Dear cB Diary,, Createblog Diary no. 10 Options

[alysaphobia]

Dear cB Diary,

I hate being sick, but I guess it saves me from those long summer runs everybody gets peer pressured into doing to prep for x country season. Ahh... free from soreness, for once!!
Today I rented out a few movies with my brothers... fun fun. Oh, and we made a whoppingly tall Jenga tower. Of course, Andrew smashed it. Nice one, bro...

Alysa

[concreteangel]

Dear CB diary:

I'm praying that I can get through these next two weeks and get a great externship site and get hired on. I really need a great job.

[panther]

WOW life is going so fast, graduating already tommorow comes another banquet and breakfast
3 parties this weeekend and i've whored myself this week too
man this is amazing everything is going by so quick
and i'm going to terat myself wow

[iGio]

Dear cb,

Agh stuck in school.Today was soooo boring but everyone is complimenting me on my shirt.Just wait till tomorrow .I have my ipod blasted on these ugly headphones of my brothers,thanks to stephanie my other ones that evelyn gave me that go like real high in volume,broke.Ughy.Then this kid on the other side of the computer is pissing me off.He keeps moving his legs up and down like his whole lower body like hes effin humping the table.It's so distracting and I really wanna scream stop.It's urking my nerves.I wanna go home and eat corn chips.I dont wanna sit in math class for 45 minutes.Im so pissed off because in art that stupid b-tch shanique put her umbrella tip which was dirty on my new WHITE rebooks.She got something on it too and i told my mom i shouldnt have worn them today.Everytime i have a new pair of sneakers people wanna eff them up as if they pay for my sh-t.And the worse part they are already creased.UGH.I wish school was over jesus.And WENDY omfg how she said i look like matt?EW no he has nappy hair,let alone its black and red and ugly.My hair is dirty blonde,and im light and hes dark.And then she said he wants me.Thats disgusting like omg and then he plays around too much.Like flirty play.I dont role that way,i would only for my monkey and thats all.But other than that my heart is stolen and never came back :D so he cant have me.And hes older ew.

Bleh now i want some dippin dots x___x save me.
-Leon

[NgocQuyen]

dear cB,
i'm pretty happy at the moment. lol anh thien and anh son are actually talking to me like i'm their little sister again. it makes me happy. haha :) and anh quy actually talked to me as well? hehe. that was pretty cool. i'm starting to feel a lot better actually. hehe. i'm happy to know that they put things behind them and are considering me as their little sister again. that would probably be the main reason why i've been so unhappy. lol. that and i don't get to see thuan. :[ it makes me so sad. lol. but i'm due to see him in 8 days !! wee! i'm excited ! alright. well, i have work to do at 9 AM tomorrow morning! sooo good night. maybe. :)

[angelrevelation]

Dear Cb Diary,

Seniors graduated today...

One of the weirdest things I'm scared about graduating in two years is that, what if no one cheers for me? Did I go to school with all these people for three+ years and not have an impact on them at all? Would I really be that unmemorable...?

[*stephinika*]

Dear cB diary,

God, I feel so tired for no reason at all...I blame it on the crappy weather that has come back. Ah well.
It was nice of him to come over today for awhile...I love just being with him, whether we're being silly, serious, naughty, bahaha...tomorrow's dinner should be fun but I am soo excited for Thursday, and especially Whistler...23 days! I can't wait.

[iGio]

Dear cb,

I just got back from being outside all day with kristina.Haha the little fat f-ck on the bike wanted to fight me because he was going to fast and almost hit me but swirved and made a stupid noise to me and then i said i hope you fall so he came back around and asked his mommma if he should say something to me.So i kept walking because i couldnt hit him and if i would of OOOH MAN god bless that child.Then he followed me and kristina but crossed the street and rode his bike and said something to me and i told him if he got something to say,say it to my face.He stood across the street like a morena whos always talking crap.

