Dear cB Diary,, Createblog Diary no. 10 Options

[deplorable]

dear cB,
argh. im so tired. thank god the report is done... now to work on the oral presentation

[flutterby88]

what a week! oh man it's been so fun. M is so great, i totally lucked out having her as my manager, and i can't believe she bought me that hot chocolate today:). the work is a little stressful but at that wage it's worth it, and i love working with my mom again, nice to see her everyday cuz i'm really not home that much. dance this week was just too good, such good workouts and the choreography was intense. competitions just weren't meant to be this year, but i'm looking forward to next year, T's putting me in all the advanced classes:). as long as they're later in the evening so i won't be too busy with school. it was so exciting getting the letter!! i can't believe we have to have a monologue prepared for the first day. i'm glad D's in it with me, i had so much fun with him tonight. I agreed with F that we have to hang out with him more often. i didn't think he'd actually buy me that drink! it was good, and it was so sweet when he cried, it was a really good play. G looked so much older, it was such a good show. choir last night was a blast, like being back in the good old days but with all these great guys. i really hope T gets back to me about watching D in gypsy, i miss him so much. i had another great night with F again. i feel so lucky to have him so close, he means so much to me. and finally i got to see M tonight, i can't wait to spend the day with him tomorrow. and M's gonna come over and teach me tap too! and i'll be able to take classes at harbour after all cuz my contract's only till July 6th:). summer's been so good to me so far and it's barely begun!

[*stephinika*]

Dear cB diary,

Bah...I need more discipline. And a better memory so I'll remember my damn shoes next time.
But anyways, I don't get it...she says be home by 10 so I can sleep. Then she goes to bed at 1am. Godammit. That is not fair whatsoever. I am so sick and tired of it.
I need to save/make more money so I can leave.

[Jinny]

Dear cBD,

I hate my life right now

[tokyo-rose]

Dear diary,

I'm going to be modded on my favorite animanga forum! I'm still so happy I was accepted. Now I can clean up the spam started by the newbies there. o-o`

Reminds me, I need to go there and save Changmin. xD

[voguelove]

dear cb-
im so scared. today, i shoplifted for the first time since i was 4. and..i got caught. i felt so high and happy that i had to go back into macys for the second time and take something else. tahts when i got caught. i was questioned for a little bit more than an hour, and i just couldnt do anything. i kept saying, "it isnt me, it isnt me," or, "this is my first time." and they didnt believe me. it figures, they probably deal with shoplifters every 2 hours. and now, i have to go to court and get my punishment. one of my best friends is now..an ex friend. her parents wont let me talk to her or see her..or do anything. well, i guess its understandable. and she wrote me this horrible note on myspace:
I HATE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DON'T EVER TALK TO ME AGAIN I CAN'T BELEIVE YOU WOULD LIE TO ME AND STEAL THAT STUFF MY PARENTS SAID I COULDN'T HANG OUT WITH YOU ANYMORE AND EVEN IF I WAS ALOUD TO I WOULDN'T! SO DON'T CALL ME, SEND A MESSAGE ON MYSPACE OR EVEN SAY HI TO ME WHEN I WALK PAST YOUR HOUSE BECAUSE I NEVER WANT TO HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH YOU EVER AGAIN!!!!!!!!

~evan~

it just upsets me so much. how can i get pounded on so hard for doing something once. how can she say that she hates me? we've been friends for 7 years..and this is now the end?
i dont know what to do with my life. i'd cry, but my head already hurts from it. it upsets me so much that everyone is getting away with it..and here comes me, the girl who doesnt shoplift at all and gets caught on the first actual try.

i havent told my dad either. hes coming home in 30 minutes and i dont know what to say to him. how am i suppose to tell him that we need to go to court? that his 17 year old daughter did something like this? he's not going to forgive me this time, and i know i may sound selfish..but this is my last "free" summer before i'm done with high school. but, hopefully..when he finds out that i told him, and not a court hearing letter..he'll let me make my decisions. of course, ill punish myself. and i wont take it easy either. im going to tell him that ill go to work with him on weekends when school starts back up again and work for him. and everyday in the summer, too. well, after i take my sat. he's just..going to be so disappointed in me. and i cant cry this time. i need to just tough it out until im done with my court punishments. i know im rambling, and i know i probably shouldnt post this on the internet..but i need to. people just need to forgive me. and i need to forget.

[alysaphobia]

Dear cB Diary,

I'm so mentally exhausted. Just 1 1/2 more weeks to go until exams and school are over!... I'll be fine for everything except for pre-calc. F***. I hate that class!

