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[iGio]

Dear cb,

Ew ew ew ew ew,ew ew,ew ew ew ewwwww,ew ew,and EW.I got my old art teacher as a sub this period.EW!!I hate him my anger is so vicious against him i want to claw his face off.I can't even begin to use the words or even find the words to describe how much i hate that man.I asked if mr.li was here and he comes out of no where and says "I'm here."Like i didn't ask him.

Anyway im bored,and i'm starving but im currently on a diet for the remainder of the school.But i gotta lose weight because they said if your weist is too big then you can get 2 types of diabetes,a high risk of heart attack,and cancer.So im not risking that,but i look naturally skinny,or so most people say.I don't look big,but im a size 38 in pants.[Ok time to interupt what me was talking about,He just came and said sit properly and to take my book bag off.He didn't buy my book bag,He aint my father,And im not his student.He's just a sub,and i prefer to have my book-bag on.All the other teachers except him are ok with me sitting with my book bag on,everyone does it,and i only do it because it keeps me calm.]

GAH!I can't even type here because hes wandering around and mainly keeping his eye on his "worst student".He got me in so much trouble with my mom last last semester.He failed me all 3 report cards when he gave back all my work,emphasis on the all.Why of all days did mister li have to be apsent today.ITS JUST RAIN PEOPLE.Gawsh

Well today im going to do one art hw i owe.Then friday ima go to evelyns and do all the hw i owe and hand it in next monday.Speaking of next week,my mom is leaving to chicago :D.Finally i will be able to cook and eat breakfast at any time i want.I also see how much i procrastinate more and more each and every day with school.The computer is just so addicting i cant do hw for more than 10 minutes.It's just SO boring i cant help my self.I mean if im with someone doing hw ill do it for a while but then i begin to crave food or an oreo milkshake.This friday im gonna be baking brownies with evelyn :D i hope they come out real chocolate that makes you want milk to drink it down.If it doesnt i will eat it anyway haha :D.

Saturday i looked nice in that suit i'll think i post up the pictures here.Who am i kidding i thought i looking effin sexy.My brother called me a pimp :P but lauras father as always gave me a dirty look and ignored me.I dont know why,me and laura are like bro and sis.And this is the second time he has ever seen me out of 2 years.So why hate me when i didn't do anything but come over to get hw?Fathers are so complicated.Agh right now im trying to find out what should i eat to lose a good amount of weight in 8 weeks.Evelyn really looks like she lost alot,which is cool but :P im jealous so i gotta lose weight.But like i said people say i look naturally skinny.Except my mom who thinks im massively fat >.>

I can't wait to get home though.Im freaking starving.I want some tomatoes melted in cheese with some ketchup and i want alot of it too.I mean how many calories could that be,but lemon water cuts the fat in half and i got a gallon that my mom made so ill drink some of that.I downloaded Flyff,rappelz took toooooo long to dl.but im going to try it again later.

Today in the morning was great.Person just got me going crazy im in love xD i think o.o.But tomorrow i wanna play a game in hb but today i didnt because the two bitchy whiners were there and they dont like me on their team and i tend to lose my patience and curse them out so i rather not even bother.I wish they would get hit by a bus though. I mean it could be one minute into the game and they already bitch like little debbie girls.They act like they are SO good at hb.Im lazy very lazy,i walk like a sloth i drag my feet.SO what but when i play i dont complain,i smile and keep on because i like the people who arent annoying and whine.They push me to the point where im motivated to play well.Unlike them two one jumps with his mouth open and his fingers spread out so far and he tries to hit the ball and it always misses.THATS NOT HOW YOU HIT.Then anthony just tries to be the best.He doesnt know where his side of the court is though.He doesnt know that if it goes on his side he has to hit it not his partner because that is a rule.you can only do that after the first person hits it who is APOSE to hit it.And my teacher hates when i dont play,she doesnt yell at me she smiles but they all clap when i play because its rare that i do because of anthony and the other boy.