Then i walked kristina home and bam david and dominic showed up.Dominic is one of my best guy friends dont me wrong but me and him have had our arguements but david is like a life time of hate.So he pulled kristina like dragging her and she was like stop,and it was in front of my aunt,my mom and their friends.They all think that is my girl friend too.I mean david is really disrespectful he said hi to me and asked how i was doing then turned around and told me that he didnt like me and if i knew.And kristina told him not to say hi to me and i was like w/e because i had my little sister and im not about to go off because she gets scared when i do.

-sigh-I love when people want to start in my territory.If you got a problem then say it to my face,or walk the hell away.Because i dont stay in the cycle of drama i end it.Period.My heart is like full of hate right now.I was reading up on starvation and all the things that could happen.It worried me a bit but im still gonna go through with it.I mean no one can stop me.Everyone is trying to my superhero,im out of control i know.But i cant hold back no more,i got too much to deal with.And the only person who can stop me is my everything and i will never ever get to see my everything but besides in my dreams and flick pics in magazines.Everyone is judging me.I'm feeling sentimental.I want to cry and I only feel tears building up.

I've gained an obession,you've become my prized posession,that cant be taught in any art class or lesson.Im in love but im at war.I swore over and over i wouldnt let this be but now look at the me im at the tips of envy.Save me now,hear my battle cry,before i die i wish to say goodbye.I loved you all along now It's time to end this song.Floating in the dark,deep suspension,my heart followed you longer than a wire extension.You came into my dreams and made me believe i was more then that special somebody.You gave me hope you gave me sleep you gave me your name and i could call you baby.Call me now hold me later,catch my tears and hold my tight,and tell me you love me till the end of the night.

I really want to cry right now.I dont know what to do.

Edit//:O oh man.I M I N L O V E x x x :D


-Leon

This post has been edited by EtherxWhisper: Jun 5 2007, 09:13 PM

[Jinny]

Dear cB Diary,

I feel so stupid. Why couldn't I remember that one little thing? I swear, I really think that I left it in the halls. Wtf? I'm really stupid. What if I lost my whole binder? I'd get detention for like the rest of the year =x UGH. I really, really hope that my English binder is in my locker tomorrow. I hope it's not on the floor. I'm gonna go to school early tomorrow to look for it

[DarkInsanityxx]

Dear cB Diary,

Well today I thought nothing in the world could go wrong at school, but obviously i was wrong real wrong. It happened during 8th period, me and my friend were just sitting in our english class talking since we had already taken our final. Since the morning my left eye has be twitching. And you know that little statement if your left eye twitches something bad will happen and if you right eye twitches its a good thing, well yeah my left eye had been twitching since i left my house. And i've been dating this guy for not such a long time but hell i fall in love to easy. I never knew why but it happens. im usually the one everyone like to gass up because its easy to do it to me. So yeah...he comes and tells me, "I think we should end this relationship, because this relationship can't continue." so i just nodded my head and was just in shock. Now at first i thought hey its probably cause since he's a senior, he's leaving so i guess its ok. But when i went downstairs to my next class room there he was messing with someone else. So my whole heart dropped like i couldnt talk or anything. I just stood quiet that whole time i was there. once i left the school on the express train i just started to tear. Like i didnt know other people were around me i just went into my own little world. So see im always wondering why it always happens to me but i guess its whatever now all i can do is move on and just cry a little. I mean hopefully tomorrow i get to spend time with my brother Leon and Kristina. Maybe it would get my head out of it all. Hopefully.....

