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[unconfirmed_exis...]

Dear CBD,

My favorite teen-writer commented me twice!
Oh gosh I'm such a fan of his! I adore him,
even in his depressed stages he continues
to appeal to me through his use of words.

I want to write like him and captivate people
like he does. "I want a slice of awesome"

WHY DON'T WE HAVE SUCH COOL
WRITER-PEOPLE AT OUR SCHOOL? D:

[Looow]

Dear cB Diary,

Holy shit. What the f**k is wrong with me though? I thought I was over this shit. I'm coming back & it's not even okay. I can't stop thinking about. Honestly, I can't. I can't stop beating up myself over it either. What a bitch.

I'm trying hard here to twist it around here. Honestly.

[*Sephora.*]

Dear CBD,

Why am I starting to develop feelings for someone that I know that I'll never have a chance with? A is so sweet... He always says such sweet things to me when he comes over. I hope he comes over next next week or later on this week.

I hope I get to see N on Monday.

Life is full of backstabbing fake bitches.

[moninja]

cbd,

i want some new friends. i hope we do good in our first game. i hope they won't kill me if i don't do my hair.

[michellerrific]

dear cbd,
Gosh. She is so freaking retarded. What kind of person is she? and she smells like crap too.

sigh, I wish you weren't so 'far' away.

[*Sephora.*]

Dear CBD,

So... I wanted to see him today. I'm so over N. I don't know why, but everytime I see him at school, my heart doesn't throb, I don't get excited, but that always happens when I'm around A. My heart always throbs, and I get excited. -Sigh- I'm so damn confused.

[Looow]

Dear cB Diary,

Tell me why I can't let go of this shit. I'm being hella f**ked up to him and he doesn't even deserve it. It's not his fault, it's mine.

[michellerrific]

dear cbd,
Is there something up with her or what? Pfft..does she hate me? Geez.

[think!IMAGINARIL...]

Dear cB Diary,

I failed. I know I did.
What the hell happened to me? I just don't try hard enough anymore. Maybe I do, but it's not enough. High school is just so fASghdjsckl frustrating. I wish I was back in middle school. That was fun. =/
I don't know what the hell I'm gonna do with my essay! I don't even have the time to work on my fcking science fair project! WTH. School is hard enough as is and taking on so many things freshman year isn't fun at all. I see other people having fun, not doing any work, getting 100's.. I'm here working my ass off all day and getting 80's. I know it was my choice to go to a specialized HS, but I didn't know it was gonna be this hard! dfGHjkl WTF. If I transfer right now to a regular school, I'll be ahead with the curriculum and I'll do really well, but what about credits? I'd be taking like.. 3 or 4 classes over again, without credits and that just sucks. I need at least 44 and I have 4 from middle school.. I already finished my language credit by taking the regents last year, but I still need to take it until Spanish 5 or 6. I swear, that is total BS.
I hate school. So many freaking projects and sh*t.. Maybe I should leave here for another two weeks and see what happens. New term = more homework. I need to start working harder..
Plus, I need more patience. I need more patience with myself, and a lot more with other people. I need to be less emotional over some things..

[tokyo-rose]

Dear diary,

Eh. So I'm halfway through midterms week and I ended up finishing my paper after all. It was due today. It was actually pretty good for having rewritten it in just a few hours. More like six, but whatever. I'm satisfied and hope I get at least a B on it.

I really don't want him to leave. I'm scared of each day that goes by because it means we're one day closer to him possibly leaving the school and I can't have that.

[iDecay]

Dear cB Diary,

I'm so confused and scared. I don't know what to do.

[michellerrific]

dear cbd,
i wish i could predict what's gonna happen the rest of the week. i really hope to get my endurance up. i can't wait to sleep in this weekend. and there are some people out there that act one way to you and then the opposite the next day. split personalities? i doubt it. she is so not that way to other people.

[*stephinika*]

Dear cB diary,

Wooo! One out of 3 bets...done! Hah. Oh bets...how entertaining. I'm glad to be back on all my addicting sites... Definitely gonna be kept busy in class now! Yeah...terrible, I know! But my week was actually not too bad...Thursday was the Evanescence concert which was amaaazing. Got there nice and early to line up cause of general admission...front row baby! Amy Lee is bloody amazing. Um what else...Friday was nice, hung out with Marz and caught up, etc. I missed her tons. Saturday I pampered myself with getting my hair & nails done then it was Matts work party plus a bit of casual drinking back at his place...that was fun. Black lights! Tuesday went to visit Carney and lunch date and tonight I finally got to go to Improv again. Thank goodness.
Anywho...life isn't bad. School is stressful but thats normal I guess. Friends and boyfriend are wonderful. I miss lots of my friends though...I don't see 'em as often as I'd like...poop. Parents are a bit annoying but thats normal too I guess...I'm excited for his birthday. I've got all these plans and junk and I just hope I can make his birthday as fun and memorable as he made mine...should be fun. Then V-day! Gah. I gotta work on that too. Hmm...I'm running out of ideas! Hah.
But yeah. Things with him are going quite well. We talk about soo much and its always so fun just to be with him, no matter what we're doing. I've seen him sooo much lately too, I like it. We can be such complete dorks and have serious convos too. There's just so much about him...