Well im off to math. .. hungry too :O

-Leon

[Jinny]

Dear cbd,

i'm having the worst day. well, at least there's no school.. i keep telling myself to ask my mom but i forget! ugh.. OH SH*T! i just remembered that we have a science test on tuesday [tomorrow] and i havent studied yet.. shooottt and there's no school today.. !! i thought today would be a good day.. well i guess i have to go and make some study guides..

[tokyo-rose]

Dear diary,

I got lucky for the second time in less than a week. I didn't do my art project over the weekend and thought I'd have to be really embarrassed today not having it, but it rained so much the teacher couldn't make it. We had a sub who said he wasn't told to collect anything, so yeah. Now I have to do it all tonight.

[Jinny]

dear cbd,

i feel so.. annoyed, sad, angry, and guilty. i feel bad for my mom who's really sick but has to clean the garage. i have a math project that's due this Friday but i don't even have an idea yet. i have to share my motto/letter/essays tomorrow, and i'm probably gonna get embarrassed because my writing pieces are so bad. i have a major science test tomorrow and i forgot about it until this afternoon. i'm not even finished with making my study guides. my band concert is on wednesday and i have to practice my flute+piccolo. oh yeah, and i have to practice for my lesson too . i have a grammar test this Friday. i forgot about my health homework thats also due tomorrow. i feel sick and lazy. i'm so unorganized right now. tonight, i have to take a shower. i need to lose weight. my room is a mess. i keep going on cb/myspace which leads to even more procrastinating. nothing seems to go right. oh, and my best friend is being a total b*tch, which is not helping out at all.

i hate life.

[NgocQuyen]

dear cB,
everything seems to be going downhill for me, and it's as if everyone is leaving me to face it on my own. does anyone care anymore? what can i do in my weakest moment...? i must not let it show...

[michellerrific]

dear cbd,
Wow, must have been one of the boringest days ever. return from spring break. I was looking forward to much more to do. Sigh. then they shove in our face a bunch of standardized tests. Honestly, I'm not ready. I barely prepared and tomorrow's biology and i know I'll fail miserably.

And then yesterday i accidentally overwrote all the songs on my iPod with a dumb playlist. Crap, now i gotta start all over importing stuff again. oh well at least it gives me a chance to really put in the songs i listen to, not the ones i always skip.

Dang i have a lot to do within tonight and it's important to get a good sleep for tomorrow's testing and crap. I still have to wrap up Erin's present and then finish reading Romeo & Juliet and continue Fast food nation, complete by Friday and all this other stuff i can't even remember because i don't write it down. I never write in those agenda things, i don't see that they help much and i guess i can remember it mostly.

Today afterschool she was being somewhat weird. I don't understand, it seems as if she ignored me and then caught up with me at the traffic light but she didn't seem to be eager to talk. I hate it when she's like that, and sometimes it's as if she prefers to hang out with the more, hm what should i call it?, "classier" people? i don't want to stereotype people and call them "popular".

Yawn. must get off internet and continue what's more important. I wonder if there are classes in time management. Oh yeah. I am still denying it.

[*yrrnotelekktric*]

Dear CB Diary,

Today my mom came back from work with bracelets from the Philipines (sp?) ((I never know how to spell it. Forgive me.)) She got them from a friend at work who just went there for vacation.

Two of the bracelets had a wooden cross attached to it. And i told my mom that I didn`t want it because I don`t really believe in God at the moment.

She made a big deal about it to my dad (because he thinks that EVERYONE should believe in God; idiotic I know).

I think she was upset that I didn`t take one.

My brother and my mom left to make copies at the nearest Kinko's.

..And i`m sitting here, with the smuggled bracelet in my sweatshirt pocket.

Thanks CB Diary.

Until next time.

[iGio]

Dear cb,

I fell asleep in english right about towards the end.Gergender kept poking me to wake up but after every poke i tried my best to keep open my eyes but i couldnt i was bluntly tired.I was baby-sitting till 12 last night and my alarm went off at 5 like its suppose to and i only got 4 hours and 31 mins to sleep.Today my comp should be there when i get home or here by 6:30 if not then definitly tomorrow.