But honestly at the moment i just like want to call him a f**ker and everything. Like...so much is in my heart that i want to say to him but i dont have the strength to do it. I just rather keep shut about all my emotions and just continue on smiling like mi Tio told me to. He's words continued in my head today. "Always have a smile on your face no matter what. Its good for you." I never really understood it till sometime ago before he past away. Maybe right now the thing about the BF isnt bothering. Cause i mean...i may just be using it as an excuse for what i really feel. My dad he's an alcholic and well it hurts that i cant do anything to help. i tried and tried to help over and over again but nothing. Seeing him spit blood, throw up blood and just see blood stains everywhere....its scary to think that one day i might come home and he might not be breathing anymore. even though i say i hate my father he is still my father when i needed something he was there..but..its very hard to force myself to come home and just smile to my father. Probably thats the true reason im crying. Cause it certainly feels that way. Maybe also the reason i fall in love quickly is cause if god forbid my father dies...i need someone to comfort me...or something i dont know. But...its to much to think and say about my situation about what i've been threw its actually unbelievable that i can still smile. But i will no matter what i will....i must....i have to.....Smile

-Kami

[iGio]

Dear cb,

Yesturday before bed.I sang my heart out,it felt good.I want to sing in front of one of my friends now.I dont know why,just for fun i guess?.Anywho im super bored and nervous.Next period is my math final and oh my god sirhumpalot just walked in -.-.Totally ruined my mood.But im listening to my monkey :D so im happy.

w00t tomorrow is now school.Which means i can rest!!!!!!.I have to go get my hair cut after school for the sweet 16 on friday.Hmmm then after that i have to wait till 3 then going out with kristina for a bit.I'm starting to get dizzy all over again ever since i stopped eating.Hmmm.Well now stacy knows i like/liked her.Stephanie told her yesturday,oh well.Mmm mango bubble tea sounds good right about now.O: to quicklys this saturday!!!!!!!!!.Mr.kane was pissed at me,well sarcastically bitchy fit mad.I told him im not coming tuesday.Hello why waste my time in school on the last day when we are only going to sit and talk?Hmm?When i could be out at the beach or in front of my house listening to music.

So he told me that i better finish my project fast.I dont really care about his stupid project.I got my credits,and i might be moving anyway.So in anyother state my grades will follow me but at least i wont have to take art again.OMFG,mr.li just pushed the test to monday.UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.So pissed off like really.Wtf the next day is gonna be the last day of school.Why not just give it to us friday?!Or dont give it at all.AND FINALLY THAT KID IS NOT HUMPING SOMETHING!.

Im about to faint.My vision went blurry in english i could barely see but it came back to me.Blahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

I want food but im not going to eat.X________X and i really want a milkshake too -cries-

-Leon

[michellerrific]

dear cbd,
Tomorrow is the last day of school. I can't believe the year passed by so fast. I'm not a freshman anymore. A lot of people have changed, I've come to see, mostly in negative ways. High school was totally different. A lot of memories already so far and yet many more to come.

As far as I think about it, it seems as if i haven't been in much of a positive state for a really really long time. What happened? I smile but that doesn't mean I'm happy. Most of the time something is pissing me off and making me angry. Or I just don't have positive attitude anymore.

[iDecay]

Dead CBD,

Today was fun. I got to hand out with Michelle for like.. 11 hours. I screwed over my plan of going on all the scary rides because she was afraid, but it was still awesome. I also screwed over my plan for trying to find.. him.. and somehow ( ) sitting next to him on a ride. He did call me Bob though when I was running past him. It made me smile. (Lol, I'm lame.) Basically, Mr. 'Hi, I'm-gay-and-I-spend-$3,000-at-American-Eagle-every-month,' and Ms. 'I-think-I'm-better-than-Tina' wouldn't stop screaming so Michelle and I ditched them. We just met up with random people throughout the whole time. 10+ times in Bigfoot Rapids is TIRING. We saw him there, though. We were going to mix some girls with guys on the last two rides, but the boys were just too stubborn. Thus, I fail at getting near him. Somewhere along the time between screaming and running around I lost my jacket. Kekeke @ him and his friends trying to find it. It was cold. My shirt and pants were drenched. PEOPLE COULD START SEEING MY BRA AND UNDIES. (Wow, next time I'm wearing jeans and a black t-shirt. No more thin yellow owl shirt and white pants.) I was freezing to death. My mom yelled at me. I'm now sick and will have to let my team down in Science class. Oh man, this sucks.