And then summer. It'll be an amazing summer getting to be with J, then going back to the U.S, but still. I've got an ache in me that knows it's going to be a long, painful summer without A. His grandma's house is about as technologically advanced as the freaking cavemen. Or even worse, maybe. We'll be lucky to get a single email between each other every three weeks, when he does convince the prehistoric woman to let him travel to an internet cafe. Grrrrr. Long distance does not work for me.

I feel kind of selfish trying to alter his summer plans spending time with his beloved grandma in my mind, especially since she's a widow now, but really. I'm going to sink into a long phase of listening to those depressing Death Cab for Cutie songs without him for the entire 2 months. Okay, now I feel horrible complaining. I get to see him so much more than her. FKldfdsFKDFka;oI'm going to miss him so much....

- Alysa
P.S: Congrats on the anime forum, Cristy!

[*stephinika*]

Dear cB diary,

It's days like these that make me wanna stay there. But then something tells me my shift on Wednesday will tell me I wanna quit. Bah. Stupid managers. Hopefully after doing Shawn's work I'll have some good money and then I can find a new job. Well, maybe...
And I hope tomorrow works out. Sigh. Parents are irritating. I hope they aren't too bad this summer and that they lighten up towards my birthday...'cause by then, I refuse to be held back like this.

//edit.

Urgh. Just randomly checked the Harbour dance website...apparently there's an audition for Carnival in August again...I want to go so badly...but my mom would never let me put off school, and it's late in August so school would've been dealt with and everything...but we'll see...I don't know... it's something I want to do so much...but could I actually drop everything and leave? I don't know...if it were a shorter contract like 4 or 5 months yeah...but I doubt that it would work out like that...sigh.
If only I hadn't seen it, but I would've eventually. Ugh. I really, really wish I could and that it would all work out how I'd like...

//edit.
I feel so f**king trapped in my house. I hate this.

This post has been edited by stephinika: May 21 2007, 03:32 AM

[*StanleyThePanda*]

Dear cB diary,
This is my 10,000th post.

So much drama going on, I hate it. It doesn't concern me, yet people suck me into it anyways.
People are so frustrating, and irritating. I can't stand it...
I really wish I could just get away.

[flutterby88]

what a weekend! omg i'm so TIRED. i just wanna read harry potter all day and sleep. i think that's just what i'll do too. so friday i went straight from work to family friend's house for dinner. F and D picked me up there and we went to see G's play, where i got drunk at intermission:P. the whole car ride home F sang and oh man i melted, i miss hearing his voice. we dropped D off before stopping by the party which wasn't that fun and i had to be home anyways. stupid drunk P yelling shit all the time. but i stayed up so late that night talking to S on msn. omg i love that boy! he says the cutest things that make me melt, he's so carefree like me. hope i see him soon. majorly slept in saturday till daddy took me to M's house so we could tap (i had the right shoe and she had the left:P). it was so fun!! but it'll be hard to catch up, wish i'd started sooner. then we had a fun girly afternoon talking and reading cosmo. i feel bad about P though, he's not interested:(. poor girl. then had a yummy dinner with daddy, and my love came over for a movie and for quite the funny incident that A found amusing too. stayed up late on msn again and slept in SO majorly yesterday. C's birthday dinner was SO fun though. wore my pretty shirt and had 3 drinks so when F phoned i was already tanked, but i made good company for A though. it was really fun having her over, we had a good talk. then we saw the movie which was alright. R worried me so much though, he was so drunk. the night at G's was SO fun. i had four more drinks and two of them i chugged:P. N was on the couch keeping me warm cuz i kept shivering. F was so sweet all night so i kissed him on the cheek goodnight:). me and M had a fun time till he felt sick, but then i slept over at his house so it all worked out. staying home today though cuz i always feel guilty lying to my parents cuz they've give me so much freedom lately. wow this is a frickin long post. but it was such a good weekend i had to. dunno what i'd do without friends:)

[AimeeLynn]

Dear Cb,
Dang this kid is so confusing. He tells me to meet up with him this morning. Normally I'm late all the time and so I was like ok. Then early and he just doesn't come to me. What he does is talk to his friends. =/ I don't understand him sometimes then at lunch he just kinda brushed me off but last period he came to me locker just to say hey. That made my day. Then he told me that I looked pretty today.<3 He is so different online but in school it's different. You know? Hm... I wonder if he is serious that he wants to be with me.

[freeflow]

Dear cB Diary,
I wish things would go right for a change.

[alysaphobia]

Dear cB Diary,

I. AM. STRESSED.
And I hate how I procrastinate so much on cB. My baaad.

[NgocQuyen]

dear cB,
i did something really bad, but everything's okay now i think. hopefully! :) hehe. umm well as you know yesterday was Thuan and I's five month anny. hehe <3 and we're still counting! *high five! lol. but yeah tomorrow is the last day of school. just one more final to go! and a few make up tests i still have to go through >< lol. HAPPY SUMMER! that's all i really feel like saying. :)

[tokyo-rose]

Dear diary,

Things haven't been too great this week. Sunday was good but after that everything slid. I don't know why. I'm making them the only people I'm really happy around, which isn't good. I need to cut back.