I wish it was friday already,im bored.Today at HB it was so much fun.Me and wendy played a game first but i had my eye on john because i knew he wanted to play,so me and wendy got off court and let him play with lamdon but they asked us to play doubles It was me and lamdon against john and wendy.I played really good,i wasnt in the mood to be lazy so i just played i feel comfortable when the two ass holes arent there.I wish it was sunny out so they could go outside already while i stay inside and play.With only 8 weeks left of school i wanna take pictures of HB class,global,and living II.Regents for science next month = major stress to pass but the test that we have been taking were regents exams and i passed alot of them and my teacher said if you did good on them then you have an idea of how you will due on the regents.

Just got a 75 on me web test :D so easy 36/48.BTW i hate dreamweaver.Its wetarted XD.Anyway i wanna go home already xO.And chris is pissing me off HES SO EFFIN LOUD.Good my teacher told him to stfu,he keeps slamming the book which is making me mre pissed off.He looked at me and said "Ima G" like. . .anyone can talk like ghetto fool,wear baggy pants,slump when you walk,have your pants down to your knees,but they dont make them a "G" or "ballin" wtf?I cant stand him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.

I really REALLY wanna go home.Im craving flan with a hot sammich :D and a snapple.I want oreo poptarts the one you can break,ima ask my mom to buy me some if she goes to the supermarket :D.I just want food,alot of it.I had hot wings yesturday it was so good.Mehh well me gotta go to math.

-Leon

Dear cb,

I fell asleep in english right about towards the end.Gergender kept poking me to wake up but after every poke i tried my best to keep open my eyes but i couldnt i was bluntly tired.I was baby-sitting till 12 last night and my alarm went off at 5 like its suppose to and i only got 4 hours and 31 mins to sleep.Today my comp should be there when i get home or here by 6:30 if not then definitly tomorrow.

I wish it was friday already,im bored.Today at HB it was so much fun.Me and wendy played a game first but i had my eye on john because i knew he wanted to play,so me and wendy got off court and let him play with lamdon but they asked us to play doubles It was me and lamdon against john and wendy.I played really good,i wasnt in the mood to be lazy so i just played i feel comfortable when the two ass holes arent there.I wish it was sunny out so they could go outside already while i stay inside and play.With only 8 weeks left of school i wanna take pictures of HB class,global,and living II.Regents for science next month = major stress to pass but the test that we have been taking were regents exams and i passed alot of them and my teacher said if you did good on them then you have an idea of how you will due on the regents.

Just got a 75 on me web test :D so easy 36/48.BTW i hate dreamweaver.Its wetarted XD.Anyway i wanna go home already xO.And chris is pissing me off HES SO EFFIN LOUD.Good my teacher told him to stfu,he keeps slamming the book which is making me mre pissed off.He looked at me and said "Ima G" like. . .anyone can talk like ghetto fool,wear baggy pants,slump when you walk,have your pants down to your knees,but they dont make them a "G" or "ballin" wtf?I cant stand him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.

I really REALLY wanna go home.Im craving flan with a hot sammich :D and a snapple.I want oreo poptarts the one you can break,ima ask my mom to buy me some if she goes to the supermarket :D.I just want food,alot of it.I had hot wings yesturday it was so good.Mehh well me gotta go to math.

-Leon

[dancingkait]

dear cb diary

so i've pretty much decided that i'll be quitting my job sometime this summer. i can't keep being put second and given these stupid jobs when i deserve a lot more. and that raise? yea okay, that'll make a difference. i was hoping that with a decent raise i'd feel better about my work situation, but i barely got anything and i am so not happy. how can i be the main receptionist when they put her on phones more than me? i'm not an idiot, they're using me. they can get away with saving money on my wage and they have someone to clean up their messes. yea right. it'll only take me a month tops to catch up with the service filing, so i asked what i would be doing for 4 hours since M is on phones starting at 12:30. "well you know the storage room with all the old files? that needs to be cleaned up". i've been here almost four effing years and you want me to clean up your mess? no. i won't. i'll be quitting as soon as i'm caught up in service. then lets see how they do with a receptionist who has no effing clue what she's doing.

have fun brad. i hate you, you're a shitty manager and you're going to be so screwed once i quit. and guess what? when you call me for help, i won't answer.

