mean i get to reinvent myself into someone that everybody is going to go head over heals for. no, im not doing it for any boy or anyhting, i'm doing it for me. i noticed that i can be real loud, outspoken, && rude to people, & thats not cool. i want to be known as the quiet, sometimes gets involved, great to be around chick that everyone will gravitate to. it's important for me. i'm getting a new hair color tomorrow && i got a new beau to show it off too. well, he's not officially mine yet, but in due time. & i'm just glad i got to go shopping again because that helped me realize what & who i wanted to be in 2008. my clothes define me. im gonna focus more on myy cooking & school work now that i got accepted to the California Culianary Academy in San Francisco!xD!!suppppperrrrr excited about starting in the fall. i'm about to graduate which is a big step for me because i'm going to be on my own for the first time in 17 years. [thats how long i been living.] its great that i get to go off && do my thing as a soon-to-be chef =D. it's my passion & i want to take it for the long run. im dancing more. which is something i've been doing since i could walk. it helps me express me. i don't know. i just feel like it's a new start, & i'm ready to take it by the horns & run with it.


well until next time..

jayybee signing out.

[DarkInsanityxx]

Dear cB Diary,
Wow i forgot how good it felt to write well lately its all been ok from the incident that happened during summer. My boyfriend and I will make 6 months this month, wow i never thought that we would last trust me i didn't think we would. It's been a long scary road for me and him most people were against and all New years was the day he met my family well the rest of it like my uncle, aunt, cousins ect. it was awesome. But lately thats not the thing that bothering me there is a lot of things on my mind that i don't know how to express myself i mean it was cool at the beginning but i guess now it's getting serious so yeah i mean it should be cool to be in a serious relationship but i'm sort of scared because of the many times that people have hurt me i don't want to feel that pain anymore. I was Philophobic and the boyfriend i'm with is the only one to get me out my phobia but still as hard as he tired it's easy to end it all as well. I highly doubt he will but yeah we have our up's and downs as a usual couple, i'm just letting time do what it does best let's see where it leads me.

Now, school talk ugh!!! dude regents are coming up do you think i'm really? HELL NO! but i will try my best this whole week i mean i past my freshman regents but that was nothing dude i guess i'll try what i can do is just give it my "best" xD but it's cool. School is getting funner hanging out with my friends they are fu*king hilarious i love them. They have a band to its awesome they played at our school Christmas show back in december. They kick ass. they are the reason why i love FLC, they were the ones who brought me to my first concert xD

[tokyo-rose]

Dera cB diary,

My 17th birthday is coming up, but I want to stay 16. Hm.

[iDecay]

Dear cB Diary,

I'm just.. so confused right now. I don't know what to think. My head is driving me crazy.

[Crash2]

Dear cB Diary,

School starts up again tomorrow... WHY?!

Justin

[luku]

Dear cb Diary

If someone had told me how it really felt to grow up, I would have found a way to stay a kid forever. I'm like completely broke from paying my bills, and school is going to start soon...arg. Being an adult sucks !

[ChangeofHeart]

Dear Cb diarry,

Today there was a drug bust a school, coolest shit ever. They put cops by the school exits so no one could leave. I was eating lunch when it happend and saw them arrest a guy, they didnt tackle him or nothing. They just grabed him, frisked him, found nice little baggies on him. They read him his rights and cuffed him and took him away. Pretty cool to watch but I feel bad for him cause now he is focked.

[lisaaaaaaa]

Dear cB diary,

every day i have this constant fear that i'm going to fail in life. my grades are almost all b's, and it's shameful. since my brother was a slacker in school and went to a community college, there's this huge pressure for me to do well and go to a good college. i constantly compare myself to others, even my boyfriend, mister straight a's-class president-principal of cello of his orchestra. i hate being jealous of him all the time. and i hate feeling jealous towards everyone who gets a's. on top of all of that, i don't even think i DESERVE an a. in the beginning of the year, i slacked off so much in school. with cheer, school, and trying to be involved in everything caused me to have no energy whatsoever to do any schoolwork. i forgot to write down homework so i didn't do it, bsed my essay, and slept in class. and now, i've been working my ass off just to try to raise my grades up to an a. and all my b's are all 88's, 89's. i feel like i'm not smart at all. it takes me so long to get things, and i never know what to do. and with all these flaws, how is any college ever going to accept me? it feels like everyone knows what to do and i'm the oddball out. i feel like this is also caused by my self-esteem. maybe if i believed in myself, i wouldn't be doing this horrible. but for the past 6 years, i've NEVER been okay with myself. i always pick out my flaws and taunt myself.
this sucks. i hate school. and i think i'm beginning to hate myself.