[Rachel]

cB diary,
For once things seem to be going well. I don't know how it happened, but I feel in love again. I was so scared that Tom had scarred me for life, but now I feel like that I can be happy again. Nick is completely amazing and I can't wait another 17 days until I go see him for TWO WHOLE WEEKS! I've missed him so much more than I thought I would and I can't be happier with him, at least not until I go out there. I love calling him boyfriend

[NgocQuyen]

dear cB,
today was a bad bad day. i hated it. it was the last day of school. yes. joy. however, son is being a jackdonkey. thuan is ignoring me. people are annoying me. i feel like crap. i feel left out of everything. i'm just being emo. grr pants me. :\ oh well. on a happier note. 2000th post? haha. i guess that was just a coicidence...seriously. i'm going to cs all night! :)

[redpeony]

Dear cB diary,

I am so in love with my boyfriend. :) Can't help giggling and gushing over it. He is amazing and so good to me. He agreed to come to my yoga class with me this morning, then he drove me to school and it made him half an hour late for work but he was still completely calm and didn't get mad or impatient towards me. We bought Cobs and made soup for our lunch. =p I love doing little things like that with him: sharing a meal, running errands together, even spending time with his family. It's been almost 2 years, and we've had insane struggles and have both made some huge mistakes, but our relationship has only grown. When I look at him I still find myself breaking out into a smile and thinking about how wonderful he is. I can't see myself with anyone else.

On another note. I need to stop shopping! Work is so boring but getting paid $15/hr rocks.

[alysaphobia]

Dear Createblog Diary,

I've fallen back into a phase of obsessively listening to The Beatles again. Man they're good! Oh, and A took me out to dinner tonight- t'was awesome. A good soda and Italian food was seriously needed here... all this exam pressure is killing me!

As of now I should be prepping for more exams, but I'm musing over song lyrics and Grey's Anatomy. This has been a terribly long week- I can't wait until the graduation ceremony. It'll be an emotional affair.

[NgocQuyen]

dear cB,
things are going a lot better than they were! hehe. that's good right? mmmm probably later tonight...PARTY LIKE A ROCKSTAR! :) hehe yayer! :]

[Jinny]

Dear cB Diary,

I need to stop procrastinating. I hate my life right now. Days seem to go by too fast. I should finish my project.. I'm not even half finished. This sucks. My life sucks. There's the parade in two days. I want to watch the pirates of the carribean. I need to take a shower. It's late. Nobody's picking up. My cell's dead. My ipod has no batteries. My internet is so slow.

[deplorable]

dear cB diary,
had an okay day... and a yummy supper :D yay scors!

[SarahxJoy]

Dear cB Diary,
We finally got a call from John today! He is doing well in basic training. He's bald, haha. I really miss my kuya. I'm just happy he's doing okay. He says he's passing all of his training and the heat isn't as bad as he thought it would be, that in fact, it's hotter here in Vegas than it is over there. So I guess that's good, he can handle it. My mom was the only one who wasn't able to talk to him, because she's at work. I know he really wanted to talk to her though. He started tearing up towards the end of his phonecall. I'll be looking forward to his next one. We all will.
As for David and I. This has been a really rough patch for us. But things are looking up. Which is good, because our one year anniversary is coming up. This tuesday, in fact! Awesome.

Today has just been a good day, compared to the others I've been having recently. I can say I'm happy.

[shortiiex]

DD,
i feel like i'm becoming so emo ever since the ending of spring break. it's because i don't like my life right now..and i can't wait till i get older and have a fresh start. i miss them so much...which is sad since i knew them for a couple of days, which shows the hatred i have here. i have been so frusttrated with a lot things lately, i just want to get out of this city and go back to paradise. i feel like that i will turn my close ones to enemies if they keep acting the way they are. Life isn't as simple as it use to be. i was sooo depressed...it was a feeling i never had...it was like being in love and getting it broken...i just wish that i could relive THAT moment, where it all started...and done things differently. i feel like everyone is so juvenile for me now, i can't handle being the person they all turn to...and i can't turn to anyone but myself...that's why they don't know my trueself. i am just so fed up about life, so just can't wait till i go to college and go far away...

[tokyo-rose]

Dear diary,

Too much work to do that I haven't started yet. I really don't want to ruin things academically. Friends-wise things are pretty cool. I absolutely love FBC. The people there are really nice and I have things in common with quite a few of them. It's nice to have more friends outside of school who I can actually see often.
Now this other thing, I can't do anything about otherwise I'll regret it...unless they do want to do something about it too. We'll see.