[Jinny]

dear cbd,

i hope i do well on my science test tomorrow, especially because my third marking period grade was a car wreck my mom got really mad when she saw my report card.. ugh. well, i hope i do well on the piccolo & flute tomorrow at my concert. also, i think i don't like him anymore he's just.. not unique anymore. oh, and ____ is pretty annoying.. as well as ___. i'm so confused right now. i don't know who i like. oh well, as long as ____ doesn't flirt with every person i start liking, everythings going to go fine.. i hope.

[smileeetina]

Dear Cb,
Feels like everything is falling in to place. I'm with who I need to be, I'm doing what I need to do and I'm just loving everything! I'm losing some friends though, but it was bound to happen sooner or later, my hearts not broken over it. I like school, I like work, I like my boyfriend, and I'm glad my bestfriend is so awesome. I love how my parents aren't nagging. I hate how this will end soon, and everything is gonna be going downhill. But I gotta suck it all in right now, and enjoy it. Woohoo! Life! <3

[flutterby88]

so at least i have a back-up plan, which i guess i wouldn't mind using, after all i keep telling myself there's no rush to graduate. but i'm still disappointed with how shitty that audition went. oh well, it's over. i got an A- in kin at least, just barely but i'm happy. probably got a B+ in crim though. ahh well, just one won't hurt. as long as i study hard for my ling final. it might even be nice to have a lighter semester, have more time for dance and work and maybe even a production if i can manage to survive another audition. but wow, you'd think i'd never acted before in my life. at least the interview was fine, and they asked me to sing for them, but my goddamn voice and eye focus. who knows, maybe they still liked me and i shouldn't even be needing plan B, but whatever happens, happens. in exactly 54 hours i'll be on the bus to the seattle airport, man that crept up on me fast. i need to get away, away from the reality of being unemployed (who knows if that lady will end up getting back to me, i could very well be a bum all summer. we need to go job-hunting K!), away from the reality that school is f**king hard, and away from the reality that i feel like i am losing the spark with my boyfriend. if only i could stop THINKING about D, but nooooooooo i dream about him on top of that. goddamnit.
but on a happy note i had a very enjoyable din-din with my mamma today, miami will be f**king amazing and i can't wait, and i f**king got to go see STOMP tonight!!! wooohoooo!!!!!!and i had a downtown adventure:D. discovered the best library in the whole fricking world, and i love walking the streets of vancouver, and stomp was just OMG:D. so lucky C didn't end up going.
but yeah, this is a good place to vent and all, but i sometimes wish i didn't write on here, cuz then people ask questions. i still love M, but things have been shaky and he knows something's different in my voice. maybe i need time away, if i don't see D for a long time i'll just forget about him, and i'll stop daydreaming about having the perfect guy.

[iGio]

Dear cb,

Bored,bored,bored,bored,bored and bored.Today i didnt get to play in hb but i watch Person play,i was OK but yesturday i had a nightmare which woke me up and i was scared to go back to sleep but i fell asleep eventually.

Im so fcking pissed off.Im stuck with some shitty proj.for web class.We have to create a page on our school and the title of the proj. is "Lehman Life".First off,i dont give two shits about lehman hs,everyone in it can burn.Secondly we have to gather info on an event and like whos the house leader and blah.And the events we HAVE to go to.Do i look like im free?That school is more important than my life?I gotta baby sit everyday,top that im piled with hw,top that I have MY OWN LIFE to manage.So im not letting some project dictate my life.Like wtf i asked what if we dont have time.He said find time,HOW DO I FIND TIME WHEN I DONT EVEN GOT THAT MUCH TIME ON WEEKENDS.I got classes to go to and im not cutting to go to some stupid event to praise someone because they playing a game,Ok lehman teams suck ass except handball,ok?I dont like sports except handball.But im still not going to go.And if theres an honor assembly for my house,WHO CARES.I can get 100's if i wanted to.Stop kissing up to the poor child.Its just a number on paper.

this is what we have to do :

Home page- provide an intro/welcome to the audience that will entice them to explore the other pages in your site. Also, the home page will provide the visitors with an easy to use menu, nav bar or table of contents to the other pages page. (include images)

Club page- Create one page that describes a club or sport in this school. Describe the activities, purpose, events, rules, goals, dates, times, pictures, place, membership requirements, eligibility, who is the advisor and the executive board.)