Ehh.. ramble ramble.

[*alovesopure*]

Dear cB Diary,
I'm so glad that he is happy. Even though, I wanted to be with him. As long as he is happy, so am I. I just hope that there is someone out there for me, I doubt it. But maybe, possibly.
And g*dd***it! I'm so sad that Coop will be leaving for the Navy soon. I don't want him to leave.
Jeeeezzzzzzz.
-Rawra.

[ashleybby]

dear cb,
today sucked. it really did. i am so sick of always looking at his myspace and seeing his messages to her. they make it seem like they love each other yet they have only been going out for a couple of days. did he have a little relationship with her while me and him were going out? i dont see how, in one week he could change his mind about me and change his feelings about me and leave me for another girl. it doesnt make sense. if you really love someone, your feelings wouldnt change in one week. i understand he is curious about dating other girls. but cant he still date me and other girls? we could still be on a break but seeing other people. i would give anything for him to be mine again. i am lost without him. i dont get why he doesnt love me anymore. things seemed perfect. even the day that he left, things were perfect and we were both happy. maybe he is just a really good actor and i believed all the lies he fed me.
i am real tired of crying myself to sleep at night. i already can tell tonight i will be crying. like always. i am tired of it. and i wish more than anything that he will move back to vegas and see that i am the one for him.
no one can love him as much as i can. why cant he see that?? does he not want to see that??
i dont know when this depression is going to get over. but i hate her. i hate her. i hate her. i would rather him be dating lauren then her.
:[ why wont he see how much this is hurting me??
-ashley

[cocoarules]

Dear cB diary,

I am proud of myself being able to let go of it. I never expected I could get over it so quickly. Or maybe I had never cared? Iono.

Love
Ruby

[DarkInsanityxx]

Dear cB Diary,

Ok well so far so good....i think. well the injury is still there but i guess it cant be helped....Now yesturday was actually pretty fun. Leon and Kristina there awsome i love them. I actually did get my mind off that situation. We went to Duane reade you know that pharamacy, well all we did was sit our butts down on those comfortable chair and just read magazines. I found this book that actually pretty good so i bought along with some gel pens to write with. Actually i was honestly looking for Sharpies to write with but they didnt have the colorful ones so blah. that really sucked ass. But overall it was fun. As of today i dont know if we all can go out again. Honestly i would actually want to and just go sit somewhere nice in quiet like you know in some of those movies you go and sit on the grass and read or something and you see the wind blowing threw there hair or something...xDDDD sounds corny i know but heh never hurts to imagine. But either way i want to go somewhere, where i can read or have fun or something. Well hopefully it happens.

-Kami

[iGio]

Dear cb,

Woke up an hour ago.Now I'm not as tired as I was.But I'm still bored x__x.Eating a bagel-bacon sandwhich.Going on maple to try to lvl my bandit to lvl 30 already x___x then im gonna get him to lvl 36 and keep on working on my cleric and get it to lvl 70 since its only lvl 36 xD.Then continue on my bandit.I had a dream about my monkey.It was cool but was at the last 5 minutes of the dream.Which was OK but I wished it could have been longer before I woke up.Yesturday was fun,even though my hands got really rough from the swing bars.But It was fun to go to the park for a while,I mean it isnt everyday I get a chance to go to the park without any thugs or druggies being there.I'm bored,I want a cherry or green apple smirnoff.I'm not completly starving my self either.I mean,I am eating a little but not as much as i should be.But hey I lost weight so im happy.

-Leon

[minioligo]

dear cb diary,
i've been working so hard to be everything that i promised i wouldn't be.

why is that?

[Rachel]

I can't believe it's almost been a month away from school, or shall I say home. I miss being up at IC soo much, and I can't believe I am going to see my baby in two days!! He is so wonderful to me and I feel like I can trust him completely. Even though it was hard, I am glad that we talked about Tom and how awful he was to me. I love that he said he wanted to go beat him up after hearing that he cheated on me. I love him so much and everything about this relationship has been soo perfect...so far.

