so betrayed it sucks.. Options

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me and this guy named jeremy dated for close to 2 yrs. we were rly close to each other and i loved him alot. i ended up breaking up with him because he had become like rly distant and he didn't seem like he wanted to be with me anymore so i ended things. well we had still been in contact and everything. well last night he called me and we were talking and i just asked him if he had been dating anybody and he was like well i was and i asked him how long he had been with her and he said a few months...well first of all me and him have oly been broken up for a few months so i started trying to figure out if maybe he had been cheating on me and thats why he had become so distant so i asked him when i had started dating her he said after his bday which was June 5th.. well he was in the army and had been supposedly sent to iraq and was on his way home during that time..and he had promised he'd call me on his bday well guess what he didn't because he was f**kin another girl..and now that he let it slip and i know he cheated on me he's still denying it and it hurts. i mean i had rly loved him and cared about him i mean he had even bought me an engagement ring but now i feel like all that was just a load of bullshit and i feel like what if he lied to me about everything else to i feel like i wasted 2 yrs of my life on a person who just betrayed me from the very beginning and it sucks..i mean i ended up crying myself to sleep last night...i can't believe i actually thought he loved me and cared about me and even tho im not with him anymore it hurts to kno that he did that to me..it hurts so much and i mean yea ppl make mistakes i mean when i was mad at him one time and he had broken up with me i ended up kissing another guy..and he got pissed at me bc he was like you knew i'd come back to you..but look what he did to me when we were still together he lied about being in iraq...he f**ked another girl..and then still had the guts to talk to me and tell me he loved me...i just feel so stupid for not catching on sooner...

sorry this is so long guys i just needed to vent and let it out..