House page- Create one page about your house. What is the theme of the house? Include activities, executive board, guidance counselors, family assistant,

Event page- Create one page that reports on one event. You must attend the event to find out and describe what happened, who was there, why did they have the event, when, how, where etc. AND YOUR REACTION!!!

WTF these teachers need to wake up and relize,lehman is a bad ass school.Stop trying to make it seem so good,it just isnt.UGH this got me so mad.I got a life of my own,it aint fair and he didnt even ask if we had time.Who is he to say we MUST attend,why cant he?Us not doing our project wont take no money from his pay check to feed him self,clothe him self.You know what im not gonna do it.So what if i fail the class.I dont care anymore i got enough stress on me as it is.

Going to math~

-Leon

[Jinny]

Dear CBD,

Why can't I make my choice?! I like him, then I don't. Well, I was supposed to make my decision today, and i SORT of like him. He's really nice to me and all, but ______ keeps flirting with him! I mean, the hood thing is so stupid. Everybody thinks its annoying. So I keep wondering, is it me or her?

I should stop procrastinating. My math project is due this Friday yet I haven't even wrote the prices down. This sucks. So much. Aiish.

[minioligo]

dear cb diary,
i wonder if this is what i get.

[AngelinaTaylor]

Dear cB diary:

They're all the same. Even if they claim the opposite, they're f**king lying. All of them. They're all the f**king same. They'll all pretend they're the best guy you ever meet and they'll pretend they care, pretend they're f**king.. f**king listening to you, and then you'll discover they don't give two shits about you. What a great feeling that is, I tell you. The feeling of being used, being second, third or maybe even tenth best is amazing. Incredible. Irrepleaceable. There's nothing like it. I f**king love it. I love it when people don't take me seriously. Hey, you'd think 9 months is a long time, but no. Of course not. 9 months isn't enough to start treating somebody as though they actually matter to you. Even pretending is a bit too much, right? But of course! How pathetically dumb do you have to be to get this through your pea sized brain, huh? I'm not surprised. I make that mistake all the time. You'd think I'd learn from it, but nooo. It's the same damn thing over and over. Although I thought this time things would be a bit different. I thought I grew as a person, that I would be able to stop this from killing me again. Oops, a bit too late. Nothing is worth this. Nothing. Absolutely nothing. But this time I learned. I learned big time. I'm not doing this ever again. I'm as cold as a stone. I'm never feeling this way again - never going to allow it. Why should I anyway? I'm locking my heart as of now, so that it can't feel and therefore can't let me hurt.

It's over. And hate is so liberating.

[flutterby88]

so i leave in exactly an hour and a half. i actually got almost 7 hours of sleep too, go me! i'm feeling much better about school, nothing more i can do and whatever happens, happens. same with a job, lots of us are looking to quit our jobs or find more work, we can do it all together K, S, L!!!! and agreed that i shall throw a huge party once everyone's back from their vacations:D:D
so me and M talked, i told him everything i needed to say and he surprisingly said a lot that touched my heart. he said he'd do everything for me, and he has two weeks to prove it. i'm not gonna worry about it while i'm gone, but i can't help but wonder if things will really change when i'm back. i trust him and i want to believe it's possible. i just don't know how i'm feeling anymore. good ol' vacation will put me right again:). but i really want to make things work. sure i had my fantasies of D and having the perfect boyfriend, but maybe N was right in saying how boring perfect would be.
i really can't express how thankful i am for N, it all started as a joke but he truly has been my best friend since that day. i never would have known i could depend on him so much, thank you N:).
I had lovely goodbye phone conversations with M, B, and S:D, really made me happy cuz i miss talking on the phone with them so much. lots to plan when we all get home:).
i hope M is ok though, he almost cried yesterday. so did i when he said he'd better go because there was nothing more to say, and i had a lot to think about and he had a lot to go out and prove. maybe i'll prove M and K wrong when they said he's good and everything but that i'll really find the perfect guy in university. i've found a couple true, and they've both gotten their hopes up, but we're just friends. things always change of course, but M said it'd be worth the wait if he can earn my trust for a little longer. so we'll see. but a love like ours doesn't happen every day, so maybe i do need to have a little faith in it.