Why am i scared of being happy?

[iGio]

Dear cb,

This hurts.The starving was killing me today,I felt my stomach chewing on my insides.It hurt so bad but . .I dont know.I took my global final last period.My teacher said I did very good and I really didnt study but I told her I did xD.Today everyone was like "pr or dr" and all the dominicans asked me that and when I said dr they screamed and said yeah.I mean ok,the fighting between the pr's and dr's need to stop.It's total bs.NO one came from a damn banana boat,and if they did,they wouldnt know they are teenagers.It's stupid to take credit for something that people before you did or experienced and then say "we went through this and that".NO it was the people 6 feet below.And yesturday I cracked really badly.Robert said I'm a drama queen,and that my life could be so much worse and that I need to grow up.First of all he couldnt last a day in my shoes.He doesn't know how it is to come home and fight with your mother and brother everyday nor be kicked out your own home more than 3 times.He doesnt know how it feels to be forced to do something you dont want to.He doesnt know how it feels to think everyone is staring at the fat on your body that you have to walk hunched to hide it because you feel very insecure.He doesnt know my life,I mean he's giving me MY own advice,I gave that to him.And I can never take my own advice.It's not easy for me.

Yesturday I admitted to lexy why I'm doing what i'm doing.I was shaking when I told her.I never admitted that to anyone.It was a go there moment like degrassi.It really went THERE.Today I'm feeling ok except me later going to have to deal with stephanies "oh puerto ricans are better than dominicans,ya came on banana boats,ya immigrants" crap talk.I really Do not want to here it because she knows I will spit on your flag and disgrace your race and put you in your place.I dont play that stupid bs.And she knows damn well i'll do it at the parade too.You dont tell your friend that crap,but If I were to say something bad about pr she would throw the only temper tantrum.

The pain in my stomach went away for now,I'm only feeling more light headed each day.But I can't stop.Tuesday I must buy the new Naruto for ps2.It's a must get check list.And I'm really upset at Tina.She blocked my brother on AIM because her gf dont like him.Ok I dont like my brother most of the times but he's my brother and he has been there for me.I mean If it comes to where I have to hit her gf like a boy since she wanna act like one and dress like one.I will,because jealousy is nothing but envy.So yeah . . It sucks because she said she will always be there for me.My little sister misses her.Shes my big sis always but still,you do not do something like that,no matter how many times my brother has been an ass.

Anywho I passed basically all my finals :P but math is gonna be whorible on monday.The teacher said it's going to be much harder on monday.UGHYYYY ILY ILY.I dont want to go to the stupid sweet 16 later x___x.I mean I agreed to go if Gabby wasnt going with steph.But still why does gabby always have to change her mind at the last minute.Now my friday is wasted.But i'm happy i'll still have time to hang out till 8.But i still have to go get a pain in the ass haircut.>.< now i'm bored and theres nothing to do the whole period.I should of cut and went home.Chris better not start today either.I will slap his lips off.He's always unplugging my comp for web class and saying it wasnt him like a little girl.And mathew ugh keeps flirting with me.He needs to stop because its a NO-NO situation.It's purely no.Thats ew too :o.

Lalalalalala im bored~!

-Leon

[cori-catastrophe]

