here i am on my own, urm just putin out feelers see who likes them Options

[cherry90]

Here I am sitting on my own in the world.
Not because they all desert me because I desert them
I hurt them because I say things I don’t mean
I hurt them because I desert them when they try and help

For all of gods power to keep me in life
I just wanna take my life away
To put people out of their misery
To allow them to forget

I will never forgive myself for the life I choose
There will always be something that I wish I did
Always something I wish I hadn’t
Surely there’s a better life than this

If any one has an answer I can take
And an answer that will give me hope
Or an answer that will give me courage
Please give it to me now.

This is a final declaration
Of how I feel the way I never let it show
For all the people who try and help
I never let them in for fear of hurting

This isn’t the hurt I feel I don’t care about me
It’s the hurt they feel when I say the things
That hurt me deep. Deep down inside
That’s where it hurts when I can’t help them help me

I will not resort to pain
Cutting or purposely injuring myself
But it feels as if that is the only way out
Of the life I feel I’m swimming through.