[iGio]

Dear cb,

Today i woke up late,like 4 minutes before i leave my house to go to school.I was mad but i got there on time.In handball same old same old,i really wanted to play today but since i got there at the time i did, i didnt have the chance to get dressed.I watched person play like always.

I forgot my chapstick at home now i cant stop licking my lips and when i do that i begin to bite it and end up making it swell.Yesturday was fun//ok but sunny's phone kept effin ringing and it was pissing me off because it was so damn loud. I woke up at five today but went back to sleep.I dont know why i turn my alarm on xO.Lexy wants to know who i like so badly,its gonna take me a while to tell her.7 weeks left to spend with person and try to talk to person . . .Thats why i dont want summer to come.I want to stay in school with person,i wanna go out with person...but i cant.I cant even tell person i like them.When i get home im going to eat an orange,hopefully my mom was home when my dad comes in like 30 minutes so i can get my 20$.Ima play conquer for a bit till evelyn picks me up.Then we going shopping,then to the supermarket then on the way back to dunkin to get me a large m-shake :D.I cant wait,we are baking brownies.I will make sure we make them FUDGY >:O.I might cut math today i dont feel like going and i know robert and all the jack asses are going to be here.But i have to wait for stephanie which sucks.and i dont wanna sit outside for 45 minutes.Hmm what to do what to do. . . .unless i go to stephanies class before she goes in and tell her to cut with me.But she might say that she wants to go to reading and i will be late to math XO and i hate when you walk in class and everyone looks at you its annoying.

Im also disgusted at the fact chris leaves his pants hanging down and like when he bends over,hes a big kid so theres no avoiding what you see.Its nasty and no body wants to see that ass.Its just a no. . . DAMN if i only i knew lauras cell phone i would tell her to meet me under the train damn damn!Or i can just go to ms.felicies and spend 6th with her.D:< i dont wanna go to math.I mean where am i apose to go?-sigh-I guess ill just go to crappy math

-Leon

[michellerrific]

dear cbd,
Okay so everything I do having to do with _ seems to turn out all shitty and well that's shitty, period. Ew

I've had an overall good week
I've been listening to old songs that I realize I still have liking for! I finally got to making a decent wallpaper. and then I want to go to Target this weekend. I also discovered i have an A- in Biology, which is meeting my standards. I'M FINALLY FOLLOWING MY NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTIONS!

[*stephinika*]

Dear cB diary,

If I don't get out of this place soon, I swear I'm going to crack.

On another note, yeah, definitely a good talk with her g'bye...gonna miss her! But I'm definitely excited for my trip thats 2 weeks away...I just need to get away. Badly.

[Kim3rz]

Dear cBD,

I don't feel like getting out of bed today. Yesterday I woke up very pissed off for no apparent reason and then it all just went downhill from there. And I swear if J flirts with me again I'm going to kill him. I hate when people hit on me and I don't like them. But yeah, I'm not getting out of bed today. . .which sucks because I have to pee.

Anyways, on a good note, 49 more days until I see my friends I haven't seen in 4-5 years.

[Jinny]

Dear cbd,

I can't describe how tired I am right now. I just went shopping for 4 hours and my legs hurt so much. And even worse, I have to go out for dinner tonight and then drive to church right away. Tomorrow, I have to go to New York for the Mets baseball game. I'll probably be home at like 6. On Monday, I have to wake up at 5:00 because I'm the altar server for the morning mass. I'm going to go to the diner with my mom and eat breakfast there. Then, at 8:50 AM, I have to go to _____'s house. We'll all go to the mall [AGAIN! ARGHH] and shop for like 3 hours. We'll go back to her house for lunch and "play" [wtf?] Okay, so that means I already wasted one day of my spring break. Ugh. I actually hate shopping now, my legs hurt so asodkfjasldkfjm-ing much.