K rambling...enough now.

[tokyo-rose]

Dear diary,

Last night was terrible and I wanted to scream but this morning was much better. Rawrs. <3

[flutterby88]

I don't think my heart has ever beat like that before. I don't even know what to say, there aren't really words to describe the fear in that moment when I thought it was all over. Like a part of me was dying. That's what he made it sound like anyway. Have I been too harsh? The heartbreak I put him through that night was enough to break him down completely, and he's so unbelievably tough on the outside. But I can't deny I found the proof I was looking for. He really does love me more than he's ever loved anyone. And oh God, I'm so in love with him. I can't imagine my life without him, he's become such a major part of it. When I saw Carla and Chris I PRAYED for the day when I would be as lucky as them. He's been a dream come true in so many ways and I'd do anything for him, for us. Please God, don't separate us for a long long time. I don't have much control over external forces so I'm begging you. He saw me when nobody else did and when I look into his eyes I see completeness. I don't know what I did to deserve it but I won't ever doubt true love again.

Mark I love you with all my heart! I can't wait for the rest of my life with you.

[tokyo-rose]

Dear diary,

I am so happy it's intersession. I've been so sleepy at school and at home these past few days from staying up late to do homework. Now I can finally catch up on it AND hang with my friends. <3

[minioligo]

Dear Createblog Diary...

How do you be the best while trying your hardest, while being modest at the same time?

Usually, I just resort to second best. I'm so tired of it. I hate being stuck. I hate being chosen last. I hate feeling stupid. I hate feeling like nobody cares that I care. I hate not being friends with them anymore. I hate being brought down with others. I hate having to choose the people that I don't like, so others won't have to sacrifice themselves for them.

I hate it.

[shiftieeyedpnoi]

She started talking to us again, that's good, isn't it? I mean, even though she means to hurt us, and even though there's nil chance, we still need her, don't we? We need our distraction right now. That's all we should see her as, a distraction. Last time we saw her as something else, we went too close. We don't want that, do we? It's dangerous for us.

We really need to get this shit together. We can start on Monday. We have to start on Monday. We're going crazy.

[Stefanny]

dear cb diary,

i'm tired, stupid test's been keeping me worried.

[tokyo-rose]

Dear diary,

This intersession has been so unproductive... It's always good to go online for as long as I want, but I really wish something had happened today.

[michellerrific]

dear cbd,
finally. i've gotten some time to rest and stuff. i hope today's test went well. i missed out this morning just 'cause i was late and then totally felt bad afterward. sigh.

[think!IMAGINARIL...]

Dear cB Diary,
I need to stop becoming too overly-obsessive about some things. I need to stop thinking about to the past and let go of it. I told myself that I would forget it all and pretend that nothing happened, but it's getting harder, especially because I daydream too much. I'm an idiot, I never should have listened to it. It's all lies that will never happen. I've learned my lesson.
I'll stop dreaming.

[tokyo-rose]

Dear diary,

I don't want to go back to school tomorrow. :(

[unconfirmed_exis...]

dear CBD,
I want to type in my xanga but my school blocked the site.But today I found out that I'm a ISFJ (Introverted Sensing Feeling Judging). It's so cool seeing how the descriptions said about such a type matches or doesn't match me.

Whaaaa, not to mention.. According to the site, opposites to attract because by being with someone absolutely the opposite of ourselves it's like we're filling in the other half of the piece of the puzzle and by being with a person somewhat opposite we feel more complete? Something like that. The site could be giving me completely inaccurate junk but it got me wondering if things really work out that way for relationships. I wonder if the person I'm with is somewhat the opposite of what I am and if it's because of this my interest of that signifigant other is what it is today.

[MrStrife]

dear CBD,

I feel so violated and borderline molested. I had a physical but the doctor (lady) did things I thought weren't in the procedure. Let me start off with Damn that asian nurse was mad cutie pie. Mmmm hmmm. She's like 21 o something, had a nice smile and fun personality. I wish she did my physical. lols. Well anyways, I had a physical before for wrestling so I got jest of it. But she was feeling my abs, and excuse me but I don't think any illness can be found there. Also, the ummm balls grabbing part. lol. Ok when I first did it the doctor (also a lady) was standing up with me and grabbed, I coughed, end of story. But this one was sitting and grabbed around for a while. I mean a while because it feels kinda sore.