dear cb diary,
today sucked. it felt terrible all day. and to make it worse, my granny got me up extremely early and told me that we had to go to the bank. so i got up, even though i was about to puke. i rode in the car, all the way to the banks and the post office. finally, we got back home. i was feeling a little better so i got on her computer. big mistake. my head started hurting and the room was spinning. but i didn't tell anyone that part. i took some red pill she gave me. there's no telling what it was though. but i don't care. it made the room stop spinning so i like it. at that point, i decided to lay down on the couch and watch spongebob with ally, even though i was mostly thinking rather than paying attention to the television. the telephone rang. it was glenda. apparently, the transmision on their jeep is screwed up so we had to take them to the golf course. at this point, my mentrual cramps had kicked in and my headache came back. i was about to die. we rode all the way there, while hearing ally and hannah fuss and argue about senceless things, which made it no better on me. we got there and let them out, but it took forever to get out of that place because of the tournament. she decided to go twenty miles per hour. meanwhile, i was holding in a shitload of sobbing. my cramps were awful. when we finally got to her house, she checked the mail. i literally jumped out of the car and ran all the way down the driveway and straight into the restroom. i stayed in there about twenty minuites before finally being able to get up and ask for a heating pad. she actually had one, which was the highlight of my day. i went in her bedroom and layed it on my stomach for a good long while before my mom got home. i hope tomorrow's better, since we're going to the reunion and all.

-coriiii.

[*stephinika*]

Dear cB diary,

So yesterday to today was mostly amaaazing.
First thing yesterday, bused/skytrained downtown to meet Sheri for her makeup exam and that was fun being her model and being made up...the photoshoot was fun and made me want look into modeling even more. The photographer said I did a great job so that was exciting. Bused/skytrained back by myself which was cool...had time to kill so I stopped on Granville and took a lil' walk which was nice. Stopped by Adrenaline again...I really want to get that tragus piercing but I'm chicken...some time with Kait though.
After that, went by the mall quickly before heading to Larry's. Mikey's dinner was fun, met him and Steve finally. Stupid stomach issues though...went back to Larry's after Kait's for awhile and spent the night there again. I love just being in his arms all night...fell asleep too early though...but the middle of the night was fun, tehehe...but yeah, the night definitely went by way too quickly again as always. Sigh.
Today went straight to work from Larry's, and work actually wasn't bad so that was nice. Tomorrow is another long day, I work 11-7 then I'm tutoring Alex again. But yay, money! Haha...next week looks fun too so I'm excited. But yeah, I'm sad I couldn't go Wednesday to that movie and whatnot...I haven't seen some people in foreverrr.

I love, love, love summer.

And the sun which isn't here right now. Darn.

[iGio]

Dear cb,

OMFG!The sweet 16 was so crappy.I got back not too long ago.It was really boring,it wasnt for teens really.It was a fam sweet 16,like a traditionally spanish one.I hated it.I dressed up all nicely again for a crappy party.I mean kaley looked real nice in her dress.but besides that I wasted my time when i could of just continued to hang out with evelyn and kristina.But thats ok at least the pictures came out nice.Though the guy at the bar was looking at me i was kinda creeped out.[since today is sat]Yesturday when we went to duane reade,they had a new magazine with my monkey in it <333.I really wanted it but NOO the damn headphones just had to cost 14.08 and then I just had to have the only craving for a cappuchino blast.And it was nasty too.Ugh so I'm broke yet again.And kami wanted to write to him because I wrote a little something on my msn title saying what can save me and stuff. . . SO yeah.My friday was fun,I had fun with stephanie,kristina and kami.Took some sexayy pictures and had mad fun.Strut down the street and turned alot of heads.Haha there were so many haters though.At least we looked good =].

Now I'm home.Bored,nothing to do at all!.My mom think she is slick,she went right back out again and left my sis here knowing that my little sis will cry to me and then i would have to take care of her.Which I really dont want to.I want to go out to a club,dance and drink.The toast at the party was actually applecider but from the wine bottle.It was so good i drank mine and stephanies because i love it <3.I'm not that sleepy but then again I'm wiped out.I have nothing to do.And why do I feel that I'm being flirted with too much?It's not out of conceit either.Like really,Im feeling kinda crowded.And the pain from starving was so horrible.I felt like i was being shot.But hey,I chose this so I guess i better deal with it right?

-Leon

[*stephinika*]

Dear cB diary,

It's not fair. I wish my parents were as easy going as hers and that it would be as easy as asking that same night and actually being allowed to stay over at his place without all the sneaking around.
Sigh.