[iGio]

Dear cb,

Ugh yesturday all day arguing with my mom.She just got up all b-tchy and blah.So yesturday was SLOW but annoying.Today in hb i played a game with wendy who soon got tired 10 minutes before class was over.Then i played with angie for 5 and the rest just hit the ball to my self.Ugh i had to open the door for the two jack asses who came late.I dont know why anthony was late,he is always early to school and it doesnt take long to change into a pair of shorts.

You know i feel like my grades went down because of me not doing hw because i procrastinate too much but then when i look at it over,i didnt miss alot of hw.I just have to make up 3 essays for global,one essay for english but she has to give me credit for the one i handed in so i dont really have to do it,and the math hw before friday.So today after school im going to start my essay and finish it,then do my poem that i have to do for english,then i guess i'll eat a small sandwhich and drink alot of water since water makes me full.

Yesturday lexy was so pissed off at her bf because of him being an ass.I told her i already dont like him,he dont like me deep down and i know it,jealousy is a nasty thing.But i wanna talk to him for my self and straighten him up and end his drama fast before he really gets me on my bitchy side.I mean dont try to start something with me who he dont even know,all he knows is that im her ex who is best best friends with her and nothing more.Anyway saturday we burned the sugar cookies xO but friday was perfect the brownies came out great but i didnt really eat the cake idk why.I also decided friday was the last day of me having oreo m-shakes because it made me so full and i felt sick.The guys who take my order got jumped,me and evelyn couldnt stop laughing.They deserve it for all the sh-t they be talking.And then this huge fat lady that knew them looked at me for a minute in the only wrong way.But i stared her down,she also looked at evelyn.after we ate at subways,it was so good.

This weekend was cool,though im sick of people starting with me in conquer i just wanan rip all their heads off especially the br group in there who constantly attack my bow man.Then yesturday this kid who killed me i told him he better run and he did because i told him alot of people were gonna go after him for me.I feel weak in the game but i do my part too.If i see evelyn gettign attacked regardless how weak my archer is i let it attack the player and attack on my tao too.

Right now i cant help but feel so bottled up.I have been thinking about Person all weekend and all day.I say i dont like Person but lexy knows deep down i really do.On top of that jojo's album the high road,all her songs i can relate to,especially secret love.Except when she says boy,no i do not relate to that .

My mom leaves for chicago this weekend or next beggining of the week.Im so HAPPY! sdjhghkjsfd!.I mean its fun when she isnt home.I rather her have fun somewhere else than be at home working all the time,spite the fact that i just want her out the house.My brother lets me eat when i want,how much i want and lets me sleep late as long as i get my self up for school which i do.

Friday i want to go shopping again,i wanna buy pj pants to wear to school because im tired of jeans.I want sweat pants too,some long sleeve shirts and some nice hot white zip up thin-hoodies like i had in 6th grade.I wonder what happened to it.I hope my mom didnt give it away like all the rest of my old clothes,i hate when she does that.Im fiening for the goowee butter cake that she makes,a fruit salad or a really hot sandwhich with everything on it.AGH i got math in 25 mins.I dont want to go especially that my class is so ugh.I hate everyone in the class except george and that dominican boy and diana+daniela+caroline.The rest i wish got hit by a bus XO.Why couldnt they be the ones shot at VT.

Blah I cant stop thinking of Person<3.Ima go.

-Leon

[tokyo-rose]

Dear diary,

Not having the Internet at home is pretty boring. But I've been reading at an insane rate and finish a book a day now just like I used to. Last Saturday Mom bought me Forever in Blue, Twilight, and the special edition of New Moon. <3 Finished the first two already and can't wait to read more of New Moon.

[*stephinika*]

Dear cb diary,

Unfortunately, didn't get to see him as long as I'd liked to today due to his phone not ringing for some reason and cause of the game, but oh well..at least I got to see him.
But wow, last nights phone conversation got so much more serious than I thought it'd be thats for sure...it just made me want to see him so much more today. Sigh. I feel so lame for being so attached but I can't help it.