1:14am Options

[WillTeddy]

Its 1.14am now

Ahh dwelling in this darkness that engulfs my vision

The aura of light emitting from the monitor is shining on the wound on my hand

The music in my ears filling my world with a sense of deep sadness

Slowly draining away the power i have left in my body

The chill of the night vibrates down my spine

My head shakes and spins as winter takes hold of me

Am I alone?

I don't know

Is there a god out there to answer my prayers?

I don't know

Although I don't follow religion at all

Sometimes I just wish there was a greater power out there to watch over me

Watch as I grow

From a sprout

To a tree

Watch me as I sleep

Watch as I wake

Watch me as I live

What would happen if my branches were to fall to the ground

What will happen to me

If I were to lose something precious to me

Would be the pain heal me in time

Or will the tragedy attract a greater despair

Travelling through the tunnel of darkness

I crawl through with my aging limbs

Struggling to move

I tell myself things will be alright

Will it be alright?

Will I be able to achieve my dreams?

Will I be able to dream?

I'm scared

At every crossroad there will be a decision left for my soul to decide

The split second as a tear trails down from my lady's cheeks

The split second as a life precious to me passes away

The split second

I must...

Walk...

Walk through the plains of the unknown

Neither suffocating or choking on the venom of this place

I will move

There will be many sorries I must say to the people that mean a lot to me

And sorry to the memories that I neglected to acknowledge

Sorry to my parents who gave their lives to me

But I must go

I must become me

I am not the butterfly who will spread its wings and fly

But I am the human who walks a road and admires its beauty

If there is one moment I regret in this life

It is the time I let her out of my sight

Disappear into nothingness

Like she never existed

There is always a solution to life

The problem is if you want to walk its journey

I'm still engulfed in darkness

And embraced by the chills of winter

But I am strong

Because...

I'm sure

It's there

For me