Misanthropic Ranting, cynical thoughts on the populace surrounding me Options

[*disco infiltrator*]

It is part of human nature to have the desire to communicate with others, most of the time in order to convey your thoughts and let out emotions so they don't build up, so you're not alone. I think that in this day in age, the purpose of communicating has been lost. People tend to talk just for the sake of talking, so they're not insecure about their ability to talk, or so they can show off the intellectuality of their thoughts (or the opposite, if that's really the goal, which it is in some cases). Everyone has to talk, all the time. You sit down in class and the first thing you do before the bell rings is turn to your side, or back, or poke the person in front of you and initiate conversation, about anything. God forbid someone see you sitting there alone, not talking! They would think you were weird! Anything to avoid that...

I, myself, have been extremely guilty of this; more so in my younger past, but I still do it. I realize and observe the stupidity and superficiality in this behavior, yet I do it anyway, and it seems that others notice. Instead of achieving the goal that I am subconsciously determined to reach by exhibiting this behavior, I have become an object of ridicule (again, since I was before, but for an unsubstantiated reason; this is actually understandable). Any time someone doesn't feel like reading or answering a question in class, I volunteer right away so I can congratulate myself when I get it right and show everyone else that I can and they can't (more of me displaying my never-ending desire to excel above everyone else). And, since I talk too much, I am made fun of. Apparently, one has to find a nice equilibrium in the talking routine to be considered "normal", and something so simple is apparently much too complex for someone like myself. However, usually, when one is just really quiet, other people are quiet towards them. They only mutter how weird the person is to their friends under their breath and rarely make fun of them publicly simply for being mute and recluse.

Thus, I have come to the conclusion that I should try to achieve this sort of "anonymity" (if you could call it such) so no one will know anything about me and won't be bothered by anything that I do (since they won't interact with me unless forced to) so they won't have anything to talk about. I would rather people not know me than me try to fit in by giving information about myself out and giving the talkers material. Of course, this would be a gradual and difficult transition (since a lot of people actually do enjoy speaking to me sometimes, to my amazement) and I would have to subtly make it apparent to the other talkers that I am outside of the circle and to ignore my existence, to remind them that I am not playing and to not tag me. I assume that such a transition will be easier when I get to college and I don't know anyone and become incredibly shy again (like when I first got into high school), but who knows; I might want to be a complete chatterbox then. Anyway, that's a long way off, and I might as well make my life better for the present while I can.

[*Uronacid*]

It is part of human natu...

You would assume it gets easier, but it doesn't. I'm in college, and in this case I thought about the same thing as you. It doesn't change. You enter into college with the same generation you left in highschool.

In this day and age, people are trained (even as children) to stand out in any way they possibly can. Whether it's impressing others with acts of "stupidity", tearing people down, or showing off intelligence we all do it.

The best thing you can do is be yourself, have fun, and not worry about it. You aren't better than anyone else by not participating in all the drama. In fact, I've learned that you will get left behind r even looked down upon if you don't.