yuck. what a mess., kinda ranting, sorry /: Options

[mytangerine]

This is WAY long & complicated, sorry
o1. the guy i like does not talk to me at all anymore. it is so awkward because my close friend anna & him talk to each other & i just sit there unnoticed. i hate him i hate him i hate him! god. he is so oblivious to how he makes me feel. it seems so obvious to me that i am frustrated that he doesn't talk to me ever, why can't he see that too?? men are blind.

o2. "richard" only thinks about himself. now that he has a girlfriend he doesn't talk to me at all. so much for being friends since 7th grade. we used to talk everyday & now our friendship is basically dead because he doesn't try to stay friends at all.

o3. same as "richard" situation basically with, "tony". omg that guy kills me! GAHHHHHH! i hate him way more than guy in situation #o1 even! i think i should call him; but honestly why should i even BOTHER if he doesn't give me the time of day?? %^$#@!

o4. "betty" ["richard"'s girlfriend] constantly lies to me & tells my bestfriend, who is also her close friend things that she completely contradicts when she talks about it with me. so hypocritical! and she is ssoo fake! she pretends to be my best friend only until she gets "richard". then i am worthless to her.
- side note -
"richard" liked me a whole bunch before he met "betty" & when he met "betty" i guess it was an instant attraction type thing. anyways, so he called me & asked if i felt the same way about him & i said yes, but i knew it would hurt "betty" very badly if me & him went out because i knew she liked him a ton. so i gave up an entire relationship that most likely would've been pretty strong since we've known each other for a long time just so that i would stay friends with "betty" & she would be happy.

overall it just seems like i'm not valued by anyone, while i value everyone. does that make sense? ughhh.

i don't know how to fix the relationship with #o1. i know i want to be friends with him again like we used to be, but with him completely ignoring me it seems impossible

with situation #o2 i am completely lost. almost ready to give up.

with situation #o3 i desperately want to fix things. he was the one person i could tell anything to & i really enjoy talking to him.

with situation #o4 i don't want to be her friend anymore. but i want to tell her off kind of because she continuously hurts my feelings, but i don't know what to say..

this is such a disaster ADVICE?